Time marches on and I once again get behind in updating my profile. I always said that I would keep it up and hopefully be an encouragement to newbies as I was, reading profiles when I was pre-op and just out, but I think that life gets in the way of the computer now. Now that I have lost so much weight, I want to get out and do things, visit with friends, shop, etc and this takes away from time I used to spend on the computer each day. But that is what I wanted this surgery for most, to get back among the living so I am very happy. I am now down to 240, down 148 pounds! I am still in a size 20 pants but 18's will fit, I just can't afford new ones just yet! My tops are what I have HAD to replace as they were looking horrible and I found that I am a 14-16 now! I tried on some at Lane Bryant the other day and this size fit perfect in everything I tried. Made me realize that I won't be able to shop there much longer as this is the smallest size they carry! That will be a wonderful thing to cross off the list. Shopping for clothes in the "regular" dept. A friend gave me a new pair of pajama's for my birthday in Nov. that were just an x-large from the reg. womens dept. (not plus size) but they were very tight at that time. They now fit great and my 2X's are quite baggy. But I still wear them. I will wear baggy and big jammies but not clothes for work. I realized today that I have only 70 pounds to go to goal, and know that it is going to take a while, but the thought of being under 200 blows me away, as I have not been under 300 in a few years. I still love my mocha cappicino shake I make with the Pro Blend 55 each day. It is so good and I have yet to tire of it. I really don't think I could ever get in my protein a day with out the shake. But I love them so it is not a problem drinking it, and so far, I have lost some weight each week, so I don't think I am going over in calories because of it. I really have honestly lost my love for food. I see it and I want stuff, but when it comes to eating it, I just can't. And sometimes, when I go out with a group of people and all the food from everyones order is on the table, it looks like so much food and everyone is eating, it kind of makes me feel naueous. It is weird I know, but I think I see my old self and how much I used to eat and how fat it made me that all that food is just mentally too much. Don't get me wrong, I do eat, but just my portion so I try to be the last one to start eating and try not to let it get to me. I have now developed alot of excess skin that will have to be removed at some point with plastics, I hope and pray when that day comes, I will be able to get insurance to pay or something. The worst for me is the extra flab under my arms. The old Bat wings if you will. I can not wear a short sleeve shirt if the sleeve is short because ...well, lets just say, it's not pleasant on the eye. But honestly what a small price to pay for the results I have had. Well, I am off for now. Good night all. More to come as the journey continues. This is my latest pic taken at 7 months out down 145 lbs.