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There was a post on the DS board today by Georgina asking if anyone has changed since thier DS. Most people responded that they were more confident and other similiar responses. This made me start thinking about myself. This is what I wrote:

I was having a conversation about this the other day with my best friend. She said she always wondered if I adopted the "funny" girl personality because I was always overweight. She was asking if I still would be funny. We laughed about it but I have been thinking about that for the past couple of days. My mom said I've always been quick witted and funny, even as a child, but I've also always been overweight. Do the two have a correlation? I also have a very smart mouth and think maybe I can get away with a lot of things because of my former size, but maybe as a skinner version I may be percieved as a bitch. Who knows, I might be percieved as a bitch now to some. LMAO Maybe as a smaller Shani my personality will be toned down some. I think I've always been extra confident, maybe I've been trying to convince people of my confidence or maybe trying to convince myself.

Ok now I'm rambling LOL Just some things I've been thinking about.

The things that roll around in my head

I wanted to put this in my blog to reflect back on one day and see how I turned out.

OK...back to the regularly scheduled Shani LOL

Well folks, it's been 5 months since D-day....and boy have we had a time so far! Let's start from the beginning, people that have known me from the beginning might remember these. We have the day I was conquered by the evil Swiss Miss, the day I left a surprise box on the side of the highway for whichever work release cleanup crew would pick it up, the day I plotted my husband's demise for his evil scale dictatorship, and lastly the day I thought I had been anally taken in my sleep but alas it was my first case of roids. Whoa.....a rough 5 months.

But there's been good times too. All my new friends I met on here, drank, laughed, shopped, support meetinged, ate, ate, ate some more, and partied with. Tiff, you still on punishment? LMAO I love my MADS group and don't know what I would have done without you guys and them.

Quick story. Hubby's friend said he was smart. I said how so? The friend had the nerve to say he got me as a big girl and made me into a trophy wife. Yea....he really said this. Hubby responded- Dude, do you know everytime we went out when we were dating, guys tried to talk to her. Trust me, she was already a trophy.  I got a good one!

Enough sappy, on to the nitty gritty

I've been eating everything and anything. I can eat flour, sugar, milk, shoot anything and not have any pains, maybe some gas but not bad at all. Maybe I'll take some of these probiotics I have in the fridge if it gets really bad. Still taking my protonix everyday and heartburn's still at bay. Hair all still here (knock on wood). I still have my Shani & Steph protien drink everyday for breakfast and I usually get in my 100g a day of protien with no problem. We're not gonna go there with the carbs.

Since we're on my downward spiral....haven't worked out in at least 2 weeks. I'm going through the most stressful time I have ever had in my 30 years. I haven't been online as much, my head spins around these days a mile a minute. This economy is a trip!!! Hubby and I have had some setbacks at the worst time. We're supposed to go to settlement on our new place 4/22. Not much time left. One good thing today I found a renter for my current house and have sold half my furniture. Can't be in my swanky place with old furniture lol.

I weighed in today at 197.4........so that's 64.6 lbs lost. I think I might redo my goal. I don't think I want to lose much more weight. The jeans in the picture I have on are a 12. YES A 12!!!!!! Well, I had to lay down on the bed to zip them, and there's a lil azz crack hanging out in the back...but I'm still claiming a 12.  I think a size 10 will be my goal. I go to the plastics seminar this weekend so I'll see what Dr. Kuster thinks. Don't think I'll need a tummy tuck, but I need a phat booty and perky boobs, maybe arms too who knows.

To all the pre-ops, this surgery will work. I have been less than a perfect DSer but I still manage to see loss every month. This has been the best thing I've ever done for myself and I'm having a ball! Shoot I shoulda been this size in my 20s.......nah I woulda been more off da hook then I was LMAO

 Big boobs on parade at 262!

 Blurry pic, but that's me with more proportionate boobs! How ya like me now!

LOVING MY DS!!!!