Words cannot express
the sadness that
fills my heart at
the loss of your
Mother, Legina. I
know she is with the
Lord and no longer
in pain or
discomfort of any
kind. Many prayers
and blessings are
being sent your way.
Diane Fowler
My name is Katy. I
never had the
pleasure of meeting
this wonderful lady,
but I feel empty not
having the chance to
do so. It appears
as though she was
loved by everyone
who's life she
touched.
I am so sorry for
your loss and please
know that my heart
and soul go out to
you and your
family.
May the road rise to
meet you,
May the wind be
always at your
back.
May the sunshine
warm upon your
face.
And until you meet
again,
May God hold you in
the palm of His
hand.
Peace be with you,
Katy Buck Decorah,
Iowa
My name is Legina and I am 39. I have not had any kind of weight loss surgery. Medicaid will not pay for it. I am in the process of having a grade 5 panniculus removed for I can not be bedbound anymore. I don't know how much I weight but I am very large like the people you see on the cable shows. I have lost about a 100 lbs by myself just dieting and exercising in my bed. Even thought I think I weight about 500 or 600 lbs I am not like most you see on tv. I don't just lay there in my bed. I can move my body in any way except stand up. I just hope I can have my panni removed . I have been turned down so much that I felt like I was being left here to die and no one cared. I hate going to doctors cause people look at me like I am a freak. But I don't care anymore what people think cause I am gonna lose this weight no matter what it takes. Me and my hubby are seperated at the present time as he has scitzophrenia and will not take his meds and he is destroying out family. I have a beautiful daughter named Haley that is 19 and a grandbaby named Chloe that is 16 months and is my heart. I also have 5 furry babies.....chubby, rebel, scooby doo, ladybug and dozer. They are all I have. I have no friends and I am not good at making them. So far everyone here has been so very nice.
Its 4am and I feel like i have been tortured. Past 5 nights here in ICU I have had the new girl. She has been a nurse 2 whole months. My whole arm is black and blue with blowed veins. Its so sore i can't hardly move but of course she comes to kill me again. I never felt so alone as I do now. I know I have God and I know I have all of you in spirit but right now I just want someone to hold my hand and say its ok. I am just dealing with so much its not just surgery. There have been alot of good spots though. The staff other than that one nurse is siper great. They are more like friends to you than staff. Will try to update more later as the percocet needs to kick in for my arm.
All went well on trip to hospital in ambulace. When I got there they put me on this new baratric bed. I have never been so miserible. I tried it all night but could not do it so at 6 am next morning they started looking for me a new bed. Now finally at 5 pm I am in the biggest, softest bed. I am in the surgical ICU so no phone for me. At least I have the laptop. Everyone has been wonderful so far.
Its 12:33 am and I am too scared to sleep. At 7 am the ambulance will be here to take me to the hospital to be admitted. I am excited too but my problem is the fear of the unknown. Unknown place, strangers everywhere looking at me like I am some kind of freak, a place that I don't know how they will care for me. Not to mention the fact its killing me to leave my family. I keep hearing my 18 month old grandbaby chloe saying love you mimi in her little baby voice and bye bye and she blows the best kisses. I think if i have people to talk to it will be lots better on me and I am gonna post a number if anyone is bored....hint hint lol. So wish me luck.