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Surgeon TestimonialBrian CantorI met Dr Cantor today for the first time. He is a very pleaseant man. HE made me feel right at ease immediately. He thoroughly reviewed the entire process with me, including the surgery and what happens before, during and after surgery as well as the recovery period. Most of this I had already researched. I will update as time goes on.
- Humor - Good, clean humor please. No Dirty Jokes!
- Theater - It's the next best thing to a relaxing massage.
- Movies - Action-Adventure, some Sci-Fi, Comedy & Romance
- Music - Gospel; R&B; Jazz
- Black American - Proud to be an AAF-- It's what I am, not who I am
- Christianity - I love my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ! I will trust Him in all that I do!!
- Location Groups - MD/DC/VA WLS members
- Married - I loves me some him. . .my hubby of course! I know he's got my back.
- Vacation - I love to watch the sunrise & sunset at the beach.
Posted new pics on August 23, 2008 2:57 pm
I just posted a few new pics from my Arizona trip to see my son, Robert. Check them out when you get a chance.
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O my gosh- it's been 8 months since I posted! on August 23, 2008 12:32 pm
Has it been 8 months since I last posted?!? All I can say is that getting through the grieving process is a slow one--one that you simply can not rush. A person has to work through this test in their own unique way and in their own time. It truly does vary from individual to individual.
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I am so very thankful that I know Christ and more importantly, He knows me; what I can stand and when I need His unwavering strength to carry me through the darkest moments of my life. I will say this (this is not simply a cliche) but time does heal all wounds--especially if the attending physician is Jesus. Without Jesus being the true center of my life, the loss of my dear husband, Bill, my best friend and confidant would have killed me also. I know without a shadow of doubt the Jesus Christ has been my sustainer, my sanctifier, my shepherd and my fortifier throughout these past few months.
It's been a long and hard 9 months for me. They say the 1st year is the hardest and I learned this to be true for me. But I no longer spend days or even hours depressed and crying my heart out because I miss my Bill. Don't get me wrong, I do still cry every now and then but it only lasts for a short time.
More often than not, I remember more of the happy moments with Bill; the morning walks we used to take, quiet evenings spent at home just watching a movie, listening to some 'old school' music, dancing in the living room or sharing a joke with each other. Bill had a great sense of humor and the most wonderful, hearty laugh. All these memories make me smile, laugh and I sometimes get a little teary-eyed.
I have been attempting to journal my feelings since January. (not an easy task for me). But I do try to journal whenever my emotions start to overwhelm me. If you are going through anything like this, I highly recommend journaling. Over time, journaling helps you to purge those overwhelming feelings onto paper and it also helps you to track your progress as you heal over time. Oh you won't believe this or even see it as you are journaling. But as time passes, you must go back an read what you have journaled and watch how God will reveal to you just how much you have grown in that time. He certainly showed me how much I had grown through my grief even though I could not see it at the time.
As Vicki Yohe's song says, "You amaze me, Lord!"
I have a My Space page now: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=392892604
If you are a My Space member, drop by and send me some love In the meantime, I will try to post some recent pics.
My Current Stats on January 22, 2008 8:27 am
Goal Wt: 150-lbs
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Goal BMI: 25.0
Current Wt:: 168-lbs
Current BMI: 28.0
Prev Wt: 174-lbs
Prev BMI: 29.0
Original Wt: 304-lbs
Original BMI: 50.6
2008--The Year of New Beginnings on January 22, 2008 7:18 am
At our first church service for 2008, my pastor said that this would be the year of new beginnings. He preached that 2008 would be the breaking of a new day. When Jacob wrestled with God all night, he refused to let God go until He blessed him. When God finally gives Jacob his blessing, it is at the breaking of day.
2007, for me, was a very long night. Although I lost the love of my life here on earth, God used this situation to remind me that He is more than enough. He reminded me that He is not through with me yet. He still loves me and has a purpose for my life. Now I must prepare for the new direction in my purpose and the annointing God has planned for me. 2008 is the year of my breaking of the day; a new beginning in Christ Jesus.
I am so very thankful for the godly women and men that have continually prayed for me when all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry. Your prayers gave me strength and encouraged me. I am thankful that you all were obedient to God's call. I will keep each of you lifted in prayer and I pray that God will bless each one in deed.
*Side Note* Shortly after Bill's passing, God allowed me to see a vision of Bill. He was dressed all in white and he had the biggest grin on his face. Bill was laughing, shouting and dancing like I had never seen him do before. Bill was dancing around the throne of Christ and Jesus was sitting there smiling down on his child. The sight blessed me so that all I could do was smile and laugh with Bill.
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In Appreciation... on December 13, 2007 10:00 am
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So many kind words, so many words of encourgement. My family and I are so thankful to everyone who sent a kind word, said prayer, made phone call or sent flowers. Your thoughtfulness has meant so much to us as we said goodbye to a good man, husband and father.
Perhaps you sent a lovely card, Or sat quietly in a chair
Perhaps you sent a floral piece, If so we saw it there.
Perhaps you spoke the kindest words, As any friend could say.
Perhaps you were not there at all, Just thought of us that day.
Whatever you did to console our hearts,
We thank you so much, whatever the part.
May God bless each of you!
I return to the nutritionist tomorrow. I finally broke down and purchased a scale. I wanted to know before my visit that I was staying on target. Hallelujah! I am finally at the goal weight set by my nutritionist. Tomorrow when I meet with her, I know she will refer me for surgery.
My husband, family and friends has noticed that I am losing weight. My husband says he can tell by my legs. I reminded him that I still wanted the surgery and he wasn't too happy about it. I also talked to my daughter and son and told them both that I still plan to have the surgery and why. My daughter hates the idea. I just wish they would try to be more understanding. It's as if they tune out after they here "surgery." They don't won't to listen to your reasons for doing it. They all seem to think of this as the 'easy way out' or a 'quick fix.' They have absolutely no idea that this is a serious lifestyle adjustment, one that I am mentally and physically ready and able to make.
