This weekend we had a work event that had many of the branches of the company coming together.  Even after 12 years I don't know that many people outside my dept but that's partly due to the fact that I am/was a wall flower around people I didn't know.  My friends know me as outgoing but my size always limited me as I was constantly aware of others might be thinking of me.

Anyway... The IT ladies were there and I see them a couple of times a year.  Neither of them recognized me!!!!  One actually extended her hand, thinking I was my co-workers date, and introduced herself.  I responded in kind thinking she was pulling my leg since I'd told her the last time she was in our office that I was having WLS.  She was totally blown away.  My husband and co-worker were there as witnesses!!!  TO COOL

Now for the down:  (Sigh...) the food at the event was terrible.  In previous years it was extremely bariatric friendly.  This time not so much.  Everyone was extremely disappointed and I ended up getting very sick from it.  The quality of what was served caused me to have sever gas build up.  I didn't have any Gas-x with me (something I've now rectified) so it just became unbearable.  Eventually we (hubby & I) left to try and find anything that would help.  I ended up back in the hotel laying down while the Hubs continued in a valiant search.  He did eventually find Gas-X but I was in excruciating pain by that point.  I layed in bed, in a town I was unfamiliar with, not knowing what I should do?  Afraid if I went to the ER that the doc's wouldn't want to touch another doc's RNY patient.  And in to much pain to think about packing up a hotel room and walking 4 blocks to our parking spot.  (Now with a clear head I think.. duhhhh ambulance!)

Sunday was better but not great and today (Monday) I feel like a bruised banana.  I called my doc to talk over what had happened.  Based on my description she is actually concerned the the gas might have crimped my intestine and I now have to be very diligent about watching for other similar symptoms. If I have as she calls it intermittent pain we'll have to schedule an elective exploratory LAP surgery to see what is going on.  If it's acute pain go to the nearest Hospital, the larger the better.

We shall see.......

Last evening, I was working on organizing a new dresser, in the process I unearthed a ring.  A ring I haven't seen or thought of in years.  It had been my grandmothers and I used to wear it every day after she passed.  Some where along the line it got to tight and I put it away.  It was easier to hide it from my daily view than to deal with the enormity of the fact that I'd gained so much weight that I wasn't able to even wear it on my pinkie.

Last evening it came to lite and with hesitation I slipped it on my pinkie.  WOW, to my delight I could spin it around.  So today I will be wearing it on my right ring finger.  What a great feeling.  I think my grandmother would be proud of me.

The weight gain over the years took so much from me, in so many subtle ways that I was able to ignore them as they piled up behind closed mental doors.  I feel somewhat like an archaeologist as I delve threw my own layers to find aspects of myself that have lain dormant for so long.

Today was a half off at Savers a local resale shoppe in my area.  My cousin and I were out looking to score some bargians on, well, anything that caught our fancy. 

I found it strange to be in the middle of the racks of clothings.  I'd always headed to the back or end of a rack. Today I sort of circled around myself trying to get some bearings on where I should start.  I picked up a few things but not a lot.  I felt a little bit overwhemled to be honest. 

Right now I have a masive pile of clothing in my closet that I can't wear.  I ment to go threw it all this weekend and sort which I was going to try an consign and which I was going to donate.  But some how I always found something else to do.  Oh well..  suppose it will just continue to grow till I get around to it.  lol

Zumba has been great and I'm doing very good about logging my food, water and all that.  I've also added a few new vitamins after getting my blood work back.  My doc was happy with were I was at, but after reaserching here and other places I felt I needed tweak a couple of things.  My liver enzymes were elavated but apperently that's realtivly normal at this point.  in 3 months if they haven't started to start reducing I'll get sent for a couple of test.  But I'm not worried.  I was diagnoised with Fatty liver about 10 years ago and the #'s are in the same range as they've been historacally. 

This morning I weighed in.  I was dissapointed but not overly surprised that I've stayed the same weight for the last two weeks.  Between the rough PMS & period, the lack of excerise and slacking on the my food log I'm in a position where I need to check myself.  I'm not far enough out to coast.  I have to work my tool.  I can say that I'm adding everything up in my head but it's easy to get side tracked and not account for all my bites of food or not reach my H2O and protein goals for the day.

So I've set out to break my mini-stall with re-assesment of my food log, lots of H2O and a Zumba class.  There was no reason to prohibit me from going tonight. (I don't drive in Snow or Icy Condition)  And boy am I glad I went.  I feel so GOOD.  I have to remember on those days when I don't feel like it just how wonderful I'll feel after the fact.  The food logging helped me make a good and educated dinner choice so I could round out my protein and veggie for the day.