almost 8 months on July 18, 2008 9:56 pm
Well, I can't believe that it's been almost 8 months. I remember how in the beginning, it seemed like I would never lose enough weight, shrink, or be able to eat half ways normal again. Now, I think, where the heck has the time gone? I weigh in at 180 pounds, so that means I've lost a total of 106lbs in the last year. That's huge!!!!
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July 8th was my quit smoking one year anniversary, so that is awesome. I really don't miss it most of hte time. Usually when I get a craving, it's because a situation came up that used to be closely connected with smoking and drinking. I am so glad that I don't smoke anymore!
I've started dating! That's been an interesting experience. Not much to say, met some pretty decent fellas, but none too serious yet. It'll happen.
I'm starting to finally see it. I can stand to look in the mirror, or catch my reflection in a window. I don't look as huge as I used to. I have facial features! I have a waist! My boobs are a bit of a sad story, but a good bra takes care of most of that. I have a tummy, and my butt is even flatter than before. Even my swimsuit bags on my ass, even though the rest of it is well fitted. A lot of my shoes are too big now, so I need to go through them and get rid of hte ones that could kill me due to ill fit.
On a side note, I moved to the East Side of St. Paul this month, and I am reallly liking my new place. It's nothing fancy, but I get an indoor pool (which I am using relatively regularly), a balcony, and an icemaker (so I don't have to buy ice anymore- yay!!!). I'm on the third floor, with no elevator, so It's great for my stamina and muscles. I'm not done unpacking yet though. Stil have about 5 totes to get through, all smaller stuff. I think a lot of it will go in the dumpster. I miss my Jeep, but the Kia is treating me very well, and it has it's own charm. It's best feature is definitely the higher gas milage. It gets almost double what the Jeep was getting. It is a nice car, good ride, clean lines, could use some better speakers though.
I have been getting a lot of compliments lately, and congrats and pats on the back from my boss and coworkers. It feels great! I know we are not supposed to base our worth, moods, blah blah blah on the opinions of others, but we all do it. It does make me feel good to get praise and support from these people who knew me before, and were more or less not involved in my process. Men definitely look at me differently. They really do. They look at me, and that's what's different. I feel like a girl! Ok, I feel like a relatively attractive woman!
I am starting to get some rashes and other skin issues. I checked my insurance policy on the tummy tuck rules, and it looks like I probably will not quailify, but for now, there isn't much I can do. I have to be done losing and have maintained a certain weight for 6 months or so, plus skin issues and a specific amount of excess skin before they will even consider. Since I still have some losing to go, It will be a while before I can start documenting, and when I get down to at least goal, I'm probably won't meet the hanging skin guideline. You know, I'm pretty ok with that. I'm not even sure that I would have a tummy tuck if I could. That's a pretty big deal, and it kind of gives me the heeby jeebies.
We had our Twins game for work tonight. A lot of people complimenting me there. And one of hte gals from the Maple Grove office asked me a lot of questions and said that she thought I was brave and that I had done a great thing. That made me feel good. I like answering peoples questions about what I did. I'd rather help them learn and understand, rather then run around assuming and relying on blurbs they hear on tv and in mags. Anyway, I really wanted to drink, but I didn't. I haven't really given alcohol a try yet, and I figured this wouldn't be quite the right setting to begin. Here's the best part of hte evening though. I fit in the seat! Not only did I fit, but my arms stayed inside the seat, too! I wasn't bulging over like last year! It was so awesome to not be squeezed in and trying not to take up too much room over the armrests and into the other peoples seats. Last year I had ani aisle seat, and sat leaning out into the aisle. This year. i was smack dab in the middle, with people on both sides, and I didn't spill over, or have be a contortionist. The second best part of the evening? When I got home and turned the phone back on, I had a message from the man I met the other day. So, I looks like there may be an official date coming up. We had dinner together the other day, but that was a short meet and get all the qualifiers and disqualifiers out of hte way. Seems like we both passed the preliminaries for each other.