Aug. 18, 2005
Well, I went to the nutritionist on Tuesday. My goal weight had to be 288 by this appt in order to be referred for surgery. WooooHooo! I weighed in at 286!!!! She is submitting my name to the GBS review committee for approval and I should receive approval confirmation in about 2-4 weeks! Finally, I am on my way. I've been taking my vitamins, calcium supplements and B-12. I have even started to increase my protein drinks. Life just keeps getting better and better. (However, the protein drinks seem to make me very constipated--haven't figured out how to correct that yet.) Til next time folks--stay blessed!
Got an email from my nutritionist today. My case is scheduled for review for approval Aug. 30th! I should receive notification by the first week in Sept. I am really getting excited about this now. Stay tuned for more!
Aug. 22, 2005
Not much to add...I'm still waiting to be approved. I told my sister and two dear friends about the surgery. My sister was very apathetic and my friends didn't seem to understand why I want to do this. Talk about being out here alone!!!
Oh I forgot to mention, I went walking on Saturday with my husband and I outwalked him!!! We walked about 2 miles at a brisk pace. I had to do double-time just to keep a step or two behind him but I was able to keep up. He was tired when we finished! (LOL)
Aug. 24, 2005
I attended my first WLS Support group tonight At HCH. It was for brand new folks who were just beginning their WLS journey. As I've been with the program for a year, I was a little bored but stuck it out. There were a few interesting questions and I did learn more about the pre-op procedures and tests that I need to get done. Maybe the next time, I'll be in the post-op group . I'd love to hear some of their experieces.
Aug. 31, 2005
Hurricane Katrina hit the gulf coat with a vengence; Florida, Alabama, Mississippi & Louisiana. Louisianna and Mississippi were hit the hardest. New Orleans is totally underwater. There are literally hundreds of thousands of people who have lost everything! Thousands more are feared dead. I pray for God's abundant grace and mercy to cover the survivors as they face the hardest trials of their lives in the weeks, months and years to come. May His peace be with them. I pray that those who do not know Christ begin to cry out to him for salvation; those that already have a relationship with Christ take their relationship and their faithwalk to higher levels in Him. I will be praying for all of you that God restore you to a better place. AMEN!
Sept. 1, 2005
I'VE BEEN APPROVED!!! I just got off the phone with my nutritionist who has informed me that I have been approved for WLS!!! She said I passed with flying colors. I am so estatic right now I could fly! I already have an appointment to see my pcp tomorrow to start the referral process for all of the testing that I will need. I feel like I am finally getting my life back to where I can enjoy being a participant instead of an on-looker. I think I'll write out my list of things I will be able to do once I lose this weight. Life is so good!!
Sept. 8, 2005
I am still waiting on my approval letter. Nothing yet. I hope it comes soon. I know I should be more patient but I feel like I'm so close now that I can taste victory. I'll post again when I receive my letter. GOD BLESS!
Sept. 20, 2005
Well, I still haven't heard anything from the approval committee at Kaiser. It has been 3 weeks. I am really starting to get irritated with them. I work here and can't seem to get a definitive answer. I will have to start making some phone calls if I don't hear something in the next few days.
On a happier note, I am down to 282.5 lbs! YIPPEE!!!!!!. I am so happy to be heading in the right direction. It justs makes me want my surgery date all the more. I've been able to get into a few pants that were way too tight last year. I am going to pray for more patience and try not to get too cocky. All things worth having are worth the wait. TTFN!
Sept. 21, 2005
Today turned out to be a good day. I didn't have to do anything drastic. I know it sounded like I might in my last post. I was just a bit frustrated with the waiting and not knowing. I only had to make two phone calls; one to my pcp to make sure he puts my referral into the computor system and the second call was to Dr. Cantor's office. They confirmed that once the referral is in the system, they will contact me to schedule an appointment with the surgeon. I have a very good pcp and I'm sure that he will have entered my referral by Tuesday 9/27. He is really good about the details. I will be sure to update as soon as I get the appointment. Thanks to everyone who sent me well wishes, prayers and just plain old fashioned encouragement. All of the folks that I've met here at OH have been really wonderful.
Oct. 5, 2005
10:00AM--It has been 5 weeks since I received word that I was approved for WLS but I still have not received my approval letter. I cannot even schedule the initial surgical consult without that letter.
Since I work for Kaiser, I decided to do a little investigative work
on my own and find out who I needed to talk to in order to get things moving again. I ended up talking with the Membership Svcs/Member Appeals manager. She was surprised also that I had not gotten my approval letter. She took all of my information and will make some calls to see what can been done. I should hear back from her in a couple of days. Alright folks, it's time to send up lots of prayers again, that the Lord will remove all obstacles and that there will be calm waters from this point forward.
1:00PM--Today I smiled because I went walking at lunchtime. I walked the entire hour and I felt wonderful afterwards. I am losing weight and feeling great! Thank you Lord!
3:45PM--HALLELUJAH!! HALLELUJAH!! HALELUJAH!! GOD IS SO WONDERFUL! A few weeks ago, I posted a request for prayers for my husband who has cancer and has been suffering with bouts of extreme pain. Well, within a day, he was feeling so much better and having little or no pain. Praise God!
Today he went for his regular follow up visit with the oncologist.
The prostate cancer is in remission!!! PRAISE OUR MIGHTY
GOD! I just can't stop--praising His name!! I just can't stop--praising His name!! I just can't stop--praising His Holy Name!!!
Thank you all of my WLS friends so much for bombarding heaven with your prayers on our behalf. I love you all for being such a supportive and encouraging group of God-fearing, God-loving people.
