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I was just reading over my last post and saw the weight log of "204"... WOW. 

It was shocking to see that number. It was/is very weird for me to see that as MY weight. I have not been that weight for 10 years.   I know I have only lost 14 pounds- but really, I have been 30 pounds heavier.

When I first decided a month ago, to give WW a shot- I thought I was going to be starting this journey at 235. That was the heaviest I had seen on my scale (I hadn't been on a scale in over two years) 

But as I weighed that day... I was actually 218. So I was a bit closer to 200 than I thought... which is a good thing. A REAL GOOD thing  

I started with WW 17 pounds below what I thought I was. So just this little bit of loss (14 IS small compared to the 70+ I want to loose!) is VERY BIG to ME.  This put me down closer to the 200 mark than I have been in OVER 10 years!

I have this personal goal in my heart. I'm not really caring whether I reach this goal NOW- or next month. But it is an important goal for me.  I want very badly- to get BELOW 200.  I know that is a fairly common goal, but this has a little more meaning that my just loosing the weight.  200 is what I weighed after I had my last (bio) child. It was a real ugly situation... a lot of heartache followed. Depression consumed me for a very very long time. I didn't want to live. Although things have gotten better- life was pretty much like that for 10 years.  

It's odd... and I'm really not sure WHY the weight has connected itself to that trauma... but it has. I want terribly bad to get BEYOND that. I want to put THAT part in the PAST.

Thinking back... in the OR as I was getting my c-section... the Dr made a rude (down right mean!) weight comment. I wonder if mentally I have not let go of that?  I'm not sure. I think it's really just the ugliest, most HORRIBLE trauma of my life... and I just want to get one more step BEYOND it.

So there you have it.

I am very happy to be this close to 200. I'm going to do my very best this week to maybe get to that goal BEFORE I leave on my trip on Oct 2. I will have to loose 5 pounds in the next 10 days. If I can keep things going as I did the last week... I might just get there!

Yesterday was my ONE MONTH mark of starting to work with the Weight Watchers flex plan.  Today I weigh 14 pounds LESS than one month ago!

My weigh in date is Monday. But when I realized it was ONE MONTH- I was very curious what my total for one month was. I wanted to log the one month mark. I was afraid I was going to be disappointed as I stepped on the scale :(

I saw it read 204 and I was SO excited! I got on... and off. On.... & off that scale! THREE TIMES. It still read 204!

I slid the scale back into the closet... began to get dressed and thought it HAD to be lying! So I slid that scale BACK out and got on it TWO MORE times!  And it DID... it REALLY READ 204!!!  So I have lost FOURTEEN pounds in ONE month :)    

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

WATER.... WATER is KEY!  That is the ONLY thing I have done different this week than the last couple weeks. Week #1 I drank 8 cups per day. I lost GOOD. Then I had a couple where I sluffed off- but since Tuesday I have downed 64 ounces per day.

August 20- I weighed 218
August 26- I weighed 212  (6 lbs lost)
September 02- I weighed 210 (2 lbs lost)
September 10- I weighed 210 (No loss)
September 17- I weighed 208 (2 lbs lost)
September 21- I weigh 204 (4 lbs lost!!!)

Wow! I have been on WW for almost a MONTH! My weight is coming off SLOW... but it IS coming off!  

I lost 2 pounds this last week! So I am at a total of loosing 10 in the last month. That might not seem like a lot to some people- but 10 is just FINE with me :)  I know, had I drank ALL the water I am suppose to- had I been even MORE careful with my points... I would have dropped more weight. But I am comfortable dropping 10 so far :)

The next 10 I think, will be great fun! Because NOW others will begin to really notice the work I'm doing to get my life back! And, I will feel even that much better :) 

In two weeks I am taking a little trip to the state capital... wooo whooo! But the real scary thing there is--- McDonalds! There are NO fast food places where I live, so this will be a real challenge I'm sure. It's been almost two years since I had a burger from McDonalds. The GOOD thing is- I weigh on Monday and leave on Tuesday. So I will have my 35 extra points readily available. I plan to take a print out of how many points are in each thing I might be falling for. I WILL be walking a LOT that week as well, so there will be a lot more calories burned :)
 
So there ya have it... TEN POUNDS GONE in the last 29 days :) :)

Okay, I started having difficulties this week- nothing horrid but just a little harder to stay on track. I'm still doing well, COULD have done BETTER this last week but this week it'll be LOTS better! 

I stayed at the same weight- no higher but no lower either. that's okay. It was my own doings with not drinking my WATER. THAT was my biggest downfall. Today I have three cups down already- still pumping more down :) I am DETERMINED this time!

I also found that I can eat 5 cups of light popcorn and it is only 2 points!! And, I bought some natural cheetos.... bagged them up into 32 piece servings and sealed them. This is on;y 3 points and they are to DIE for :)  If I drink my ice water and munch on these= that helps my munchy attacks :)

Onward... hupp... 2... three!

Well, I  gingerly stepped onto the scale yesterday morning and I had lost TWO pounds! So this is a total of 8 in the first 2 weeks :)  I am VERY happy! 

Today we went to the lodge picnic and I had a little macaroni salad & potato salad AND a small little piece of spice cake. I entered it all into my points tracker to the best of my ability... I think I still stayed really well in my range! I used 0 of my extra 35 points for week #1 and I used 7.5 of my extra for week #2! I don;t think that is tooo bad? I wish I'd not used ANY extra but hey- that little piece of spice cake was GOOD!  :)


I am hoping I will have dropped a bit more by tomorrow but we'll see. I've been drinking water to try and wash all that I ate today OUT. :)

Started at 218... am now 210.  I have not seen 200 for ten years.