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This has been so difficult! I never realized how HARD it would be to get BACK ON TRACK after vacation! Honestly, this has been SO HARD! And it has upset me to no end- to KNOW what I WANT, how FAR I've come... yet to still let this slide AWAY! 

I have slarved on CRAP! Ice-cream, and sweets... more of this garbage than I ever ate PRIOR to WW. And WHY? I knew just what I was doing to myself!

Anyhow- last time I weighed myself- I was around 200 again. Give or take 2. I have felt as though I'm PMSing and expected the monthly "thing" for like TWO WEEKS and have yet to start. Hmmmm, maybe this is IT? Maybe it is DONE?  That would be totally bazarr! Cause all has been normal for so many years- then for it to just STOP so abruptly like that? Weird. But how NICE would THAT be? :)   I am 50 so who knows?

So with all that- I AM feeling bloated and am expecting the damn to burst at any moment.

I did some reading on my OH blog and that has helped me gain a little strength. I woke this A.M. with a little more determination than the past few weeks. I ate a banana, a few graham crackers and have been downing my water.

Well, I'm not a LOT down- but HAVE lost a little eanzy weanzy bit! At least I am BELOW the 200 mark again :)  Once again... in the 190's!!!!!

Going SLOW... but still GOING!!

I bought a new scale and it arrived yesterday- today I am working my WW program again.

Sadly, I let myself go so badly the past month that I weighed in at 200.4 pounds today :(    NOT to make excuses, but I am due to start TOM any day so that might account for a few pounds- I also may have not had accurate readings on my old scale... maybe I hadn't lost as much as I thought? BUT... I also KNOW that I have purged a great deal. I let myself down.

But today is a NEW day! I am doing well so far- drinking my water- I'm going to stay on track from here on out. I do NOT want to EVER EVER EVER again, see "200" on a scale that I am standing on!!!  NEVER EVER EVER!!!

I am drinking drinking DRINKING my water today- and will do my best to BE MY BEST!!!!

In a day or two- I *WILL* see the 190's again!