EGSuzie
So, you say it's your birthday...well, it's my birthday too!
Jul 30, 2008
Well...today is number 37. Actually, I am about an hour and a half late posting this as my birthday is July 30. Today was the same as any other...nothing special or exciting. Just another day.
But, just a few minutes ago something interesting did happen (exciting is too stong a desciption for this). I was looking through my photos to the left and trying to decide if I should delete some and weed out the old to make room for the new. I came across a pic from my 36th birthday. I read the caption and nearly choked! I have lost 30 pounds since that pic.
I remember that day so clearly. I was thrilled to weigh 171 and thought that I looked pretty damn great that day. Now, to look back and realize that I have gone on to lose another 30...well, it's just unreal to me.
So, Happy Birthday to Me!!!
But, just a few minutes ago something interesting did happen (exciting is too stong a desciption for this). I was looking through my photos to the left and trying to decide if I should delete some and weed out the old to make room for the new. I came across a pic from my 36th birthday. I read the caption and nearly choked! I have lost 30 pounds since that pic.
I remember that day so clearly. I was thrilled to weigh 171 and thought that I looked pretty damn great that day. Now, to look back and realize that I have gone on to lose another 30...well, it's just unreal to me. 
So, Happy Birthday to Me!!!
Checkin' in...
Jul 23, 2008
Alrighty....I have been AWOL for a bit...only about two weeks, so not too bad. What can I update?
For starters, I was supposed to have my 18 month check-up on Friday but it has been postponed until next Friday, Aug. 1. I just pray that my labs are okay...I have to admit to falling off of the wagon a little with regard to supplements. I have been kind of a one-day-on-one-day-off kind of bad girl lately. As of the last week I have taken everything I am supposed to everyday!! Yay me :o].
Next up, school. Piper just started first grade on Monday and I swear that I was more nervous than she was even though she is going to a new school. She was so excited today when she noticed a girl from kindergarten here at her new school. As for me, I am on my last week and a half of Psych. Another yay for me!
WLS related stuff....I am not hungry. I have hardly eaten today. I really need to figure out what my problem is. Acutually, I think I know. I hate to feel full. I don't know what that means or what to do with that knowledge, but it means something. Food sitting in that pouch is just really annoying to me. I gotta figure this shit out before it gets out of hand.
For starters, I was supposed to have my 18 month check-up on Friday but it has been postponed until next Friday, Aug. 1. I just pray that my labs are okay...I have to admit to falling off of the wagon a little with regard to supplements. I have been kind of a one-day-on-one-day-off kind of bad girl lately. As of the last week I have taken everything I am supposed to everyday!! Yay me :o].
Next up, school. Piper just started first grade on Monday and I swear that I was more nervous than she was even though she is going to a new school. She was so excited today when she noticed a girl from kindergarten here at her new school. As for me, I am on my last week and a half of Psych. Another yay for me!
WLS related stuff....I am not hungry. I have hardly eaten today. I really need to figure out what my problem is. Acutually, I think I know. I hate to feel full. I don't know what that means or what to do with that knowledge, but it means something. Food sitting in that pouch is just really annoying to me. I gotta figure this shit out before it gets out of hand.
It's working....
Jul 12, 2008
So, I have been logging my food for the past few days in addition to my normal habits (measuring, counting, weighing if need be) and I have to say that not only have I dropped a couple of pounds (more on that in a minute), but I feel more in control. I have been feeling such a sense of peace again knowing that I am paying close attention to my daily eats. I am truly thinking about what I eat and how often. It's liberating in a strange way.
As for the weight dropping, I think that part of it was due to the weather cooling a bit here. I am a summertime sweller...give me some brutal heat and I can retain water like a camel. Also, not enough fiber may have played a role, if you get my meaning? Finally, some of it has to be due to eating within limits again. I am always amazed how easy it is to drop a few pounds now...it's almost effortless. Gawd, I hope it lasts.
Back on track...like I should be at 18 months
Jul 10, 2008
So, I am just coming up on 18 months out and you know what happens at about that time? Food stops being logged, things that shouldn't be crossing my lips (chocolate and peanut butter chips??) are doing so at an alarming rate, and the scale seems to read higher more often than it does lower.
Now, I logically know that the scale is never going to say the same thing day-in and day-out. But it really is a bit unsettling to see any kind of gain, whether "real" or not. For instance, this week has been hotter than the sun (105-110 degrees) and that has caused a bit of water weight gain because of swelling due to the heat. I know that the weight can't possibly be "fat"...but my mind is working overtime trying to convince me that I have truly fucked up. It came on (5 pounds) literally overnight. It can't be a real gain...and yet it has me worried because I know that someday, maybe tomorrow, maybe next month, it could be real.
Okay, so...the solution to my problem? Start logging my food again. I feel better already...after only three days of tracking. And, I haven't really given anything up or changed the way that I eat...well, mostly. I did, however, notice that my carb intake was out of control!! So logging has turned out to be a good thing for more than just keeping track of calorie intake and accountability. Those damn carbs have got to get scaled back and replaced with protein...no excuses.
In addition and on a purely egotistical angle...I want to waltz into my surgeon's office in a few weeks at the lowest weight that I can maintain. I want to keep this loss at 111 pounds or slightly more. I think I have come to the conclusion that I will not be satisfied with myself at 150 or 145 like I wanted to. If I am there at 5 years out...I will be thrilled to claim it! But, for now, I want it all!! Every tiny pound that I can muster and still feel and look healthy....and I have a little wiggle room currently. I'd like to see that whittled down a bit.
Now, I logically know that the scale is never going to say the same thing day-in and day-out. But it really is a bit unsettling to see any kind of gain, whether "real" or not. For instance, this week has been hotter than the sun (105-110 degrees) and that has caused a bit of water weight gain because of swelling due to the heat. I know that the weight can't possibly be "fat"...but my mind is working overtime trying to convince me that I have truly fucked up. It came on (5 pounds) literally overnight. It can't be a real gain...and yet it has me worried because I know that someday, maybe tomorrow, maybe next month, it could be real.
Okay, so...the solution to my problem? Start logging my food again. I feel better already...after only three days of tracking. And, I haven't really given anything up or changed the way that I eat...well, mostly. I did, however, notice that my carb intake was out of control!! So logging has turned out to be a good thing for more than just keeping track of calorie intake and accountability. Those damn carbs have got to get scaled back and replaced with protein...no excuses.
In addition and on a purely egotistical angle...I want to waltz into my surgeon's office in a few weeks at the lowest weight that I can maintain. I want to keep this loss at 111 pounds or slightly more. I think I have come to the conclusion that I will not be satisfied with myself at 150 or 145 like I wanted to. If I am there at 5 years out...I will be thrilled to claim it! But, for now, I want it all!! Every tiny pound that I can muster and still feel and look healthy....and I have a little wiggle room currently. I'd like to see that whittled down a bit.
