I feel like a new person.... not just because of the weight loss so far, but because of how excited I am about this journey! (though, I can't complain about the 6o+ pounds lost or the 54" since surgery)
It has been the hardest, saddest, happiest, craziest and certainly, the most interesting 3 months of my life. I have gone from "WTF did I do?" to being satisfied with a SINGLE bite of my hubby's desert. 
I don't pay homage to the food god anymore. I am not hungry, I don't have to eat to feel happy! I feel like myself, only 10 years younger. I have energy! I feel good!
I think the metamorphosis is certainly beginiing. Thank God I bought a ticket for the ride!

I have lost a total of 28 pounds as of today!!!!!!!!!!!
(since walking in to the OR for surgery)

1. Clothing shopping - who designs the muumuus? I am not intersted in being the fat lady in the huge flower print. Nor am interested in the dirty looks from the skinny bitches as they saunter to the register with their size 2 jeans, while complaining that they are still too big.

2. Driving - I hate that my stomach and my steering wheel are more intimately acquainted than me and my hubby.. (lol)

3. Cleaning - I only clean the tub and toilet when no one else is home... I can only imagine how I look trying to get back up from the lovely floor. And cleaning under the bed or couch... hey kids... can you please get ________ for me, I can't reach it.

4.  Dishes - My shirt always looks like it was washed in the sink with the dishes.

5. Hygiene- Can someone please reach all those places that my chubby arms and fingers can't? Even the loofah on a stick can only do sooo much.

6. Toilets - I cannot stand the fact that my rear end overhangs the toilet. Even worse is the way it shifts when I get up too fast. ARGH!!!!

7. Walking - Can anyone say red faced, chest exploding, knee hurting, gonna die pain?

8. Intimacy - where, oh where, have my little thighs gone? oh, where or where can they be? Hiding in the shadows of the belly or even the rear end? I don't think that bellies are sexy.

9. Children - not being able to keep up. Also hate the fact that I am the only heavy Mom in the neighborhood or at the school. Hiking the 2 flights of stairs for my daughter's orientation at school this year almost killed me. I tend to sit on the bench at the park and watch instead of playing with my girls.

10. Insurance - I truly hate the fact that my life insurance costs twice that of my husband's. What a rip!!!! It also sucks that we pay an oputrgeous amount of money every month for insurance, and still have to let them decide whether or not the RNY is gonna be covered or not.

11. Furniture - I just broke the damn boxspring on my bed from plopping down on the bed. This will be #3 since June of 2006. I hate being fat enough to ruin the furniture.

12. Bras - I have yet to find a bra that harnesses all the side fat. I was fitted at Lane Bryant and found out I wear a 44DDD. Yeah, right. I have never been anything more than a C ~ even when I was breastfeeding. I think she measured the side fat too. Guess it is supposed to mysteriously migrate and become part of the side boob?

13. Parking - This may seem silly to most of you, but I dread trying to squeeze my big rear-end in between my car and the one next to me when they park too close. Can I get a can-opener please?

14. Laundry - Have you ever noticed how much room these enormous clown clothes and muumuus take up in the washing machine? I think my husband could make 3 pairs of his jeans out of 1 pair of mine!!!!

15. Halloween - I hate trying to find a Plus Size Halloween costume. We have been invited to a great costume party~ can't find anything that covers all of me, let alone one that looks good!!!!

16. Hospitals - I absolutely hate waiting rooms with those tiny chairs. Afraid that if I sit down a little too hard, it will break like a matchstick!

17. Grocery Stores - I was shopping for all of my sugar-free drinks at the store and I actually overheard someone talking shit... "why bother buying the sugar-free, it hasn't worked yet.." I wanted to curl up and die right there.

Well, I know it has been awhile since I posted last... lots going on!!!

I have gotten my sleep study done... and with no suprise, I have sleep apnea. My PCP is just waiting on the written report to come in so he can get the oxygen company to come out and set up bipap machine.

Went to my nutrition class this Sunday. 5 hours of going over stuff I already knew... nothing was new to me.... guess I am more prepared than I thought!

Just have to get the psych eval done now... and I am waiting on cash to get that paid for!