Oct. 6, 2005
I finally got my approved referral for WLS!! I got a phone call around 1:30 today from the Membership Svcs Manager who went to bat for me yesterday. She had the referrral in her had and told me I could come pick it up at anytime. Y'all do know I practically ran down to her office. I told that woman that I loved her! Now I am waiting on a phone call from the surgeon's office. They told me last month that they would contact me within a couple of days once the referral was approved. YIPPEE!!!(:o))
I sent an IM to my WLS buddy, Ms. Rita who just got her surgery date today. We were shouting over that IM screen. We both hope that our surgries will be about the same date so we can go thru our journeys together. It won't be long now before we both will be on the losing side. Praise the Lord!
Thank you, Lord. Oh I do love me some Jesus!! He never lets me down---EVER!!!!
Note to self: I started my journey weighing in at a whopping 304lbs!! As of last visit to my PCP on 9/2/05, I weighed 284. Last week, when I weighed myself, the scale said 278!!!! WOO HOO!!!! So far pre-op, I have lost 26 lbs! That is great news for me. Right now, my plan is to lose a couple more pounds or at least not regain any weight before my surgery consult. And y'all know I'm a praying woman(:o))
Oct. 14, 2005
WHEW!!! This is turning into quite a struggle just getting my insurance to cooperate with their own guidelines. My surgeon will be Dr. Cantor. On Thursday Oct. 13th, I called his office to schedule my first appointment because they had not contacted me. The lady who took my call said that they had not received a referral for me. I told her that was strange because I was holding a copy at that moment of my approved referral. She placed me on hold and when she returned, she said that whoever approved my referral failed to enter the doctor's name. Therefore, the referral had been in 'virtual limbo' until I called. Needless to say, I now have an appointment for Oct. 25th at 2:15pm for my consult.
I also talked with a friend of mine who recently had the surgery through Dr. Cantor's office. She informed me that eventhough Dr. Cantor is an excellent surgeon, his staff is something else altogether. She warned me that I will need to stay on top of them and to document all contact with the staff because they will later change things on you. All I have to say is, if they want to 'play stupid' with me they will be in for a rude awakening.
But I will be praying that my experience with them will go smoothly--in the name of Jesus! I'll keep you all posted on events as they occur. God Bless!
Oct. 22, 2005
Not much has been happening for me lately. Things have been very hectic (as usual) at work. My company is getting ready to "Go Live" nationwide with a new software sytem so we are busy trying to clean up all old files and train for the new system. Yesterday, my supervisor told my unit that there will be two new coordinator positions opening up very soon. She told me that I was being considered for one of the positions (along with one or two other). She warned that this position will be very stressful; (like what I'm doing right now isn't?!?). I will just wait and see what the Lord has in store for me.
As for my WLS journey, I've been doing a lot of research on vitamins, protein drinks and other nutrional supplements I need to start taking. I understand that it's important to increase my protein intake now, before surgery because this will promote faster healing and less recovery time. Might as well start making these changes now so it won't be such a shock to my sytem after surgery. I am ordering some protein drinks and liquid vitamins from Bariatriceating.com. I've read a lot of positive coments about their products and some of the prices aren't to steep for me. I also am ordering a few items from Puritan's Pride at http://www.puritan.com/. they have a lot of good nutritional supplements but more importantly, they have great sales from time to time.
My eating habits have been backsliding the last few weeks; mostly from job stress and not knowing when I would get an appointment for Dr. Cantor. That appointment is coming up this Tuesday, Oct. 25th . I finally weighed myself tonight to see if I had gained back any weight. I did again back about 4lbs! I weigh 286 tonight but I plan to work off at least 5 of those pounds before I see Dr. Cantor. I refuse to fall back into my old ways when I am so close to finally being a healthy and vibrant woman again. I know that God has so much more in store for me to do with this life. I need to be healthy and strong in order to accomplish His purpose for my life.
My neice, Celeste, who has a powerful walk with Jesus Christ, is organizing a Women's conference in Lilburn, GA in February 2006. It is titled 'Breakthrough 2006.' Celeste has asked to speak at the conference and I plan to do so. I will be praying and fasting to seek the Lord's face in what He would have me say while there. Please keep me lifted in prayer.
"There will be powerful and compelling testimonies with the Word of God of healing in deliverance from women who have been sexually violated. These women are going to rip the veil off and share their experience and by testimony and example will stand "naked and not ashamed" in order to bring healing and deliverance to all who attend."
The conference is FREE. If you would like more information about the conference or would like to attend, here is the link:
I'll post again after my visit with Dr. Cantor on Tuesday.
Oct. 25, 2005
I met with Dr Brian Cantor, my surgeon today. He is very nice and made me feel right at ease. I also met two of his nurses. They treated me very well and respectfully. Dr Cantor went over the entire process from beginning to end with me. I already knew a lot of what he discussed but I did learn a couple of things that I didn't know. He is so thorough. I already have approved referrals for my EGD, Cardiology and sleep apnea test. I plan to call the cardiolodist and pulmonologist tomorrow morning.
I was so pleased with Dr Cantor. I really like him. He made the visit so easy and laid back. I'm going to like having him for my followup care. Oh yes, I forgot to mention that I weighed in at 283!! I lost 3 lbs.
Next, I plan to post my list of things I am looking forward to doing after surgery and begin my picture trail. I want to never forget where I am now and where I will be in 1, 2, 3+ years post op.
God is soooo, soooo good to me!!
Have a God-blessed day on purpose folks!!
Nov. 8, 2005
Well, I had my echocardiogram done Oct. 28th. It took only 20 minutes. I could hear my actual heart beating--cool! I am so eager to get this surgery that I went a day early (today) to my pulmonology consult. My appointment is actually for tomorrow. I tried to get them to see me today but they couldn't fit me in (bummer). So I'll be doing this again tomorrow.
