I lost 8.5 lbs during the pre op diet and have continued to lose during the clear liquids post op diet.  I was feeling good during the liquid pre op but clear liquids only is hard.  I am really looking forward to soft foods which is many weeks away still and hoping to be at some type of normal eating levels by then.  I am not surprised but don't like having a hard time swallowing very small amounts and getting pains when trying to drink just 2 oz of liquids.  Totally understand the why but still not liking it.  

Thank heavens for my family they are my saviours... There is a lot of love in my life.

I haven't been writing everyday because I have been feeling a little better since my first group diet meeting at the surgeon's.  I made a decision to start doing something and downloaded MyFitnessPal - app to my phone.  It has helped me reduce the amount of crap I was eating.  I am paying more attention to what I am eating and how much I am exercising which is good.

I cancelled an appointment with the Psych. and hope to make an appointment with one of the referrals from the surgeon's office since I felt I was not making much progress - had to re-tell my story and why i was there each time - ugh!

Apparently my sleep is off a bit since it is 2:46am right now and I should be sleeping but am not!  I may be a bit high on the anxiety scale given both boys will be here and I am hosting Easter for the family along with Dad being here... whoa!  I can do this without drinking heavily... lol.

Pretty good spirits... just need to keep walking and watching what I am eating.  1 DAY AT A TIME!

 I had another bi weekly meeting today and another day of over eating from stress!   I would like to get over this.  Tomorrow is the counselor more therapy.  Ned to find a replacement for my stress eating another outlet.

 Can't believe a month has already gone by. I have been at about the same weight now for a month - fat!  Ugh!  I was sad today an noticing that I am sensitive and weepy.  I want my strength and confidence to turn.  Patience may be a virtue but it doesn't feel like it today.

 Saturday and we walked a 5k with the nieces this morning.  Damn I am fat!  I was one of the very last people to finish.  The girls let me sit in the passenger seat on the way there because I'm sure 3 people would not fit in the back seat with me back there.  And the seat was too small for my butt!  Finished the race and went straight to I Hop then we had Chick-fil-e and ice cream tonight!  Crap, crap, crap!!!!!!!

I am ready now!