I am so pissed. This should have affected me long before now. I guess reality has set in finally! I HAVE NO SURGEON, NUTRITIONISTS NO ONE!!!! I can't believe this! I have been throwing up again and can't even call anyone! If I am still sick today I guess its off to the nearest hospital. I feel absolutely alone. Sure I can come on here and rant and rave but they can't tell me if my levels are in check! What am I supposed to do? I need to be honest. I'm more pissed at myself for chosing this clinic and not checking out more options, I'm also pissed at myself for not calling enough other surgeons to see if they'll take me- without a referral! I can't just call any bariatric surgeon it has to be close. I had to drive to far before. I need something closer to Mason and I haven't found many options!!!!

Current medical issues: Ulcer and stricture. Ok apparently the meds didn't work.Of course who knows since I don't have a doctor. The stricture was termed as minor and small but I was told I would need to have it opened a couple more times- this could be why I am now vomiting ot it could still be the ulcer. I need to find out. Its only when I eat meat. I'm fine with soft foods or liquids- well sometimes they hurt but I don't vomit. Meats are difficult lately. They were fine last week!! I have to go to work.

I can't keep down my food. Shakes seem to be the only thing I can handle. I haven't been having these issues lately but today for some reason my pouch did not like anything I tried to eat. Right now I'm tired. I get that way after dumping. Its almost 9 I guess I should go to bed.

I can eat alot more than 4 ounces. I don't get full on just 4 ounces but when I get close to 8 I am overstuffed. I'm so confused. The last thing I need is to stretch my pouch or halt my loss anymore. I've stalled so much. Oh well... tommorrow is a new day!

Well its 8 am. I didn't get my arse out of bed in time to workout so I'll walk more tonight. I have to get up early while everyone is asleep. I hate an audience when I'm doing a video workout. Oh well off to work....