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1-21-03-- Happy new year everyone! I am doing GREAT!! I have stabilized my weight and it fluctates from 118-123 depending on water gain in my loose skin (pannus). David and I are doing great. We were looking forward for this year to get rid of our loose skin. Sadly.. the only 3 insurances we have a choice of don't cover plastic surgery. I am so depressed about that as other people who just had surgery 8 months ago are getting tummy tucks and such. I know I am thin but this loose skin is awful. You have no idea how much I hide it in my clothes but it is sad. Everyone says I look like I have already had tucks from my picture.. believe me.. it is creative posing. I tuck the fat from my arms into the armpits by putting my hand on my hip and flexing my bicep.. the loose skin "tucks" neatly into the armpit for picture shots. I pull my pants down a little and arch my back to hide the pannus. I guess I need to take some nude pictures of me for everyone to believe me. I have showed my mom and a few close friends and they are shocked. They had no idea the amount of loose skin I hid. It is such a pain to live with and now I cant afford a tummy tuck. We have tried to fight our insurances but it didn't work.. Direct exclusions. I am happy but I am sad too that I will never feel "normal" because I have this "THING" attached to me. I also have very frequent UTI's due to my "hoo-hah" hanging so low it looks like a scrotum sack without a penis. Even though I have frequent UTI's.. this still isnt cause for surgery in the eyes of my insurance. Sad indeed. I feel like its almost a "tumor" hanging on to my body that I just have to "live with". Its so bad that I can gain 5 pounds in one day due to fluid retention in my pannus. Sometimes I have to take lasix or I go up a size and cant wear my clothes. I know.. gripe.. complain. I am thrilled with my weight loss and would do it again in a heartbeat. I am experiencing NO pain with the previous adhesions once they were cut loose. IT is nice that they diagnosed and cured that problem. Sorry it took me so long to update but hubby and I have been so depressed about the loose skin thing and our insurance that we have been kind of staying away. People getting full body tucks and tummy tucks when they are still 50 pounds from goal or they are only 8 months out is too much for us to bear. We have been fighting for this over 2 years. He is an attorney so we have tried everything.. they wont budge. We just got a new house so we dont have the extra money needed. At least we both went thru surgery so we arent turned off by the loose skin.