YEAHHHHH!!! I get to sleep in tommorrow....which means I'll be up around 7:30 but its still sleeping in and no work!!!!! Tonight is the full moon so my husband and I will spend some time doing what we do- probably some meditating or reflecting on the past month and then we are grilling out and sitting around the fire. It will be a good night. Tommorrow we are going to go drive to some farmer's markets and just get out of the house, probably go to the park. Sunday I need to pull weeds and decide how I want the garden next year. It was too late to plant this year so next year we will have 3 seperate gardens- 1 for vegetables, 1 for herbs and 1 for medicinal plants or flowers. With the economy so shitty we have to start growing our own food. I can't afford it anymore. We do have two fruit trees so that helps- a cherry and an appleand we have blackberry bushes. I was thinking of planting strawberries and grape vines.

About RNY. I still am happy I did it. Even if I don't lose anymore. Yea I'm more than alittle pissed off over this stall. Still haven't lost SHIT!!! Its been 28 days- almost a full month since I lost a pound!!! Its weird because I have lost inches but is it muscle or what? I eat barely anything at all!!!! I don't know what to do. My surgeon said to be patient but if I was a patient person with willpower I would not have had surgery!!! I could do it on my own. This is pissing me off just typing about it. I should stop.

This is my first post of the day and I may post again later. Its about 8am, I'm at work and my energy is awful. I've been this way all week. Since I haven't had any labs done I don't know whats going on. no one seems too concerned about it though. I have been getting plenty of sleep but I don't want to get out of bed in the mornings and on the weekend I want to take a nap but they turn into 4 hours- that's not a nap!!! later......

Well, I went to see my surgeon for a check up on my ulcer. The last few days have not been pleasant. If I eat anything other than soup I get sick.so I told him about it. He says he's not worried and I shouldn't be either. Its all from the ulcer and as soon as it heals the pain and vomitting will be gone. He also said he's not worried about my weight loss. I guess I'm ok. I have to go back next Thursday for another checkup. He gave me his cell phone number to call after there office closes. Its supposed to be closed on July 31st but he says he will still be in the office until the end of August and will also be working in the hospital so I will still have my wonderful doctor!!! My pouch makes all kinds of entertaining noises now. It sounds like it wants to talk..... I never claimed to be sane ok.... I do talk to my pouch though....... Back to the surgeon.... He also told me not to make my protein shakes with milk. I am now using diet green tea and fruit. I also got my samples I ordered!!! I was so happy they came in. I have about 15 samples and my emersion blender and calcium powder ans SF Syrups.... this makes me happy..... Well almost time to get of work.

Ok I started that off well. I seem to only write about the negative stuff. I am happy I had RNY. I have more energy and seem to be all around in better health. I am just currently frustrated with this stall. I'm getting tired of gaining and losing the same pound and I don't know what to do to start losing again. Everyone says its normal but I've talked to others that said this didn't happen until they were 3 weeks out. This started for me less than a week and a half- 10 days and now in 2 days it will be 1 month post op and I still have only lost 31 pounds- only 16 since surgery the rest was from the two weeks prior I was on liquids only. What can I do? Excercise more? Go back to all liquids? thats not feasable for life!