My friend, Ms. Rita had her WLS surgery yesterday(Nov. 7th) She is doing well and I sent her a few cheerful emails to make her smile. I tried to call her at the hosptial but the operator put me on hold for a long time. I finally hung up the phone. I'll try calling her again tomorrow while I'm at work.
I'll post tomorrow after my doctor's appt.
Nov. 11, 2005
HAPPY VETERAN'S DAY! Sorry I took a little longer to post. My visit to the pulmonologist (sleep dr.) only confirmed what I already knew; I have sleep apnea. I have to have blood tests done for my thyroid before I come back to discuss the results of my sleep apnea test. They have referred me to have the sleep study done. The good news is , the sleep center is 2 miles from my house and the do the test 7 nights/week so I can choose which night and I won't have to use any leave. I called the sleep center 3 times yesterday to schedule my appointment but their computers were down all day! I will try again this morning. I was told that I might not get an appointment for 3-4 weeks!!--but they said I could be put on their cancellation callback list to try for an earlier date.
I've also appointments for my pre-surgical tests and endoscopy (EGD). The pre-surg tests will be done on 11/22/05 and the EGD is set for 11/28/05. Kaiser is slow but they are thorough and I really am appreciative of that fact. Sometimes when we ruch to get things done in our own time, we end up suffering because of it. So I will allow God's timing to lead me through this. At this pace, it looks like I will be having the RNY done in January 2006.
Called the SleepMed Center this morning. SURPRISE! SURPRISE! They had an available opening for tomorrow night!!! (Saturday 11/12/05) Can you say praise the Lord? I know I am! I thought I would have to wait at least 3 weeks. My Lord is so wonderful to me!!!
CONSULTS AND TESTS COMPLETED/PENDING:
8/18/05-Nuritionist & weight loss requirements
8/24/05-1st WLS Support Group meeting
9/1/05-I've been approved!!
10/25/05-Surgical consult w/Dr. Cantor
11/9/05-1st pulmonologist visit (to determine sleep apnea)
11/12/05-Sleep study tonight!!!
11/15/05-Blood work for thyroid per pulmonology
11/22/05-Pre-surgical testing for gastric endoscopy(EGD)
12/02/05-COMPLETED! 2nd sleep study to determine CPAP titration
12/08/05-F/U visit w/pulmonolgy to discuss sleep study results
12/20/05- F/U visit w/Dr. Cantor; still no surgery date. On prilosec for 3 mos then mayby a March 06 date?!?
4/11/06-Pre-op for 2nd EGD
4/28/06- Medical clearance and pre-op tests
5/9/06-Pre-op exam w/ Dr. Cantor
Nov. 13, 2005
I had my sleep study last night. I didn't have a restful sleep because I felt like a lab rat with all of those leads attached to me. I awoke with a bad headache, my right hip was killing me and I had a nightmare. I was ready to get the heck out of there and back to my own bed. It was held in at the Marriott Residence Inn in Greenbelt, which was very close to my house. The hotel and room was very confortable in spite of the test though. I am just glad it's overwith. The Respiratory therapist said the results would be sent to Kaiser pulmonolgy in 4-5 days but that they might take up to 2 weeks to put it into their system. [He don't know me very well, do he? (LOL)]
The next step is to get my EGD pre-surg tests done, have the EGD itself and have my f/u visit with the pulmonologist. I'll keep you updated as I progress. It looks like I might have surgery before the end of the year. Say a prayer or two for me!
Nov. 22, 2005
I just wanted to bring you all up to date. As of today, I have completed my thyroid blood work and pre-surgery tests for my EGD which is scheduled for this coming Monday. Dr. Gibeily will do my EGD. He works closely with Dr. Cantor and he told me that he will be assisting Dr. Cantor during my GBS. I met with him today at my pre-op exam. He explained the entire procedure to me and let me know what I can expect before, during and after the surgery. He told me not to eat or drink anything after 12 midnight on Sunday. He also informed me that I will not be fully 'under.' I need to be partially awake because of the gagging reflex I may experience. I need to be able to swallow to avoid aspirating any digestive fluids. (It could lead to pneumonia.) Dr. Gibeily was very reassuring. But I told him that I have no fear. I am so ready to get started. Please keep me and my doctors lifted in prayer that all will go smoothly next Monday.
A lot of folks complain about Kaiser Permanente for many different reasons. Some poeple want to rush right into GBS and don't want to go through the long list of pre-op tests and doctor visits. I, for one, any very thankful and appreciative of the thoroughness of Kaisers's medical staff. I am very confident that when I do have my GBS that my body will have been checked and rechecked for any potential physical problems. All of the testing done and the specialists I see are only there to ensure that the procedure is 100% successful for me with little or better yet, NO complications.
I thank the Lord for Kaiser's thoroughness!!
So far, every person I have been treated by at Kaiser since I began my WLS journey has been totally professional, very polite and sympathetic to my condition. I have not had one person even give me an unkind look or stare. Each encounter has been very pleasant for me.
I will post again after my EGD.
Dec. 5, 2005Dec. 7, 2005
I had my EGD on 11/28/05 as scheduled. It went very well, no surprises. It was done at Holy Cross Hospital. They have recently remodeled the hospital and added a wing or two. I felt like I was in an upscale hotel and not a hospital. My husband, Bill was there with me. The entire surgery took about 20 mins and I was in and out of the hospital within 4-1/2 hrs with nothing more than a sore throat.
I had been trying to schedule my follow up sleep study but I kept playing phone tag with their scheduler. I finally made contact after 4-5 days of calling and missing calls. The earliest they could schedule me was for JANUARY 17TH!!!! I had no choice but to take that appoitment but I certainly did ask them to place me on their 'cancellation list.' They said they would contact me if they got an earlier cancellation.
