....something that I've gained in Spades since my surgery.  It's not just about the weight I've lost because I certainly wasn't this confident when I was this weight previously.  It's the feeling of having control over myself and my eating that gives me inner strength, I think.

Today I woke up early (for a Sat) and popped off the Zumba class.  This may not seem like a big deal but I don't usually try anything/place new without a friend for support.  I was introduced to Zumba a few months back by a friend in my Support group.  I've been going ever since and really enjoyed it.  On the weekends I usually walk with a walking group but today I was unable to get together with them.  But since I wanted to work out I looked for classes in my area.  I found a Studio not to far from my house and this morning I went!!! with no friend network.  I walk in paid my money and started the class even though I was late and was unfamiliar with their routines.  In the past I would have apologized profusely and walk out, saying that I'd come back another time, that's assuming I'd ever made it in the door.  Instead I watched for a minute then started in jiggling and sweating in front of a HUGE F****** Mirror with a bunch of women I've never meet.  I screwed up the steps and tried to stay out of peoples way but damn did I get one hell of a work out.  

The realization that I had the confidence to do this alone is amzing!!!!  That's not something that can measured on a scale.

I've been fighting a migraine for 2 days now.  Sigh...  All I want to do is curl up in a ball but there is work to be done and protein to be consumed. To be honest, I"m having trouble getting in my liquids and protein.  The meds are heavy duty and kind of throwing my off my schedule.  I'm trying folks but Damn this suck. 

I suppose on the Up side this is only my second bad migraine since surgery.  That's two in almost six months and considering I used to get them multi times a month this is a major improvement.  I've also been able to reduce my daily control med down from 120mg to 20mg.  Today I'm feeling like maybe I need more but I think it's my allergies that are causing the biggest reaction and not much is going to help that. 

Well at least it stops me from looking longingly at those mini cadbury eggs.  LOL Thank goodness for small saving graces/

Sigh....  Well Cadbury mini eggs are my FU***** Nemesis.  I had my surgery just after Halloween, then there was Christmas and Valentines Day; NO problems.  But Easter candy specifically the mini eggs are beyond YUM.  They are a complete "O" food for me.  The rest I can do with out.  But these I'm having trouble saying no to. 

 I try to avoid them but they keep showing up at the communal candy bowl at my office.  Which is right next to my cube, courtesy of my cube neighbor.  Office politics doesn't allow me to move said bowl.  I just have to Zen Yoga my way past the damn thing.  
 
Eventually, I have some .  And, Yes, I add it to my food log... I'm nothing if not accountable.  My food/head doc said be a conscious eater and allow myself the treat on occasions that way I don't over indulge and I don't feel guilt for it.  As guilt is a useless and paralyzing feeling which will lead me to feel like a failure and can be detrimental to my overall goals.

So a treat it is...  pop those little eggs one at  a time, roll that little sweetness around my tongue.  Crack the hard shells with my molars and suck off the shards.  Then just let that center melt it's ever loving bliss down my tongue.  Sigh.. I've got it bad.

Sigh.... 5 more days and they will be gone for another year.  I need strength!

LOL...
I've been doing ZUmba for a bit now and walking at lunch 1.5mi.  I've recently rented a Work out DVD by Jillian MIcheals.  "Banish Fat Boosting Metabolism"  My goal was to increase my heart rate over the course of the day.  (Which it does! IN spades.)  By the end of this workout I'm litteral dripping on my living room floor during the cool down.  As I strech out my Hamstrings I feel like my head is a leaky faucet.

Since I'm only renting the DVD I've got a find the cheapest outlet to purchase it.  I'm pretty confident I'll be keeping this in my work out rotation.  It's a bit hard on my knees with all the jumping but most of the bits I can modify if it gets to painful and I still get my heart rate up threw the roof!!!