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I am so sad that it is Labor Day weekend and unofficially the end of summer.  I love summer and I don't want it to end.  :(

I've been less on top of updating this blog lately.  I guess I am just happy with my progress, and there is less to say when I am content with something.  I am at 158.6 as of this morning.  I would like to get to about 150 but if I stay where I am right now I would still be happy with that.  I have a "friend" (it is a very complicated story full of love and loss and betrayal and all sorts of intense emotions, but for the time being we will call him just a friend) who is very into body building and he has been helping me get into a good weight training routine at the gym.  I have always been good with cardio but very lazy at doing anything else so I think that is finally changing.  My lower body strength is okay but my upper body strength is pathetic.  I put off trying to change this for so long because I am so embarrassed that I am not stronger and do not want people to see me with the itty bitty weights and such.  But having a big strong guy around me at the gym has helped me get over my intimidation and I am now determined to build some muscle!  Hopefully that will help these last couple pounds disappear or at least help me tone up some.  We shall see...

I took a little break from blogging for a little bit but I am back.  I've been going through some serious heartache and when that happens I just want to retreat into my own little shell and not talk to anyone (and eat far too many peanut butter M&Ms).  So please forgive the absence.

And on to happier things to discuss, my weight!  (Never thought I would be happy to discuss this...)  Today I am 9 months out and down 94 pounds.  I feel amazing.  I finally feel normal.  I am not afraid to walk into any store or to do anything my weight used to hold me back from doing.  Yesterday I bought some new clothes, I am wearing a medium shirt and a size 8 womens and size 9 juniors pants!!!  I still can't believe it.  Recently I was cold at work and my friend offered me her jacket.  She is tiny so I joked and said her jacket would never fit me and she said it would and that I think I am so much bigger than I really am.  Well she was right, it did fit me.  I look at these clothes and I look at my body and I don't think they match up but magically the things fit.  It is so weird.  As for my naked appearance, it could be a lot better and it could be a lot worse.  I have a ton of stretchmarks that I can't stand.  My stomach and inner thighs have some excess skin but it is not so horrible.  If I had money I would definitely do plastics but without winning the lottery I think I can live with it.  My weight loss has definitely been slowing.  I lost 5 pounds last month and 3 this month, but I am so close to my goal so I am happy as long as things are still creeping in the right direction.  I have 6 more pounds to lose before joining the century club.  I need to seriously celebrate that when I get there!