The past few days have been super stressful due an incident related to my line of work.  My job is already pretty stressful (pretty fast paced and have to be good at multi-tasking) so its been a doozy to deal with.  I've been trying to be more cognisant of my eating habits and I'm not really a stress or emotional eater.  In times like this food is usually a turn off for me.  I see food now as fuel as opposed to items of gratification.  Its a hard balance, thought, cause some nutritionists/dietitcians/journalists/etc...will say its normal for us to love our food and to enjoy eating.  After my first few sessions, particularly after the gastric bypass class, it seems like we're being taught to see food as pellets of energy.  Someone in my class commented about never being able to eat great tasting, flavourful food ever again.  Not so, says the dietician.  I'm great when it comes to baking and ok when it comes to cooking.  I just need someone to give me the low fat/no calorie version of cooking tools.  I know basic things...but what I'm going to need is some of those weight loss surgery cookbooks/recipes.  I've looked at a few different chapters locations and they never have them in store.  On my list is a great book I saw at costco: cooking with Quinoa.  Must buy it!

I haven't weighed myself in a few days now.  Since I can apparently lose and gain 10 pounds in the same week, I'm at super frustration levels.  Time for a nap! 

So I officially cut out all caffeine.  I was down to maybe 1/2 a diet coke per day and I said...what the heck...might as well do it now.  The last time I drank a diet coke, I noticed how I felt afterwards...and it wasn't all that great, actually.  I've replaced it with crystal light and sugar free kool aid.  More water intake is a good thing   Except for this 2 day headache...

The 26th is the next appointment date for me.  :) 

I can't believe I'm as excited as I am...to be driving all the way to Toronto and sit in a classroom for 3 hours to learn about gastric bypass. 

As of two days ago I had lost about 8 pounds since seeing my surgeon.  Good news is: I didn't do a thing to precipitate it.  Bad news:  I've gained 3 pounds over the past two days....and this was after stepping up my activity level knowing I was losing!!!!

Moral of the story is....stick with the chocolate bon bons :P  I officially hate my thyroid

Next Tuesday I will be heading back to Toronto for the gastric class.  Can't wait to learn everything I already know!

My friend who lives and works in Toronto asked to meet up for dinner afterwards.  My first thought was, oh great, you want to meet up to 'eat'.  I guess my pre-op self prepping methods have been working.  I"ve been doing a lot of thinking about the surgery and how my life will change afterwards.  Getting together with friends over food and drink is a great thing but I need to replace the food with something else.  Or perhaps bring a head of  broccoli to gnaw on?