To help as many people to obtain this surgery through whatever means I have..

Wow.. It has been a while since I updated so here goes the normal, MY BAD..  

I have been dealing with a lot of personal demons but I glad to say that I haven’t put any weight on..   I am trying to break the habit of smoking AGAIN..  I am doing good less than 10 cigarettes a day.. I am taking commit but they taste like $hit.. LOL

On the rest of the fronts.. I am happy to announce that I have been involved helping several people with their surgeries and they are doing great..   My boys Anthony and Eric are big losers.. I love getting updates from those I have helped..  It makes me realize why I do the things that I do like posting and answering emails.. Speaking of emails and private messages here goes the other normal saying.. I will get to them just give me time.. I am very bad about that along with the updating as you can tell.. 

I was sitting here the other day looking at pre op pictures and I firmly believe in having pictures as a motivator.. Nothing makes me realize that I never want to forget where I came from like looking at my pre-op pics..   I realize that I wasn’t living back then.. I was a prisoner of my own makings..

And now I see that I am still a prisoner of my own making..  But this is a better prison.. I made choices that put me there too.. I have made wrong choices but I have to realize that I have to live with my choices.. I have hurt some people through my actions and I think that I probably wouldn’t have been given the chance to hurt them if not for the weight loss..   As a warning to the new post ops you will be getting a lot of attention that you may have not gotten before so be aware that things may change in your life.. You just have to realize that you have to live with your choices.. 

That is the toughest part living with some of my choices.. But believe me not all my choices have been bad ones.. I have learned to never settle.. I have moved on from settled relationships.. I have had some people in my life that only took and took but never offered anything in return for the friendship that I offered..  I have to say that I am a taker too but I do my share of giving so it was time for me to cut the giving away to some people in my life..

Wow.. That took a lot of guts to write and post for the world to see but I feel that I have to put it out there.. I know that a lot of people go through stuff like this but few of us talk about it but what the hell my life is an open book..  I don’t mind talking to people about the crap that I have been through.. Some of you may wonder why I am putting this out there but if it helps just one person I am doing my job..

On a happier front, I am trying to attend a few support groups a month to let people know that this surgery can work if you work it.. I have to say that I am very proud of what I have done surgery wise.. I have maintained my loss, within 10 pounds, for almost four years.. I was talking to a friend of mine the other day and she said she couldn’t remember me being fat.. I was like are you out of your mind?  I couldn’t tie my own shoes.. I had to sit on milk crates because I was afraid that I would break the chairs that I had to sit on.. 

Be on the look out, on the Texas message board, for exciting news about the first weekend in May..   There should be something up soon..

I will close for now because many of you are probably floored that I updated my profile..  If you have any questions feel free to email.. I WILL answer them just give me time.. LOL..

PEACE