Ok so today is the 9th and I thought FOR SURE I would be in onederland by now - but I am not - I weigh 200.00 pounds... sigh. And that is with a lot of jiggling, stark naked, first thing in the morning, no water etc.... kind of weight. I was able to jiggle a 198 out of the scale briefly but - it was more fantasy than reality. It occurs to me that I am a bit obsessed with this onederland thing... its just a number... being in a size 12/14 top is more significant, the tons of compliments I get daily is real and wonderful - but somehow I need the one in front of the rest of the numbers to be - dare I say it - happy. 
I know it will come - its like my body is teasing me... ok.... almost, nope not today,  almost - but not quite again.... fooled you ..... psych!! So maybe tomorrow I will again in the wee hours of dawn, nearly freezing to death in the all together jiggle and sway on the scale and hope that somehow... the magic number 199.8 will float up.... like those mysterious 8 balls you shake to get an answer to your deepest questions.  I was supposed to hit that number by Thanksgiving ..... but here it is December.... with Christmas carols and Salvationa Army Santas everywhere... and the dreaded
2 is still in my weight....  Just musing - hoping, praying for the day....

Wow - just checking in and realizing that I didn't check in during November - I guess that's because so much was going on - with the flu, fires and work pressing in - I guess one thing that I am learning is that I may be thinner but my life continues to be in the same amount of chaos as always. Funny how that is! Its like I finally get one area under some kind of control and then everything else slides into the abyss.  But I look better!!! And I definitely feel better. I joined Curves a week before Thanksgiving and I am loving the excercise.   So suddenly here it is December 1 st and somehow I have to begin thinking about Christmas!!! I am also 3 pounds away from Onderland. And fighting to cross into that strange and Onederful world before Christmas - I had hoped by Thanksgiving - but my body didn't seem to agree. Hence the stepping up of the excercise by joining Curves and as a result I am seeing a differenct.  I will check in again to let you all know when the Oneder momet happens!