It has been 7 months since surgery and I weigh in at 164 pounds and I feel great. My blood test results came back and everything is excellent. Currently I am in a relationship, but it is too soon for me. I tried breaking up with him and that did not work. I care about him very much to the point where I think I am in love but how can you love a person without loving yourself first.  It does not help when your family members tell you not to settle down with the person you are currently in a relationship with. I hear it all the time about how beautiful I am and I can get a much more attractive looking guy. It makes me second guess myself and my relationship. I want to date other people and enjoy it. I know there is something about me that I need to work on and I think that is accepting the new me. I have changed for the better but I am still that bubbly smiling girl.   

My body is starting to change again and it is strange yet exciting. The other day while I was on my side and for the first time in my life I felt my hip bones, shoulder bones, and leg bones. It felt weird to touch it and kinda gross. Dont get me wrong I am very excited but I do not like to touch it just yet. I can see my veins on my hand and feet. My left leg is a lot smaller than my right. I hope one day they will match up.  I can not wait until I have plastic surgery.

It is amazing what this surgery has done to me. I am down 77 pounds in 5 months. I wear a size 16 pants with a size medium shirt. I went to Victoria Secerts the other day and fit into a medium underwear and shirt. Wowza. I actually feel like a sexy seductive woman.  People have commented on my attitude and my confidence and can see the glow in my face. I do have to keep myself on check because it does go to my head. I am very active and enjoy doing things outdoors. There are many things that I can do that I was unable to do before. I can cross my left leg over my right leg but I can not cross my right leg over my left leg and feel comfortable. I can sit in a chair without my blubber and hips expanding the handles of the chair and getting stuck. I can get up off the floor without any hassle. I can exercise. I can see the scale numbers without having to hold my belly up. I can see my toes more and more every day. My eyes are getting wider. I can feel my hip bones. There are many other things I can do.