Well God is sure looking out for me on this journey , that's for sure. I received a call from Katrina at the SleepMed Center last Friday Dec. 2nd. They had a cancellation for Saturday Dec 3rd and could I come in for an 8:00 pm appt? I didn't even let Katrina get the whole question out when I was giving her my resounding YES! ABSOLUTELY!
I completed the CPAP portion of the sleep study as scheduled. I had to sleep with the actually CPAP mask strapped to my face all night. Once I got used to it, I slept like a baby. It was the most restful sleep I had had in months...no kidding! I awoke Sunday morning feeling clear-headed and wide awake--this was at 5:00 AM folks! I can't wait to bring one of those magic little machines home with me so I can sleep like that every night. I raved about it so much to my husband that he is now considering having a sleep study done himself.
Only two appointments left to do: 1) have follow up visit with pulmonologist and 2) have follow up visit with Dr. Cantor to go over the results of all of my tests and then get a surgery date!! WOO HOO!!!! It definitely won't be long now. I plan to really watch my weight and try to lose 10 more pounds before I see Dr. Cantor. I also plan to begin increasing my protein intake immediately. Maybe I can get to the local community indoor pool and swim laps 3-5 times before my final doctor's appointment. Hey, every little bit helps, y'know. I don't want to give Dr. Cantor any reasons to postpone the surgery.
I appreciate all the prayers and support you all have given me here at OH. This website has been tremendously informative and helpful throught my WLS journey and I thank you so much for what you do here. It won't be long now before I'll be on the losing side.
Got a call from Susanne at the pulmonolgist's office this afternoon. Whe has received my sleep study report. THey have an appointment open for tomorrow at 1:30pm; could I make it? HECK YEAH!!!! LOOK AT GOD WORK Y'ALL!!!!
WHAT I WILL NOT MISS ONCE I HAVE SURGERY:
1) Have sales clerks stop saying to me, "May I help you sir!!!"
2) Feeling like a bloated whale because of all this weight
3) Being tired and fatigued all the time
4) Snoring, chronic post nasal drip, choking & coughing spells at night
5) Sleep Apnea
6) Not being able to take compliments well and always doubting that the person was being anything other than kind and generous.
7) Feeling self-conscious at functions as if people are looking at me and wondering if I'll eat up all of the food, especially buffets.
9) Having a big belly or behind
9) Walking holes in the inner thighs of my pants because they rub together whenever I walk.
10) Not feeling confident enought to wear shorts and tank
11) Not popping the buttons on my pants for obvious reasons.
12) Wearing elastic waistbands
13) High blood pressure or it’s medicine
14) Squeezing my big behind into theater, plane seats, etc that are made for smaller folks.
SOME THINGS I LOOK FORWARD TO DOING ON THE LOSING SIDE:
1) Being able to squat and tie my shoes
2) No swollen feet or ankles
3) Go for long walks without any back/hip pain
4) Stand for more than 15 minutes without my back and hip aching
5) Worship God on my knees at church. If I did that now I'd need a couple of guys to help me back up.
6) Run around the church filled with the Holy Ghost!
7) Run at least a mile (something I’ve always wanted to accomplish)
8) Enjoy dancing for an hour or more--again
9) Wear a bathing suit and not be ashamed have my picture taken.
10) Not be afraid of the camera anymore.
11) Being able to buy misses and/or junior sizes again
12) Buy shirts and dresses that don’t feel tight on my arms and waist
13) Being able to exercise for an hour or more and feel refreshed instead of exhausted
14) Take pleasure in shopping again.
15) Keep up with my three grandchildren
16) Encourage and inspire others who embark on their WLS journey
17) Wear high heels again without my body screaming in pain
18) Having more energy to enjoy living life again
19) To take a vacation and have enough energy to really see all the sights and participate in as many activities as I can.
20) Being able to enjoy swimming as long as I want to.
MY GOALS ARE:
1) To loose 100+ lbs (289 now) so that I’ll look good again with this 5’5” frame
2) Eliminate high blood pressure from my life.
3) Never have to use asthma medication again!!!
3) Exercise 3-5x weekly
4) Swim 10 or more laps with ease
5) Wear a size 12 again.
6) Gain muscle while loosing so my skin doesn't sag as much.
Dec. 8, 2005
Today I met with Susanne. We went over the results of my sleep study. My score is 9 which is average. Susanne explained the CPAP machine and and showed me how to use it. I felt like I had just been given an early Christmas present! I can't wait to strap up!!
I also made a new OH friend today. Her name is Anissa and with Ms. Rita, Janae and Anissa as my angels, post-op should be a breeze with these great ladies to cheer me on.
Dec. 20, 2005
Well, I had my follow up with Dr. Cantor today. We went over the results of my EGD. It seems I have the beginnings of tiny ulcers in my stomach right at the planned surgical site.:'( They put me on prilosec for 3 months. Then I will have to have another EGD to see if the meds worked. IF all is ok, then he will schedule my surgery. It looks like that won't be until early March!!
Although I am disappointed, I appreciate Dr. Cantor's caution. I would rather undergo WLS in the best of health because that means there will be virtually no complications and no secondary surgery. SO I continue to wait.
Dec. 29, 2005
There is so much good news happening with my family lately that I just wanted to share before I burst! God has been moving in such a mighty way for us.
Last month, while I was searching homes on a local real estate website that I had signed up with, We got a call from the agent, Cynthia Scott. It was her site I had joined. She asked us if were were serious about purchasing a home and that she could help us. SHe encouraged us to get started by running a credit check to find out what our FICO score was. We knew it was not very good but Cynthia encouraged to follow through anyway. Cynthia assured us that she would walk us through any problems and help do what was necessary to improve our rating if necessary. To our surprise, we were pre-qualified within 24 hrs. Cynthia wanted us to meet with Dave, the mortgage broker right away to determine how much of a loan we would qualify for. Within a week we had met with Dave, qualified for a loan and were out looking at homes with Cynthia.
