NO restriction whatsoever

Mar 18, 2014

I had half the fluid taken out of my band due to some constant "stuck" issues and my sx thought the area may be irritated. I don't go back for a month. When I was on the 3 day liquids after the unfill, I lost 3 lbs. I went back on solids yesterday and gained it all back.  I forgot how if felt to eat and not be stuck every time and not I have gone into a spiral. It's like OMG, I can EAT and I'm not getting STUCK and if feels so good. Everything goes down without a hitch.  I'm not eating any sliders like I was , like shakes, cookies, etc but I was at least maintaining when I was.

I still go to the gym, kicked up my workout to an hour instead of 45 minutes, keeping my heart rate up on the elliptical and treadmill.

How much am I going to weigh in a month when I am out of control with no restriction?  Once an addict, always an addict.  I won't post this on the boards because I am sick of the bashers but I had to write this down and vent.  I'm so upset. It has only been 5 days since I had the unfill.  I'm so worthless and have no self control. 

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