Today I weighed myself and I'm 161 lbs!!! WTF?!?!?!  I've lost 101 lbs so far on this journey.  To me, that is so utterly amazing. I've been living it up and having a blast the whole way.  Last weekend alone I did things I hadn't done in years (if at all!) I went hiking, played kickball, went to a pool party (which means I totally had to buy a bathing suit!!!) and met tons of new great good peoples.  It was an amazing weekend.  Feeling gooooood :-)

The past few days have been hell.  I thought I was going to go into either a panic or anxiety attack at any moment.  With the whole house thing going on (which is no longer going on....there goes our earnest money $$), and talking to a few great friends I feel 10 times better.  Ahh, it's nice to have friends who understand the shit I'm going through!

That I just did 5.25 miles in 45 minutes!!!  OMG.....I would have never thought that possible before RNY.  I'm definitely loving my new tool!!

This week I totally skipped past my original goal of 175.  Last week I weighed in at 176.4 and today I'm 174.4.  Woohoo!!!  I feel and look way better.  I am totally having self conscious saggy skin issues though.  It's rough.  We'll see how it goes.

Yep, that's right.  I'm 1 lb away from my original goal.  I started this journey at 262 lbs.  I remember pre-op telling myself that if I got to 175 I'd be perfectly happy.  I never thought hitting the 175 lb mark was even attainable.  Well here I am nearly 9 mos post op and I'm 1 lb away from that goal.  And yes, if my body stopped losing weight right now I would still be happy with where I am.  I've come a LONG WAY!  Saying that, I still want to lose another 31 lbs.  My surgeon and I both think I can get to 145.  Since working out with the personal trainer here at work I've seen my weight loss drastically increase.  I physically feel better when I exercise and can see and feel my body changing shape.  I believe I have it in me to continue on in this journey and to lose the remaining 31 lbs.  I've never felt so great!  I've changed the way I think and I've changed my relationship with food completely.  It's not an overnight change and it will require ongoing effort on my part.  It's easy to get off track (for holidays, birthdays, etc.)  But, I am still so thrilled with my RNY!