Ok, not much to report these days; but a good friend (wink) asked me why I was so open about having surgery, everyone knew I was doing it and thinking and typing at the same time; this was my reply.  After re-reading it thought it was something anyone reading this may benefit from. Thanks girl!!

Hey.  Well, **** didn't want to tell anyone when she had RNY and it was hard to not do it when everyone asks how she did it.  I don't lie well and didn't even want to start trying to cover anything up.  I needed to tell ***my boss) as I needed the time off and I really felt comfortable with the group that I didn't mind everyone knowing. I guess I came to the realization that I was not goign to do this on my own, I COULD NOT do it on my own, I needed help to do it.  Alot of people call it the 'easy way out' but in reality it takes a lot stronger person to take control, admit you can't do it on your own and do something about it than just sit back and 'hope' something changes. (I even tell people this when they try to go there... ) and *********s statement is Hope isn't a strategy. You know that thing, insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. :)

Anyway, I think it also held me responsible.  EVERYONE knew I did this, not only did I owe it to myself, but I was being held accountable as I knew if I failed or if I was eating terribly bad, I  KNEW what people would say, so it sorta helped keep me honest when I wanted to do the wrong things.

**** did tell those she worked close with, and of course they talk to someone else, on and on.... but for me its just easier to be up front than try to cover anything up adn it's been very rewarding at the same time.

The only person that I've encountered that has had anything negative to say was ****** and that took me by surprise.  I didn't expect her to be negative and saying I 'cheated' but everyone else has been great, so I let the good outweigh the bad. :)