My goal is to come out of surgery next tuesday with God holding my right hand

Well i just stopped in to check in with my friends and oh fam..i dont know how much weight i've lost because i haven't weighed in a few weeks but i've gone from a size 24/26 to an 18/20 which feels wonderful and at layne bryant all my shirts have to be a 14/16 which feels great because the next time i go shopping there i wont even be able to buy shirts which i'm looking forward to because i've had to shop at that store since like the 3rd grade.... i hope everyone is enjoying thier tool like i am.... Life feels great when you can live it healthy...Much love KAI

Well i'm back from Jamaica i had a wonderful time and did things i never would have been able to 58 pounds ago like jet skiing and horse back riding in the water and ooohhh yeah yall i went hiking so i'm pretty freaking over the moon with my new tool and not to mention i purchased so many things and yall know that a girl loves to shop....but life has not been all grand i'm really really hurting and strugglin with other life issues like my relationship with my boyfriend and my future so it seems like for once in my life weight is not an issue but everything else is.....i still cant eat shrip which sux but everything else i've tried seems to go down pretty easy...the only thing is eating and drinking at the sames time hurts so bad so i never do that but other than that me and my tool have just been chilling working on my fitness...... i've moved to northern cali to be with my boyfriend but im lonely and i miss my family and friends sooo freaking much but it this had happen 4 months ago i'd be eating everything in the house so i'm trying to find a healthy way to channel my idle energy please please please let me know if you guys have any advice or thoughts on what to do other than get my gym shoes on and take a walk ...until next time peace and luv Kai/........

Okay so today im saying goodbye to 45LBS and hello to family gatherings OMG this was a tuff weekend my parents had fight night at the house and there was so much freaking food and so many people eating so many helpings of it..it was the first real family gathering that i've attended since my surgery and it was hard...i missed my fam so much and love when we're together but everyone eats constantly and sometimes i feel like this weird outsider with my 1 chicken wing and cup of ice....my fam is sooo freaking supportive but it's just hard watching everyone socialize around the big table with plates piled high and for some crazy reason which prolly isn't even reality i feel like i'm different then the rest of my family.... so i snacked on some sunflower seeds and after about an hour i was talking loud laughing and cracking on my uncles like everyone else..i was so scared for this day to come because i thought everyone would be looking at me or commenting on my weight loss (which they did) but after about 15 min. they were on to the next thing and life was back to normal... at times i felt kinda left out because food was and is always going to be the way we get together and show each other love and there is not one thing wrong with that i just cant eat as much as everyone else which is a blessing and not a bad thing...i'm so happy with the results of this surgery and pretty soon i'll be flying past my goal...only 19 more pounds to go.....yayyyy only 4 days until i leave for JAMAICA>> beautiful beaches and relaxation here i come.

LMAO DID YALL KNOW THAT WE HAVE THESE CUTE LIL BONES IN OUR WRIST AND THE INSIDE OF OUR ELBOWS...I GUESS I GAINED SO MUCH SO FAST I DIDNT NOTICE THEM BEFORE...I ALSO HAVE 1 DIMPLE IN MY RIGHT CHEEK THAT I HAVEN'T SEEN SICE 5TH GRADE! OKAY I'M REALLY GONE NOW....

OMG i haven't seen my OH FAM in sooo long...i'm doing well as far as my Weight Loss journey... i'm waving good bye to 39LBS for good and i can fit into clothes that have been in a crate under my bed for over a year so i'm happy with my personal journey. Life has been sooooo streesssffuulll!! lol i'm going through alot with my family and my boyfriend but that hasn't made this harder it's made me more dead set on getting this weight off and being a better healthier person...i've started to get my but up and work out and you can't even understand (okay okay you all understand) it feels so darn good to be able to walk almost 2 miles burn almost 400 of the 600 calories i'm eating and not feel like someone hit me in the chest with a hammer or that i'm about to die...i'm now 25 as of march 24th and for the first time in 4 years i went to the beach, sea world, and the zoo i walked all day day after day and never got tired or thought about food and was ready for the next adventure....for my big 25th my parent got me a trip to JAMAICA woooo and i'm going to enjoy myself and i can fit on the plan without a seatbelt extender...i'll probably still be jammed a lil but the seatbelt will fit and this weekend i'm going shopping with my friends for a swimsuit lol omg life is good and getting better every single day that i wake up with my new tool i love this surgery and i wouldn't change my choice for a bucket of money.( one dollar bills)....okay this was sooo long but i missed my bloggy blog.! love and peace 4 real!!!

Kai

My next goal is to get to 250lbs just 25lbs to go and i can start horse back riding classes!