Jan. 5, 2006
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Well it's going to be official. Our contract was accepted on Dec.29th. We are going to settlement on Jan. 13, 2006!! No more renting for us. THANK YOU LORD FOR ALL OF YOUR BLESSINGS!
Jan. 16, 2006
I have been so busy lately. The Lord has been moving greatly in our lives. I recently got a promotion and a raise (yahoo!!). I start my new postion next Monday, Jan. 23rd.
We also have been in the home- buying process. God has been moving everything so quickly in this arena that our heads are spinning. We were supposed to go to settlement on Friday Jan 13th but my retirement co. that I borrowed against held up my loan check for 3 weeks. At first they rejected my application. It seems they overlooked pertinent information which had already been submitted to them. They then reversed the denial and issued a check but lied and said they mailed it in the prepaid overnight express envelope that I supplied with my application. The check finally showed up in yesterday's regular mail delivery. So we had to
push the settlement to this Tuesday at 2:00 pm.
Throughout all of this, we have been relying on and following God's
lead, seeking His face whenever we had any fears or doubts. We kept believing that if this new home was meant for us then the Lord would make our pathways clear and He certainly did just that!
I've been lurking for a while with so much happening on the home front. I have been trying to keep up with everyone by reading the messageboards. I have celebrated with you, cried with you
and prayed for each of you.
I still am waiting for a surgery date. But you want to hear something funny? I had a phone call from the hospital registrar's office. They were calling me to pre-register me for WLS on Jan 30th! It seems my doctor had put me on the surgery schedule for that day but he postponed it til March. Apparently his staff forgot to reshedule me. I sure wish I could have taken them up on that January date though.
Feb. 4, 2006
NO I still do not have a confirmed surgery date. I had to be on prilosec for 2 full months because my surgeon told me the EGD I had last November reveled the beginnings of little red marks(early ulcers) on my stomach lining. I go back for a 2nd EGD at the end of this month. Then I have to follow up with the surgeon again. If he gives me the 'all clear' sign, Then I will get a date. Say prayers for me that everything goes well and I finally get my surgery date.
This weight is really taking its toll on my body lately. We purchased a condo last month and its located on the 3rd floor! I have to walk up 4 flights of stairs at least twice a day. Yeah, I know it is good exercise but the back, knee and ankle pain is pure torture on me. I also started taking a Weight Loss Boot Camp with a personal trainer. He is rough no doubt about it and he works my tail off 3 times a week. I have only made it to 2 classes but I really enjoy the workout--pain and all. It relieves so much stress in me. I'm usually exhausted at the end of class but feel stress-free so it has been worth it for me.
I also got a promotion and a raise last month; right in the middle of moving. I had to begin my new job and train the person who took over as specialist. It has been real chaotic. The unit under me has a lot of 'needy' folk who fly off the handle at the littlest things. And most of them are Christians! I spend a great deal of time trying to keep them calm; not letting them get so worked up over their duties. My company has instituted new and more complicated software than they are used to and they are having a hard time with the transition.
The stress of everything has had a negative affect on me because I was eating whatever during all of this and I gained back the 20 lbs I had lost. I am so mad at myself for allowing the stress to take over. That is why I decided to join the Boot Camp. I need to kick things into high gear. I REFUSE TO GO BACKWARDS!! I have come too far and worked my tail off to get approval. I don't want the surgeon to postpone my date any further.
All in all, I am very happy and content for now. My family and I love our new home. It has plenty of room for us. Our son sleeps in till 7:45-8:00 AM and walks across the street to school by 8:30. NO more school buses. I'm planning on doing some painting and purchasing new living room, dining room and bedroom furniture by the end of the year. Right now, I'm still unpacking boxes.
Last night was our church's 'Legacy of Love" couples banquet. It was very, very nice. The banquet hall was huge.They set the tables up for 2 or 4 people. Bill and I had a table for two. Girl the meal was awesome! First, they served soup and a, light salad. Next came a small scoop of mango sherbet to clear our pallets for the next course; fillet mignon w/scalloped potatoes, asparagus and I thing leaks(?). Then we were served lobster! My hubby loved it! I personally can't eat any shellfish so Bill enjoyed 2 lobsters. While we ate we were entertained by singer who performed love ballads and a Christian comedian called "Platinum.' She was funny!
Next week is the Breakthrough 2006 Women's Conference I told you about. I will be flying down to the Atlanta, GA. area to share my testimony as a survivor of sexual child abuse. I wish you were able to come down. I wish some of my friends were going too but no one seems able to make it. I do know that some of my family who live in Atlanta plan to attend. Although I am not afraid to share my testimony, I do get a little anxious when I have to speak in front of an audience. Please send up powerful prayers that all goes well according the Lord's plan. Also pray that there is a grand move of deliverance to those in attendance who are still bound up by guilt, fear, anger etc from their past hurts. Pray for a mighty move within God's people of forgiveness and healing.
Oh one more thing. While reading a friend's OH profile, it reminded me of two other things I want to accomplish after WLS: 1) learn to salsa. I plan to take lessons and 2) try parasailing at least once.
Well, I guess that just about brings you up to date on my life so far.
April 6, 2006
GREAT NEWS! I finally have a surgery date!!! May 22nd, folks, is the day I start my new life on the losing side. I got the call yesterday at 2:40. All work for me ceased at that moment. I started grinning from ear to ear and dancing in the aisle. My co-workers were looking at me like I had lost my mind. WHO CARES—I GOT MY DATE!!!! WHOOO HOOO!!!
I still have a 2nd EGD scheduled for April 13th. Dr. Cantor wants to make sure that my stomach lining is completely clear of those little red marks; then a follow up visit to discuss the results and the GBS itself. Things are really moving now.
