Well, a lot has happened, kind of, in the past couple of weeks.

My last summer semester is coming to a conclusion, making decent grades so thats good.

Unfortunately, my aunt passed away... She was an amazing woman, it saddens me not having gotten a chance to spend a lot of time with her, like i would have enjoyed... it sucks living so far from a lot (all) of my extended family (they are in NY and I'm in Florida/GA). She battled cancer, and it won... Cancer is a huge problem for my family, it has taken two aunts and both grandparents... its a horrible thing.. so, it will be one of my biggest things to watch for after i get my comorbs gone after WLS.

I went to NY for the service, and on the way home my father and I talked a little about me having a gastric bypass.. It really was not the place I wanted to have the discussion, sitting in the terminal waiting to board a plane, surrounded by skinny nosey people probably listening in to a fat kid talk about his life... But, I did talk some about it with him, quietly... I definately feel a sense of him being unsettled by the thought of his next son getting the surgery, after having his first. And i completely agree. He explained that lots of people end up in caskets after the surgery, but i explained that i am in much better health overall than those people, including my brother. He asked what my doctor thinks about it, and i told him i havent really expressed any of the information with her, because the last time i bothered the doctor had no clue about it and in result i lost interest in pursuing it. I explained that the insurance does not cover it, and told him the costs -- understandably, he didnt like the price tag of $23,550... I dont either. I also told him a top surgeon in mexico does it for 12,500, but he didnt make an acknowlegement of that fact. he said that it is the easy way out, and i always try to defend the surgeon and say that it isnt, because its not, but in a way, it IS. because once you have it, you are given such a powerful tool that success is pretty much inevitable, even if its losing only some of the weight, it WILL be done, and can be completely beneficial. i tried to explain this as well... my step mom and lil bro and sis kept coming going, and i really appreciated the fact he understands that i dont want to discuss it in front of her or them, so he would say nothing about it until they walked off again. that meant a lot.

he said i should try taking pills to do it... and he can tell i wasnt really interested... i explaiend that i have done enough research to know that they dont produce results, and he said they do, but that people just put the weight back on... i said nothing, but thats a problem in itself. i dont want to lose weight and put it on, over and over... thats not a way to live.

i told him i would go see my doctor and get any information, he said he would even come with me to my doctor to talk about other alternatives. a few minutes later, he said we will have to figure something out, because he could tell that i have set my mind on it. i emailed him a little bit ago letting him know that if he decides to help me financially, that it is deductable on his taxes so long as he claims me.

we didnt talk any more about it, and hopefully we will this week... i just hope i can show him that this is what i really want, but he said "this is all deja vu" because of how my brother did it... had to pay for it.. explaiend he had done his research... but i am doin this in much better shape... im very confident in that i wont die from the surgery. im even more confident i wont live either if i dont get it, atleast, not like a person should or as long.

will keep you updated.