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Last night was Wednesday. There was a support group held by the surgeons office. There was a lot of presurgery patients there. I am a little confused as to why people think its ok to still drink pop and eat the same way they always have up until the last minute before surgery. If you cant change your habits prior to surgery, can you really live with the consequences of surgery after? The main statement being said, "after surgery i will stop that". Come on people that is the same attitude that is keeping you in the obese land. I started this "new" life in April of this year. I have given up sugar, white foods, bread, coffee and pop. I only sip water all day. every couple of weeks I weighed out smaller ounces of food, 6 oz, than 4 oz, now I am at eating 2 oz of protien at a meal. Next Sunday I go down to eating 1 oz. of protien and 1 oz of a carb. It takes me about 25 minutes to eat a meal, I practice chewing and chewing, and chewing my food. I dont drink anything when I eat. I listen to what other have gone through before me. I think I am prepared, but I know that I will still have a difficult time. Why is it that some people think this is easy and when you have surgery the doctor flips a switch and you are able to live with your decision? I tried to say something but I hit the wall. Well I can only work on myself and be thankful that I have a great NUT and support group leader and i found OH. I only have to live with my decisions.

I was told that today was the day that the doctors office was submitting my paperwork with all my pre-op to the insurance company. Now it's another wait. But I can do this. Everyone on this site had to wait for something. Some had longer waits than others. I am getting to the end of one journey, I am ready to take the next train and head on to the next journey.

I love doing Pilates. My husband gave me a reformer to use and some really good videos. Kicks my butt everytime. The tingling muscles I have afterwards is a cross between pain and euphoria. Dont get me wrong, nothing really hurts. My body is just letting me know "hey"! I feel muscles that I didn't even know existed. So every morning I get up get some water and go do Pilates. I hear people tell me that I should not work out first thing in the morning. Well if I dont than the excuses come, I worked late, it's too close to dinner, the kids need my help. So I listen to my inner voice and "I MUST DO THE THING THAT I DON'T WANT TO DO". Its the only way for me.  I am still waiting for Insurance approval so I need to fill my time with something other than sitting around thinking about things I can't control. I can control this, I can control how I exersise, how I eat and how I deal with waiting. It's about time I took control of me.

July 14th I had my final visit with the "NUT". Now it's the new waiting game. Waiting, waiting, waiting. I want to call the surgeons office every minute. I want to call my insurance company to see whats going on. Tom Petty said it best "THE WAITING IS THE HARDEST PART"  Is the waiting the worst part? This is what I am pondering today.

Dani

Well today is July 6th. I have my final visit with the Nutritionist on July 14th. That's 8 days of waiting. 8 days until she turns my paperwork in, 8 days until I am starting another countdown. I find that I am counting everything. Calories, proteins, carbs, pounds, inches and even minutes on the treadmill. Just call me Count. Once again I find myself being motivated by the wonderful people on this site. Their ups and their downs. It has been a slow journey to me, but not really I only started this in April. I know I need to be patient.
Well I am off to the treadmill for my 12 minutes today.

Dani