Tonight I went to a concert.. lol me leaving the house? yeah I did and it was fun.. all except for the part where I really didn't fit in to the seat at the xcel center... lol Not fun... So I made a new goal for myself.. I really don't need one but I'm going to do it anyways... So this was only the second concert I have ever gone to... lol New goal- Go to concert after surgery and fit in to seat lol... At least I can laugh about it.. think I'm falling asleep...

I have been trying to figure out a time frame for my surgery since the middle of December. I went in for my final required visit with my psych on friday and I asked about speaking to the insurance specialist. Everyone at the clinic is really awesome about everything! The receptionist (who knows everyone by name) gave me more information then I had gotten from the insurance specialist! I made my final appointments for both my dietician and nut for the same day!! My info will be ready for my insurance on March 17th!!! I am so happy! I just hope that they give me a answer quickly. I don't know how long I can wait. I have my first appointment with my dietician on tuesday and then I go for the hardcore dieting. I have been slipping lately don't know why but I'm just not motivated. Well thats my update... Only 4 people have told me I'm taking the easy way out this week.. thats pretty good lol

I found this site a few days ago. I love it! I have been lurking. I am pretty shy even on here I probably won't say much on the boards... I am currently trying to qualify for gastric bypass. I have been blogging about it on my myspace and well people just don't get it! I love the "You're taking the easy way out" comments!

I kinda want to use this as a journal and a way to remind myself of what I have done to get this far. I tend to give up easily.



The beginning of the journey

I called and made my appointment! (me picking up phone and making phone call=beyond hard) December 3rd at St. Joe's clinic. Oh boy me getting to somewhere in downtown st paul? I went to the appointment. I felt like I belonged there and everyone was nice.. I didn't think I would ever find that. I spoke with a nurse and got all of my history and everything worked out. Then I spoke with at insurance spec. dreading that part... I left with a list of 10 things I needed to do before they would submit to my insurance. I am actually doing all of this! very big for me! Let the fun begin!

1. Health and behavior assessment finish on 2/1
2. Dietician Eval 2/5 - scheduled
3. Structured Weight loss- 3 months supervised by dr required before surgery. Weight Watchers does not count! A waste of a year and a half of my life! 1/2, and 2 more scheduled
4. Initial lab work 12/3
5. Sleep study - OH the joy 1/7 scheduled 1 more appointment
6. Physical Therapy consult 12/28 and one more scheduled
7. Pap smear - I just love to be violated... could have just left this one out! 12/17
8. Quit smoking 12/25
9. Surgeon consult 1/8
10. quit drinking pop - this was not on the list but I was told I had to do it.. 1/5

My appointments and other fun

11/19 Meeting

12/3 First appointment

12/3 Initial lab work - only because appointment was early and I hadn't eaten breakfast!

12/14 Talked to psychologist and scheduled time to take MMPI.

12/17 Physical with pcp started back on lexapro and chantix

12/18 Took MMPI

12/19 Got letter in the mail with blood work results... Need vitamins and not just a few... more pills! Time for pill box lol must take them all!

12/20 Started taking all new vitamins and chantix!

12/25 Last smoke!!!!!!!!!! - good bye stress relief - bang head on wall lol

12/26 Consult with lung clinic for sleep study.

12/27 My quit date - moved in with dad.. he smokes 2+ packs a day in the house... I love chantix... don't even want to smoke

12/28 Pt Appointment... My right leg is longer then my Left leg.. lol have to do leg exercises and come back in a month

12/28 second psych appointment  I failed LOL my results came back inconclusive. OMG that test is 567 questions long. Now the psychologist is asking if I can read and trying to figure out what went wrong. yep not impressed by him... told him I quit smoking and he asked about the pop like quitting smoking was no big deal...

1/2 Appointment with nutritionist pretty much told me I possibly have PCOS, early signs of diabetes and that I should eat protein and whole wheat anything if I eat carbs... damn it I don't like meat... I don't like cheese... oh well... I'll figure it out...

1/3 Second MMPI this time Audio - apparently I can't read

1/5 Last diet coke at 11am NO MORE POP!!! good bye best friend of 13+ years!

1/7 SLEEP STUDY... that was fun... please sleep on back- coming over speaker many times lol I'm fat I can't breathe if I sleep on my back... I told her that to begin with... so no cpap in the middle of the night.. had my hopes up.. dr comes in and yes I have sleep apnea. I go home with a cpap. Come back in a month to get setting right... Did I mention during all of this I have spent the last 2 weeks of December moving in to my dads house and working in retail over christmas... yep fun.


1/8 consult with surgeon - guy is nice tells me all about what will happen and what to expect and answers my questions! Also tells me at my height to have the surgery laparoscopic I would have to lose 20 pounds. oh yay!!

1/10 Back to see the psychologist I passed this time!!! He's going to approve me!!! yay!!

1/11 Join Gym...
1/12 actually go to gym and work out for 40 min
1/13 get tattoo on foot... just all around bad day of the year... had to get it... lots of meaning but stupid idea... no gym for a while
1/19 go to gym again...

Well this is where I am today... no appointment for a few  weeks... kinda scared of my weight... My scale still says "err" when I get on it.. lol I have never had a problem with food when I wanted it to work before now... I can't figure this out... I have always relied on low fat crap to make me ok... lol still stuck with the meat and cheese thing I know theres more stuff out there just after so long only paying attention to fat and fiber with weight watchers I just have a hell of a time eating meat. I am also having a hard time getting my father to under stand what I need to do for food... No a brat is not good for you! lol anyways thats my story for now I'm sure I'll add more about my struggles and hopefully some awesome moments! for now I'll be lurking on the boards!