I have been overweight since I was a teenager. My mother (how many stories start off so similarily?) tried to control myself and my sisters in all aspects of our lives, including everything we ate. I carried about 15 extra pounds through highschool and felt like I was an absolute freak and completely disgusting. My mother would often tell me that being 20lbs overweight meant I was "OBESE". It was a very dirty word in our household.
Around this time my mother started getting me to attend Weight Watchers meetings with her. I now know it was more about her not wanting to be alone in her own struggle with weight than about my own extra weight.
Needless to say, but as soon as my parents divorced when I was in University I went 'wild'. At least wild for me. Lots of drinking, lots of missed classes, lots of socializing and LOTS OF EATING.
The following year I started dating my now husband. The combination of the Pill, the freedom, the insecurity in my family life and my own akwardness in this new intimate relationship all came together to add 40lbs over the next two years. When we got married I weighed 215lbs and was 5'7".
The next few years were very emotional as I worked through a lot of anger from my childhood and came to grips with the scary fact that I was actually happy in my marriage. By the time I got pregnant with our son I weighed 260lbs. That was an additonal weight gain of 45lbs in 4-1/2 years.
After having him, I kept 20 of those extra pounds and have since added another 10 over the ensuing years. The gain has only slowed because after having my son I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. This has made it impossible for us to have any more children and extra difficult to lose weight.
So here I am, finally ready to tackle this challenge in a new and far more permanent way. I am scared and thrilled and hope that all will work out as it is meant to.
I would really appreciate any help and support from any one out there that feels a connection with my story. I not only don't know a whole lot about this weight loss journey I have started, but I also don't know much about posting, chatting, blogging and such. Any new friends would be greatly appreciated.
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