To be 125 lbs by my 1 yr Anniversary

Hi, I'm Debbie.  I'm a 42 yr old divorced Mom of 2 pretty fantastic kids.  Ryan soon to be 19 and Jena who's 16.  Weight has always been an issue for me.  I'm told I don't look as heavy as I am but I see it every time I see myself naked in the mirror.  People have always thought I was about 20lbs lighter than I really was.  Anyways, I'm 5'3" and weigh 232 lbs.  I made the BMI of 41 and after two years of soul searching and seeing a few people have fantastic luck with the gastro surgery, I made the appointment and went and met with Dr. Graber.  I'm scheduled for surgery on the 24th of July.  I'm excited, yet nervous.  I just want to be healthy, make the life change I need to make and love what I see in the mirror again.  I want the energy I used to have.  I fought the breast cancer battle, I don't want to limit my chances of possibly coming down with some other type of cancer just becasue I'm heavy and put myself at a higher risk.  I want to live and enjoy the rest of my years.