I am just about 3 months and 1 week out from when I had my surgery and I cannot believe the difference in my life.
I am down 10 inches in just my stomach.  I have gone from a size 24/26 to an 18, and not just any 18, I mean wearing jeans straight from the dryer 18.  I know that soon enough I will be further down in sizes.

I can sit in booths with out fear.
I can cross my legs.
I no longer feel like the fat girl when I am out with my friends.
I can see my collar bone.
I can work all day and come home and play with my daughter.
My lists of "I can'ts" shrinks while my list of "I can's" continues to grow.

I am so thankful for this surgery.  I am so thankful for showing my daughter that being healthy is very important.  I am thankful that I am finally being a role model to help her grow to be a successful confident woman.

In three months I say goodbye to 60 lbs of misery, pain, and regret.

I had my one week evaluation yesterday, and everything is looking great, externally.  I kind of wish they did an ultra sound or something to make sure everything is okay on the inside.

I am ahead of the curve at lost 13.5 lbs by yesterday and today I am down another pound.  The CNA stated that on average people lose about 30 lbs their first month, I of course cannot be average and I am shooting for 35 lbs :)

Today I am a bit more tired than normal and I think it is because I had to drive over an hour to see the doctors, and I went shopping and walking around for an hour yesterday.  I am a little frustrated at my lack of energy, but I am sure it is because I am averaging  only 400 calories a day.

I have been approved for a Soft Diet, and while I was so excited for this, I have never felt so lost on what to eat.  Last night I had 1 oz of sandwich  meat and two bites of small broccoli covered in cheese from Green Giant steam-ables.  I am not sure what to eat from there.  I felt comfortable on my Pureed diet, as long as it can be poured out of a cup I was good.  Now I just need to make sure it is moist..... umm okay......  I guess I will know if I eat something that I am not ready for. 

I am still struggling on feeling full.  I got confirmation that I practically cannot stretch my stomach out right now, and since I have never felt that over full sensation everyone talks about, I wonder if I am eating enough.  Don't get me  wrong it isn't like I am hungry, I just don't know if I should eat the entire packet of Cream of Wheat or not.  Should I limit myself, or should I keep eating until I am "full."  I guess I will figure it out.

In less than two days I am suppose to go back to work.  I am not sure if I will have the energy.  Thank goodness in my job if I need to sit I can.  My bosses and coworkers are very supportive so I am not worried about that, I just know I am going to be exhausted.  Also, how will I get my liquid and food in?  I need to start planning my meals ahead of time and plugging them in to make sure I am getting what I am suppose to get.  This stresses me out.

So Day 5 post op and I have to say I know when I need to stop drinking because I become starving.  Not like ohh I can eat, but ohh my goodness I need food!!!!  I am worried because I am not sure if this is normal or not.  I thought I wouldn't be hungry and that is the whole reason to have this surgery.   Now I still get full after a big sip of drink, I am satisfied after 1/2c of food, and I only eat 3 to 4 hours apart with no snacking, so I am guessing this is normal for my body.

Here comes the test of seeing if I have will power to make sure that I get my liquids in, the proper protein in, and stay away from most everything else.  I am ready for soft foods, but I am loving the effects of the pureed diet.  Depending on the mood of my electric scale I am anywhere from 14 to 18 lbs down this first week.  That is MIND BLOWING  

I could not be more excited. Today is the day that I go in for surgery!  I leave in about 45 min. to get to the hospital, surgery is set for 1:30!!  I pray for my surgeon and hope he is having a great day!

Of course I am anxious and excited and just ready to get this over with.  I am fearful that I will not be able to have self control and this will be an expensive waste, but I truly hope not!