I just want to thank everybody for all the support you have given me. I have never seen such an amazing support system. "OH" has been a bleesing. This past week has really been hard on me. First, I found out my insurance had been canceled. I was devistated.  I felt like my heart had been ripped out. I cried and cried but, than I got over it. Then yesterday, we found out that my husband had been laid off. He worked in Iraq making great money and was sent home on medical leave in January. Now, instead of sending him back they just decided to go ahead and lay him off. Now, we have no insurance and no paycheck and to top it off we are finally in our last month of the adoption of my nephew. I am so scared we won't be able to adopt him now. Instead of feeling my heart has been ripped out I just wish someone would rip it out. I would say "can things get any worse" but, I know they could. I am putting my faith in the hands of the lord. I hope and pray that things will get better and everything will work out. I really need to have the WLS. My health is not good and seems to be getting worse by the day. I kind of have a plan on how to still get the surgery even though all this mess is happening. I pray that I will still be able to get it. I hope that everyone will keep me in their thoughts and prayers. Thank you !!!!

I went to see Dr. Lord for the first time yesterday and I was so excited. I got back in his office and he asked me what kind of surgery I was wanting (lapband/RNY). I told him it didn't matter to me but, I was hoping he could tell me what type he thought would be best for me. He said I could go with eithor one. Of course that didn't help much but, after looking at my labs from the last 5 years he said he thought RNY was best because of my Thyroid....THYROID, what in the world was he talking about. Come to find out these last 5 years my thyroid has been elevated and I knew nothing about it. Seems that my PCP forgot to tell me about this. ...Well, I got over that real quick since I knew the surgery would help me get the weight off. So, after I saw Dr. Lord I went up front to check out and the lady who does the financial part said she thought she ran the wrong insurance because it was saying INACTIVE. So, I gave her my card again and she said she would run it tomorrow. I was like Ok. Well, as soon as I got out to  my car I called my insurance company to find out what was going on and they said that my insurance has been canceled. I hung up fast because I was so upset. I started crying and cried for hours straight. It felt like my heart had been ripped out of me. I was devistated and felt like my chance to lead a normal healthy life had had been crushed. After I calmed down I decided to call the insurance company back to find out why my insurance was canceled and they said since my husband has been on medical leave for over 60 days it was their policy to terminate it. She said I could do a program where I pay out of pocket $603.00 a month to keep my insurance going. I asked without hesitation,"Who do I pay?" I will pay $603.00 a month just to make sure I can have my surgery. Well, my husband is supposed to return to work in a couple of weeks and come to find out he may not have a job for long since they are sending the employees back home to the states. All the troops are pulling out of Iraq and that leaves KBR without anything to do. I am just so devistated. I won't be able to pay for insurance if we don't have any money. I swear, Can my life get any worse. Actually it can, all this is happening while we are in the process of adopting our nephew.

OMG...I am so STRESSED out about this whole WLS. I live on this computer doing so much research on the RNY and LAPBAND that I have become very discouraged and aggrivated. I have read so many horror stories on both of the surgeries and now I am scared to death of eithor one of them. I have bad luck and I will probably be one that ends up with complications. I need to have surgery for my health but, which do I choose. I need some encouragment. I need to hear positive stories. I need help....I just want to SCREAM !!!

I had my endoscopy this morning. I feel really good right now. The Dr. said that my esophagus is irritated due to all the acid I have; also, I have a small hernia and my stomach is pushed up into my esophagus. All of this is weight related....GO FIGURE.....I'm really glad it wasn't stomach ulcers. The Dr. said if I lose some weight then it won't be as bad. They need to hurry up and schedule me for my surgery. I can't do this without it.