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Ohhh 2012,.. you had many blessed moments and a few  not so great moments! I prefer to focus on the positive accomplishments and how much I have grown as an emotional person this year. I still have not hit goal and I tend to be hard on myself. But I know I am veryyyy blessed and will keep on working on my choices and setting healthy daily and weekly goals. I am currently at 179,... and still have a personal goal of being under 160 by the end of March. I KNOW I CAN DO IT! I feel motivated, focused, am surrounding myself with positive people,.. and making sure my daily preparations guide me. Blessings and best wishes to you for a successful and joyous 2013!

Hellooooooooooooo world!!

Yes. Ms. Dee is alive and doing quite well! I just had no interest in blogging for some reason,.. I know I know,.. how can I be supported when I don't blog?  Its been such a different journey than I imagined with wayyyy more positive aspects than not. I have faithfully been on the OH boards each week,..sometimes daily,.. and it has been a positive support for me. I know I have also supported others in OH land even though I haven't blogged much. 


Physical update. I started at 356 lb size 28,.. and was 341 day of surgery and currently am at 205 size 16. Which is a loss of 151 lbs,..yes indeed! Simply incredible sounding! I haven't any medical complications to date, no dumping, I have vomited a few times but thats mainly because I ate too fast and didn't like how things sat in my pouch. Its never been difficult for me to throw up,... I just don't like feeling uncomfortable.  I've had two stalls but they are of course to be expected. My mindset still tends to be waiting for something to occur,... waiting for some mental anguish to throw me mentally into a tailspain but I feel quite well adjusted and more "myself" than ever. I am aware that I have about 50 lbs to go till that goal weight level and those last 50 lbs will also be a great adjustment as I shift from a smaller plus size female into what they world may consider average size. However, its been sooo much more about health for me and I feel that is what keeps me grounded. Not the size, not the size 16 or 14 jeans I fit into, not the heels I can finally buy and actually walk in outside  instead of laying in bed looking like a well heeled vixen.  All these are perks are nice,.. very nice,.. ""Ooooolala" nice  perks that I am thankful for but in essence,.. they are still just side perks to the greater JOY of being able to jog and hike,.. and ride my bike,.. tromp all over seaworld and Disney,... feeling strong,...and cleaning my entire house without sitting down to rest my aching back. The joy of having healthy blood sugar levels and tentatively embracing the feelings of ovulation that I have never experienced before. Even in my cramps, I can rejoice because I know its another sign that my body is healthier and functioning better than ever!


I feel more motivated to do well at work, to shine, to volunteer,.. to embrace my role in making a difference,.. and build my practice!

But its also been  a struggle these past two months to maintain healthy  food choices, exercises routines and practices. I see the snacking monster creeping up at times. However,  it is my choices and my food issues that created the 356 lbs me,.. and it will be my choices, my food relationship and my tool that will ultimately create the 160ish lb me. Personal responsibility and daily accountability are words that synonymous with daily living for me.

I look forward to May 19,.. my one year and I am thanking my friends on OH for the blessings and support... Keep on making healthy choices today,.... I know I plan to!

*hugs*