Amy M.
Almost half way there
Oct 20, 2014
On 10/30/14 I'll be exactly 3 months post op. Since starting this process I've lost 71lbs, from 322 to 251. 22lbs were lost on my own, 13 lbs lost in my 2 week pre op diet, and 36 lbs lost since surgery. I kind of wish that I've lost more in this first 3 months but I actually tend to count my 2 week pre op diet as part of my total weight loss since surgery because I was consuming similar amounts of protein calories and carbs. I am feeling great though. All of my clothes are loose and I am going to need to go shopping soon for pants because everything I own is just falling off of me! I could probably exercise more than I am currently but when I do exercise I am noticing that I can go longer and work harder. I have recently picked up some of the "Just Dance" games for the Wii and they are a great source of exercise for me. I made a post on the VSG forum about hating exercise because it's so hard to find the motivation and I figure these games are a lot of fun to play so I hardly even notice that I'm actually getting in a workout.
People at work are starting to notice that I'm losing weight and are giving me lots of compliments. Some of them were asking me what I'm doing and at first I was telling them lots of protein, low carb, and exercise but now when I'm asked I just tell them that my doctor and nutritionist have me on a personalized diet and they stop asking questions. I just don't really want people at work to know right now. This whole process is emotional and difficult enough without whispers, stares, and rumors (my work is just like high school). My family are also noticing a difference. My sister doesn't say much but I figure that's because she's jealous. She's also trying to lose weight and while she's not big enough to get WLS surgery she seems either indifferent to my success or she attributes all of my success to the surgery alone. She doesn't understand that this is a lot of work but I'm trying not to hold that against her. You can't be mad at people for things they don't understand. I've tried calling my dad a couple times but I haven't talked to him since my birthday the second week of September. That's kind of depressing. My boyfriend has become the most important person in my life. He's also been the most supportive out of everyone. Every day he comments on how great I'm looking and how proud he is of me. I'm very lucky to have him.
I'm still weighing and logging all my food every day but I find myself here and there having a bite of things that I shouldn't. I have a chocolate candy bar in my desk at work. Every day I take a teeny tiny piece and then put the rest back in the drawer. I did this last month as well. It took me an entire month to eat one small candy bar. I will also take a small bite of my boyfriends sandwich or a few honey roasted peanuts. But I have been reaching my protein goals, staying under 30 grams of carbs and under 700 calories. I am still having a bit of trouble getting all of my liquids in every day so I have had a few stalls in my weight loss and a few days where I felt pretty bloated. It sucks but I'm still burning fat and my nutrition hasn't faltered. Except for the couple glasses of wine that I've had. I am not going to turn into a nutrition straight edge crazy person from this. I just want to be healthy and have the yummy things in moderation. Once I hit goal I intend to still go out with my girlfriends for a couple drinks, pig out on new year's eve (maybe not pig out but you know what I mean), and have a slice of pie on holidays. But until I hit goal, I won't even let myself have one potato chip, bite of pizza, or nibble of cake. But I will allow myself a glass of wine once in a while.
I was planning my goal weight for 160 and my surgeon said he saw me at 180. I am tall and I know that going down to 160 is probably unrealistic for me. So I've revised my goal for 175. I think maybe I'll see how I look and feel once I get there and if I feel like I can go more then I will. But I weighed 160 when I ran cross country in the 11th grade. It's funny because at that time I was one of the bigger girls on the team and I had serious self esteem issues, convinced that I was fat. When I look back at that weight now I'm pissed at myself for ever thinking that 160 lbs was "fat." But anyway, 5 lbs from now I'll be half way to my goal of 175. I'm hoping to be under 200 by Christmas so I can show my family the transformation. Last Christmas I weighed around 320 lbs so it'll be exciting to see everyone.
Today at work I started to feel sharp pains on the right side of my abdomen. When I came home I had a slight case of diarrhea so I'm hoping it was just that and not gall bladder issues. I'll post an update on that the next time I make a post. I hope to post some progress pics soon as well.
