Dina McBride

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I've been going through one of the most difficult seasons in my life.  I really thought - way back when - that dealing with my weight, the many co-morbidities, etc., would be the hardest thing I'd ever deal with.  I was wrong.

In the past couple of years there have been days when I've thought, "Lord - what more can happen?"  (Dumb question, by the way!  LOL!)  And then, just when you think it's as bad as it can get - it gets worse.

I gotta tell you - without my deep faith in God - how I've been blessed with this deep ability to just KNOW that He's there, and not only does He KNOW what I'm going through, but He cares - beyond even what I am capable of understanding how much - I don't know.  But I'm SO thankful for that precious - priceless - gift of God!

A couple of months ago when it was a particularly dark time - my heart was just breaking, and I was feeling very alone, God used this album by Kirk Franklin, "Hero"  to speak to my heart, and bring encouragement, and to restore my soul.  What a sweet gift.  So, thanks to an incredibly beautiful DS sister, I'm able to share this excellent song with you here!  Thanks Lena!

dina

Okay - so I figured I ought to just jump in and test the waters...

Hey - I can't figure out how to add stuff to my little profile box on the left.  I guess that means I'm getting older - stuff like this doesn't come as automatically as it used to!  LOL!

Well...  Let's see, what do I want to say?

1.  I'm working on rebuilding my web site:  www.bodybybaltasar.com - I would love feedback if anyone has any.

2.  I'm having great fun with my Frappr map - and getting to see where other post-ops of Dr. Baltasar live.  (http://www.frappr.com/?a=showmap2&mapid=2716278)

3.  I'm slowly but surely easing into trying to exercise...  Shhh!!!  I said the dreaded "e" word.  Shudder.  But, dang, it just makes my back so much better!  (Darn that DJD!)

I guess that's about it for now.  I'll try and be good and post over here a little more often.

Blessings,

dina

4 Years, 3 Months, 18 Days...

There was a day when I would never EVER believe I'd be a post-op.  I remember believing with all of me that I'd die before I ever got surgery.  I remember clearly (of course!  who could forget such a day?!) when I learned that someone had anonymously donated the funds for my surgery - and I realized that SOME DAY - and not all that far off - I'd actually get to have my surgery.  I wasn't so sure I'd survive it - I was a crappy surgical risk, after all - but I knew at least I'd get to at least TRY.

I remember arriving in Spain...  I remember staying in Old Madrid the couple of days before we headed out for Alcoy...  I remember feeling like the fattest woman in all of Spain!  I remember meeting Dr. Baltasar for the first time.  I remember catching just a hint of hope...

I remember the day of surgery...  I remember walking into the OR and climbing up onto the table.  I remember Dr. Baltasar stroking my forehead and singing me a Spanish lullabuy and praying with me.  I remember him saying, "The ceiling is going to look wierd..." as the anesthesiologist began to administer the medication - and sure enough, they did.

I'm blown away that day - those events - were over 4 years ago now.  I blown away that I ever doubted the DS could work for me.  I'm a little bit chagrined at my own lack of faith.

Dang - I love my life.

Yes, there have been hardships, broken heartedness, sorrow, mourning, and even staggering loss of all sorts of proportions.  But they haven't been because of - or even about - my weight in any way, shape, or form.  I've just been living life.  Something that I dare not take for granted.  Yes, sorrow is my companion in my current season of life.  But it's not a sorrow without hope.  In fact, in the midst of the sorrow today, is the thrill - the great reason for rejoicing - that I can provide the care that my loved ones need at this time - because of my surgery, because I'm a DS post-op, because of the gift given.

So - I guess I've just been doing a lot of reflecting lately.  I'm so thankful for my life.  I'm so grateful for the many blessings that have been so astoundingly generously heaped upon my head.  I am amazed anew at the love without measure that God has freely given me.

Oh - what a gift to be His child.

Never a boring moment, though.  You gotta give Him that - it's never boring! 

So here it is - October 20th, 2006 - 4 years, 3 months, and 18 days since my surgery with Dr. Baltasar.  Thanks God for your goodness to me.

dina