Try and Try again

Oct 01, 2014

Hi all, I know I have been away a long time. I never really had any success with my band. While it was put in, I was later told with out proper approval. And I didn't have the first year of after care free as I was told I would have. I would have to drive 2 hours for adjustments, and pay for adjustments and visits that I was told would be free. At the time, we could not afford it at all. I am blaming no one at all for any of this. 

Now 2014.. 

It all started when we got our income tax money this year. I had been more dependent on a wheel chair. At over 400 lbs, I hated having anyone push my chair. So we have a shop here that sales used power chairs at a good rate. We got me one and a ramp to get it in and out of my mini van. I was in my driveway and stepped wrong and fell down face first. My mom and my husband was right there. I was not hurt beyond a bruised knee, and bruised pride. In fact I think the fall helped my back pop in ways it had not popped in years. lol That was one fall.. A few weeks later I had one of those oh dang what hit me days. I was not real steady on my feet. I ended up stubbing a toe(more foot than just toe). I could barely walk at all. Then a couple hours after that, coming out of the bathroom I fell. Messing up my knees and adding too the horrid pain my foot was in. This time I did hurt my back. The falls scared my mom. She lives right next door. Yet I was rarely over to see her due to the fact that I had stairs at my house to get out, then stairs at her house to go inside. I could not hardly walk at all, and stairs was out of the question. Adding to the many years long build up of me feeling like a prisoner at home. Mom got in touch with my brother and sis in law. They spent her spring break(a teacher) here at my house adding a porch and a ramp to the front of my house. Giving me freedom again. That started a whole new chapter in my life.

I started a small container garden, that grew because neighbors donated plants lol. I was required to go out and look after my garden every day(No choice gotta go). I little by little became more active, more on the go. Oh I still have bad days, and Isolate from everyone. But I always go out and look after the garden. I also have a bigger one planned for next spring. I purchased a second hand recumbent bike. It is sitting in my living room. I can't say I am on it non stop all day every day. But I can say that it is a rare day that I am not on it 2-3 times a day. Not huge distances, or long times. Sometimes it is 3-5 mins(at 12+mph) but It is more than I would have done in past times. I am moving the scales again. I have dropped here and there for the last few years, but it didn't seem to really last long, no matter how long I stuck to the same food plans. 
I am eating as low carb as I can, I rely on pre packaged foods(mobility plays into this), so it gets difficult to completely avoid carbs. But this works. lots of frozen veggies, I have to work out a better meat source. I cant handle no meat. But need less processed. Over the last few years I have developed a dislike of fish(previously LOVED it) 

The foods are not perfect, but not like it was in years past. 

Keep going, Never give up on yourself. I did for a while. It sucked.

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