so today is my 8th day since having my surgery. wow. i can honestly say i woke up this morning, and had to feel my belly to make sure that there were in fact still incision marks and glue there. i've felt great day.
i had my first Wow moment today getting dressed. i was putting on my clothes, and when i looked in the mirror. my chest wasn't this mass of boobs, it was defined. i have a chest again. yah, that spot between my neck and boobs. omg! it was amazing. i was missing that area
then me and the hubby went to a huge outlet center to walk around. it was lots of fun and i got a lot of exercise. we even went out to eat, and as hard as it was just drinking while he ate, i did it. and realized that this is fun, because i'm just enjoying a saturday afternoon. then we did more shopping and went putt putt golfing with another couple and our friend, both girls saying how much thinner my face is and how they can tell already. it's so exciting!
all day i was telling my husband that i feel like my life is starting over today. i feel like a new person. i feel great, energized, full of life. i've been so fortunate to have received this surgery. i mean, january 17th i had the talk with my surgery about possibly having some kind of surgery, and then a few weeks later he's calling me asking if i want to come in the next day to have it done. i feel like i was really supposed to have it. i didn't know much about the sleeve. i didn't know much about the lifestyle, how i would change, or anything. but now, i realize it's a tool that will help me be happy again. i'm always doubting myself and putting myself down. today, for the first time in a long long time, for the first time in my relationship with josh alone, i felt okay. i felt good enough. and it's shown. i know i'm going to do this. because i want it, and with this gift, i can finally achieve it.
i never knew how much my life would change with this. i've come to realize so much more than what i thought was ever possible. and i've come to realize true happiness is found deep in myself, i just wasn't letting it out.
thanks for all the support again yall! this website has really made me realize i'm not alone.