I finished the first 8 weeks of my Weight Loss Boot Camp a couple of weeks ago. I’m going to stick with this program because the trainer is very good. He pushes me and makes me push myself out of my comfort zone. That’s what I like; someone who will push me to work hard. The 2nd session started this week and I am really looking forward to pushing myself even harder. The program offers a lot of versatility so there is little chance of me getting bored. I plan to work very hard between now and my surgery date to get my body in the best physical shape for the procedure. Afterwards, I plan to continue my workouts because, I know if I want my body to look good I will have to whip it into shape with lots of exercise as well as an improved and healthier eating lifestyle. I know this is definitely a lifestyle change and in order for this tool to work, I must prepare myself now by making the necessary changes now.
I am so excited about what the Lord is doing in my life that it is beyond words for me right now. I know that 2006 is going to be a major turning point with nothing but positive results for me and for my family. Thank you, Lord for all you are doing for me and what You are working out for my purpose in You. I acknowledge that I can do nothing without You. I acknowledge that I can and will succeed because Your word says that I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. I receive it and I most definitely believe this. When all is said and done, I know that my God will be the only one to get the glory for my victory. I will always praise Your Holy Name!! AMEN
I would like to ask all of my OH friends and family to start a prayer chain asking that the Lord protect me and guide the surgeon's hands as well as the entire medical team. Please pray for an easy surgery and a speedy recovery with little or no problems for me.
You all have been such a blessing to me on this journey and I thank God for your support. I will definitely be posting more often up until my surgery date.
April 19, 2006
Today is my mother's birthday and I really miss her. She would have been 86 yrs old. Happy Birthday MOM!
Since my last post about getting a surgery date, I received only one negative response to my having surgery. It came from one of the minister's at church who is totally against any WLS to regain control. She so much as said that I had not followed and applied the Weigh Down principles. She did not believe that I had prayed and sought God's answer to this issue.
I had previously been through a Christian program called Weigh Down back in 1999 or 2000. It is a bible study on what the word of God says about our eating habits and how to master them. Eventhough I learned a great deal and my faith level increased tremendously, I didn't lose much weight. I followed the principles of Weigh Down very closely; studied the Scriptures, prayed a whole lot, cut down on food portions and/or gave up entirely, many bad food choices but saw little weight loss. Weigh Down simply did not work for me.
Please understand, that I have a tremendous amount of respect for this minister. I felt like I had been slammed in the chest by this email. Some else told her about my upcoming surgery without my permission and that is when I got the email. I was really ticked off. I knew how strongly this minister felt against WLS. I deliberately chose not to share my journey with her at this time. I eventually did speak with the person who violated my confidence. She did apologize and we reached an understanding.
However, I have not responded to the minister's email yet. Believe me, I definitely plan to do just that. I had to pray about this thing and ask for godly advise on how to respond. I still respect this person a great deal but I want her to have a better understanding about exactly what WLS is and why many Christians opt to have the procedure. She needs to understand that for many Christians, WLS is a life-saving tool, not a short cut.
In June, this journey will have taken me two years or tears, prayers, research, of gaining knowledge and understanding of all that WLS involves. My decision was in no way an easy one for me. I know that if WLS was not part of God's plan for me that my God would have blocked me at every turn. In fact, I know that I never would have been approved if God didn't want me to have WLS. I know this journey has taken me as long as it has because God was saying to me "Not now. You are not ready yet"
Now that I am nearing the end of this portion of my journey, I can honestly say without a doubt in my mind, that this was the best decision, the right decision for me. My life will be all the more blessed because of WLS.
I have several appointments coming up in the next few weeks: my medical clearance exam & pre-op tests on 4/28 and pre-op exam on 5/9. I have lots to do to get ready for my big day. I'm so excited about wearing smaller sizes in a few months, that I have been sight- seeing through the stores and catalogs. No I have not spent any money. I have been exercising lots of self-control. What has happened for me is a renewed desire to start sewing my clothes again (but in smaller sizes(:-))
You all stay blessed and keep the prayers coming!
May 18, 2006
Well 4 days and counting! I am really getting very excited about what my future holds after the surgery. Dr. Cantor put me on all liquid protein as of May 10th. This is the hardest part of my journey so far. I really, really, really want to chew something...badly! I spoke with the nurse, Dorie at Dr. Cantor's ofc today. She absolutely forbid me to eat anything solid. So I have purposed in my mind and heart to adhere to what they tell me. (Y'all please, please pray for me in this area!!!) It's rough trying to overcome that desire to chew solid food.
I sent a letter to all of my family and friends making them aware of what I am about to undergo. I didn't want those close to me (especially my family members) to be left in the dark or ask me lots of questions immediately after my surgery. Since we have a family history of obesity as well as several of the related co-morbidities, I wanted to share my reasons for chosing to have WLS and my experience.
The responses have been mostly very supportive with a few questions. But I did get a very strong negative reply from a cousin who thinks that this would be a huge mistake. She even offered to purchase an exercise bike for me. Although I haven't seen her in a couple of years, she is larger than I am and is suffering from some of the more serious co-morbidities. I believe her fear of surgery (of any kind) is overwhelming her. I, however, am not afraid and I will be celebrating the 'taking charge of my life from obesity' this time next week. What I will do is to keep my cousin lifted in prayer for deliverence from her fears.
On another topic, my home pc is still down so I will not be able to post again for a while. First chance I get, I will find a pc to post what my status is after surgery. Thank the Lord I can now say "see you all on the losing side!!!" Whoo Hoo!
May 31, 2006
I just wanted to let my WLS family know that I made it through my surgery with flyng colors. Thanks for all of your prayers and good wishes.
