i should have written this entry a couple days ago, but i haven't felt good and just the thought of thinking about my day made me depressed all over again so i was avoiding it, but knew i couldn't much longer. not with people asking me how my appointment went and so here goes...

the day started out very slow cause i haven't been sleeping well and my back has been killing me. so i loaded up on tylenol, took a shower, got dressed and slowly made my way to the car. only thing that made me happy was the thought of seeing my sister.

oh to make any sense out of this i need to talk about Monday first.

Monday, March 17, 2008 - i went down to the hospital for my pre-op class with the nurse and dietitian. i got there and they tried to pull the "hmmm you aren't scheduled for today." after having this done to me last month i wasn't going to have it done again. i secretary even reminded me to wear green. so of course i didn't forget what day it was. but all worked out and i got in to see both of them.

then was time to get weighed. i was crushed. i hadn't lost any weight. not even 1 pound. now normally that would be good you would think right? i didn't gain was what i was thinking and that was somewhat good, but instead i got talked down to saying what did you do wrong to not lose anything? so i left not feeling very good about myself.

so now back to my appointment i had with Dr. Patterson on March 20th... we all waited in the office for an hour and 15 minutes. then in comes the surgeon and looks at my chart and says "3 pounds isnt the 15 i told you to lose so what happened?" (i lost 3 pounds in 2 days) i really couldn't tell her anything cause even i don't know. its not like i didn't try, but it wasn't hard enough. i said "but i didn't gain so that's good isnt it?" she just says "until you lose the 15 i told you to lose i will not set a date for you." then she left and i had to make an appointment with the other dietitian Dr. Raum. So i see him on April 15th and hopefully i do better on the scale. so that's about all that happened.

after my appointment Chris and i went over and spent the afternoon with my parents. it was a great visit. it really lifted my spirits to spend time with my mom. she always helps to take my mind of things. we all went out for dinner finally at 8:30pm that night and i had this awesome grilled chicken salad. the smell of the chicken reminded me i hadn't eaten anything all day except iced tea. totally forgot cause my mind was on other things. lol. but i'm just glad that the end of the day went well.

as for the weekend it has been hell. i have slept through most of it and my back has been killing me. i do think i am taking way too many tylenol. i wish i had vicodin. lol. so Chris and i are going to go to the hot tubs on Monday his next day off. well i guess i am done. so l8r g8r.

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HAPPY EASTER!!!

the appointment with my doctor went great. it was actually performed by the surgeon who will be doing my gastric bypass. Dr Patterson is the best. she is so kind and really seems like she cares.

so i get admitted into the out patient area and get into a gown and wound up waiting an hour and a half then to find out it wasn’t the surgeons fault, it was the nurse for not letting her know that i was ready. no problem though. i had a nice conversation with my sister while we waited.

they then rolled me down the hall on the bed into a room full of computers and had me roll onto my side then asked if i was ready. of course i said yes. i remember them putting the tube down my throat then not much of anything else. at the beginning they did say i would probably not remember much after it was over. so true. all i do remember was the beinging then noticing that the oxygen monitor that they clip on your finger was now on my thumb. lol. i asked why it was on my thumb, the nurse said because i had kept taking it off my finger and my thumb was the only place i would leave it alone. i exclaimed “OMG i don’t remember that all all.” it was so funny. we laughed about it.

i was so dizzy but after a half an hour i was fine and i walked out of the hospital the same way i walked it. i even got a picture of the inside of my throat and my stomach, but i have no idea where it is. i think i may have given it to my sister. oh well it was kinda creepy looking anyway. nothing i would want to frame or anything. lol.

so that is about it. everything went well except that since the upper endoscopy i haven’t been sleeping well. i have been sleeping 7-8 hours on average, but it seems I’m not waking up rested. i just want to stay in bed, but once I’m up and moving then I’m fine. its really not a great feeling to feel so drug down right after waking. I’m not sure why this is happening. i also have an allergic reaction to the medical tape they used to hold my IV in my arm. quite the red itchy patch and it drives me crazy. i keep swabbing it with alcohol and that is a temporary fix for now. ok I’m out for now. l8r g8r.

So, i get up early for a doctor’s appointment. Chris and i arrive and check in then sit and wait 20 minutes. ok so that’s normal. Shari at the front desk then tells us the “Dr. Ude hasn’t come into the office yet but should be here soon.” oook i think, no problem. then an hour goes by and then we are told that Dr. Ude isn’t coming in and would i like to reschedule. All i thought was OMFG DUH of course i have to or else i wouldn’t of had an appointment in the first place.

SOOO now i have to wait until next week to see the doctor. now normally this would upset me but i have another appointment the same day accross the street at the main hospital to have an upper endoscopy. oh joy. so that’s about it for now. l8r g8r.

I got to the hospital at 7:45am and then waited for my sister that arrived two minutes before 8am. We headed up to the 5th floor to Dr. Patterson's office. I had to watch a video on the what to expect and such before and after i have the gastric bypass. I then went into a waiting room and got weighed, 473. I lost 9 pounds from just 1 week ago. YAY for me. I was really happy about this.

In walks Dr. Patterson. We talked about my decision to have the gastric bypass and any questions. I asked about blood clots and about my gall bladder. I will get medication to prevent blood clots and then as for the gall bladder she doesnt take it out during surgery but provides medication to try to prevent stones. My sister wasn't to happy about that since she knows people who had complications with their gall bladder due to rapid weight loss. Anyway...

I got a picture with Dr. Patterson for my before surgery picture.



Then Dr. Patterson goes through my file and says that I haven't had a follow up with the Psychologist and she can't do the surgery until she says ok. Then she hands me a paper with a pre-op diet that will takes 4 weeks and says I want to see you back in 4 weeks on March 20th and you have to have lost a minimum of 15 pounds or I won't do the surgery. I wanted to cry, but she says this is standard and that when I see her next then I will definitely get my surgery date if everything else has passed. I also have to go in on March 4th for an Upper Endoscopy to check for gerd to make sure it is gone. oh joy. i'm not looking forward to having a tube put down my throat. ugh.

so that is about it. things are better at home now too. i'm not depressed at the current time so that is very good. i am out for now. l8r g8r.