EGSuzie
Just something fun:
Aug 27, 2007
Thought that this was cute...got it off of Melting Mama's blog...
Eeekk...been a while
Aug 21, 2007
Let's see...school starts Monday for me, Forrest (he'll be a Sophomore*faint*), and Piper (she'll be a kindergardener *double faint*). MacKenzie started a month ago and is already on her first off-track session. Anyway, the craziness starts bright and early August 27.
Uh...things are going pretty well weightloss and food wise. Nothing special to report. Hit 165 the other morning. Haven't hit -100 yet, haven't hit goal yet. Just seem to be moving along at an okay pace...though you know I want it faster! I am about 15 pounds from goal (@150), but I have a sneaking suspicion that I will end up lowering it once I get there. See that? How I am sooo sure that I will get to that goal? Crap, that would suck if I didn't. Mostly because I feel, in many ways, just a fat now as I did in early January. How can that be? I mean, I keep having to buy clothes, so I know that the sizes are moving down. Even my underwear keep getting replaced because I can't keep them up on my non-exhistent hips. I can look at the clothes as they come out of the dryer and I am amazed that they are, in fact, my clothes not my oldest daughter's. I still see so many areas of my body that seem flabby, chunky, squishy, or just plain FAT! I know intellectually that I am much smaller than I was even 3 months ago. But, my mind's eye just can't seem to believe what it sees. I look in a mirror and see a smaller person...but my mind doesn't seem to grasp or accept that it is really me in the reflection. Does that sound crazy? Make sense? I am hoping that by the time I figure out a way to pay for plastics (I'm sure that insurance will laugh at a request for coverage) that I will see myself for something closer to reality. Right now, the only thing that seems true and real about this body is the flabby tummy and the rapidly flattening boobs!! lol. Also, some good news on the hair loss...It. Has. Stopped. Almost three months to the day for the torture to run it's course. So, anyone out there that just might be reading this and wondering if it will really stop...yes, it will.
Only one thing to say this week...
Aug 08, 2007
I made it into a size 10 pant. I am still in about a 12/L or XL top because of my wide shoulders...but this size seems to finally be moving down slowly but surely, as well. The worst part about the pants is that I tried on an 8 (at the repeated request of my 11 yr. old daughter) only to be disappointed that they would have nearly fit...snuggly...if not for this jiggly, hanging belly skin! I am sooooo hoping that I can scrape together enough cash for a TT after the end of the year when tax refunds come back. Just the thought of a flat stomach after all of these years is almost too much to hope for. Of course this is one of those rare times that a wish can be bought for the right price! In any case, I still have about 20 or so pounds to lose before I am "at goal"....and I do believe that it is beginning to slow to a crawl despite my attempts to speed it up! I guess that I really have nothing but time to get there.
It's my 36th birthday...
Aug 01, 2007
and my 6 month mark on July 30.
I had made a little mental goal for myself about this day...meaning that it was in the back of my mind but I didn't dare write it down for fear of jinxing myself. The goal was to have lost at least 80 pounds by my birthday/6mos. I can't believe that I actually made it...and with a whole .2 pounds to spare in fact *said with sarcasm*. So, that puts me at 80% of excess weight lost...less if I go by thinnerself...it said the "medical" standard puts me at 131?? Who are they kidding?? I don't ever remember weighing that....I used to weigh 150 @ a size 5/7 and that was pretty thin on my structure. It suffices to say that I will not be changing my official goal anytime soon!
Moving on....the birthday was nothing exciting. I got some phone calls and cards wishing me well...some cards even had money. I like money. When you have been a SAHM for 15 years any money that comes to you in your own name, fair and square, is truly a gift. I look forward to those cards like a 7 year old looks forward to the tooth fairy. Let's see...MIL bought me a ruby ring that actually fit right off the rack, so that's a size 7 ring...yay for me! She also gave me money....bigger yay for me! DH's granny gave money. Yay, granny...I knew I liked you. DH gave me a Wenger Swiss Army watch that I have been wanting from Costco. Love it! Also, he gave me a Wenger Swiss Army knife...I adore those things!!!! Pretty weird for a girl, huh? I don't give a crap about any other kind of pocket knife...but for some crazy reason these things rock my socks. I have one with me at all times...so just remember that if you are some wacko out there...mess with me and you just might get the business end of a corkscrew.