I am now 10 days post-op and my doctor says that I am doing fine. However, he did get upset with me when I told him I had tried some baby foods. He demanded to know who told me it was okay to eat baby food and I told him that my nutritionist told me it would be okay to eat baby food right after surgery. For the record, IT IS NOT OKAY TO EAT ANYTHING OTHER THAN JELLO AND CLEAR LIQUIDS for the first three (3) weeks post-op!! My doctor was furious at the nutritionist for overstepping their boundaries and he was sending out an email to give them all notice.
So needless to say, I will be on clear liquids and jello for another two weeks. Then my doctor will reevaluate my progress and add certain foods, a little at a time. He told my husband that it would be his job to make sure I adhere to the guidelines. I will not be breaking any of the doctor's rules from now on. I really appreciate his cautious approach to WLS.
I am still offline at home (This was sent via the library). I will post again as soon as I can.
July 26, 2006
Hello WLS Family! I must apologize for taking such a long time to post an update. I returned to work 7/5/06. I really didn't want to go back to that job. My position is so stressful. I got some much needed rest while recuperating from surgery. And my home pc shut down on me again!! UGH! I can only get online while at work which means I don't really have much time for personal stuff.
To recap, on 5/10/06, I weighed 293.5-lbs. On the day of my surgery, I was down to 280.5-lbs...lost 13-lbs. I am now 2 months post-op and I weigh 239.5-lbs as of last Monday. . . PRAISE THE LORD AND HALLELUJAH!!!!!
July 28, 2006
I love the fact that the weight is literally falling off. But I am having trouble getting in enough protein. If I drink the protein shakes and bars, they keep me filled up --- too full to want to eat food. Then there are the days like yesterday where everything I try to eat upsets my stomach and I just can't each much at all. IF I eat anything it feels like I need to 'dump.' I hate this feeling. I plan to contact the nurse at my WLS support group for some much needed advise today.
On a happier note, I am down from a size 24 to a size 18!! I did purchase a few new pieces to return to work in. But they are getting too big too. I'm trying to wait until the end of the year before purchasing anything else. It sure feels great to be able say that!
Other news---my hubby and I are officially 'empty nesters.' Our son graduated from high school May 30th. He joined the army and left on 7/19 for boot camp. In June, Robert finally completed his Eagle Scout project and passed his board of review. He became an Eagle Scout on 6/28/06. We are so very proud of Robert; both of all he has accomplished at such a young age and of the godly man he is becoming. We prayed with Robert and of course gave him some words of wisdom straight out of the book of Proverbs before he left. Yes I did cry (bawled like a baby) when I came back in the house without him. (So did his dad.) We miss him but we also are enjoying our new found freedom. We know that we can go visit Robert whenever the need gets too great. He's only a short flight away.
Now as for my progress in my Weight Loss Boot Camp---it has been hard work and sometimes paineful but nevertheless, it has been well worth all of my efforts. I am beginning to see more muscle definition as well as 'sculpting' my new body into a better me. I have been swimming and bike-riding--two of my favorite things to do-- but haven't been able to do for over 25 yrs! I can run and jump rope a little (haven't done either in as many yrs). I now walk up to 5 miles with absolutely no back pain! My joints don't ache as much either. I count every one of these as my little blessings from the Lord. I know I couldn't do any of this without Him. I thank God every time I recognize another blessing as this weight finally falls off of me. I desire to be strong as well as healthy so that I can accomplish all that God has in store for my purpose in this life.
I did take some new pics. I will try to post them on Monday 7/31 when I return to work. I even took a couple last Sunday when I went bike riding. Til then folks--have a God-blessed day, week end on purpose! I know I will.
Aug. 10, 2006
I revisited my goals to see how much I have accomplished in these 3 short months since WLS. I have accomplished a lot. I have to give my Lord all thr praise and all the glory for every last WOW moment I have had and all the ones to come in the future.
WOW MOMENTS SINCE MY SURGERY ON 5/22/06:
1) Sales clerks no longer say to me, "May I help you sir!!!"
2) I no longer feel like a bloated whale.
3) No longer feel tired and fatigued all the time
4) Stopped snoring, chronic post nasal drip, choking & coughing spells at night
5) No more sleep apnea
6) I now get lots of compliments everywhere I go!
7) I no longer feel self-conscious at functions as if people are looking at me.
8) I wear tanks and shorts every chance I get!
9) I no longer pop the buttons off my pants--they're tooo big!
10) I don't have to squeeze my behind into theater seats.
GOALS I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED:
1) No longer take high blood pressure medicine--cleared by my doctor!!!
3) Haven't has to use asthma medication again since January 2006
3) Exercise 3-5x weekly
4) Gain muscle while loosing so my skin doesn't sag as much.
5) Being able to squat and tie my shoes
6) No swollen feet or ankles
7) Go for long walks without any back/hip pain
8) I can now stand for long periods without my back and hip aching
9) I can now run short sprints! I couldn't run at all before surgery.
10) Wear a bathing suit and not be ashamed have my picture taken
11) Not be afraid of the camera anymore.
12) I dropped 2 dress sizes--from a 24 to 18!
13) I'm able to buy misses sizes
14) Buy shirts and dresses that don’t feel tight on my arms and waist
15) I work out 3 times/week in a very rigorous boot camp for 1 hourand feel refreshed instead of exhausted
16) Take pleasure in shopping again
17) Keep up with my three grandchildren
18) My determination and success has inspired my co-workers to lose weight too by participating in some form or exercise/wt loss program
19) My energy level has increased temendously
My aunt recently asked me if having the surgery was worth it. Without missing a beat, I replied, for me, it was ASBSOLUTLEY WORTH IT!
August 28, 2006
Nothing mush happening for me right now. I seem to have reached my first 'plateau.' I'm stuck at 235 lbs. I had to stop my exercise program for now--funds got really tight. I plan to go back After October 1st. Until then, I will have to ride my bike more, walk more, do whatever I need to do to stay on track. Here are a few pics of me at my current weight. This was my grandaughter's 4th birthday.