ObesityHelp

 Has it really been a year since I've updated my blog?  Good gosh how the time is flying by!  My life is so busy now and I'm so active that I just don't have the time anymore.   As you can tell because it's 1:15 in the morning and I'm updating my blog!  Get to bed already girly!

Well I'm happy to say that my vitamin issues have sorted themselves out for the time being anyways.  I had to up my D intake to 100,000 daily and it has done the trick.  The last time I had it checked I was up over 80... woohoo!   All of my other levels have been coming back normal as well which is comforting.   I do still have the nag in the back of my head, wanting to check them just incase but all is good.

Life itself couldn't be busier.   The kids keep me on my toes and ever moving.  For that alone this surgery was worth it.  I have no idea how I would have managed being over 300 lbs with the energy of these two.  Life as the new me is now becoming the norm.  I have a hard time remembering what it was like, the old me.  I see myself in pictures but I can't 'feel' like her anymore.  My head I guess has finally caught up to my new body.

Skin issues continue to be a pain, only for cosmetic reasons.  I have bat wings that will flap in any small breeze.  My thighs and belly are jelly.  Surgery to correct these issues isn't on the horizon for financial reasons so I'm doing the best I can and being creative with my attire.  Someday maybe, we'll see.

Well things are starting to turn around when it comes to my vitamin levels.  Calcium and PTH were 'good' considering how low my D was.  This is where the endo and I seem to disagree.  I don't think he quite 'gets it' that I need a lot more D than he is suggesting.  He wanted to put me on 4,000 iu daily and that should be enough.  Well I was taking 50,000 of the D2 and my levels only went from 18 to 27.  He said, you should be toxic!  I then had to explain AGAIN that I don't absorb fats and that is why this gel D2 is useless and I need to go onto a dry D3.  That is when he prescribed the 4,000 iu of D3, only upping it by a small margin over what I was already taking.  I have since taken matters into my own hands.  I've stopped taking the D2 gel and have switched to a dry D3 50,000 daily.   Is it working?  Likely but I haven't got the numbers yet.  I have to go this week for blood work and see my endo on the 22nd of July.  I'll know then what the numbers are doing and I'll just have to take the flack that he might dish out for me doing what I felt best for myself.  We'll see how that goes..... but I can tell you this, I have started feeling much better lately, more like my old self.  Is it related to the D level?  Not sure but some of the brain fog that I've been living with seems to have cleared.  It's one of the issues I plan on discussing with him later this month.

I also have started to realize that I might be one of the few DSers who has a form of dumping syndrome.  I've been a bit more lenient with my diet lately and have had a few sugary drinks... after consuming I am really dizzy.  It doesn't always happen but if I drink something sugary on an empty stomach, whoa!  I had a double double from Timmies the other morning when I had to start work at 7am and I could have sworn it had a couple shots of vodka in it because the effect it had on my vision and stability was about the same as if it was vodka.  So *slaps wrist*  lesson learned and I need to get back to focusing on what works for me and leave the crap that wasn't good for me anyways alone.

As for the weight, still hanging tight around the 160 mark.  Sometimes a little more, sometimes a little less, depending on where I am in my monthly cycle.  I really don't weigh myself very often anymore, once or twice a month maybe?  The scale has actually made it's way into the basement and I only dig it out when I get curious.  What a free feeling that is!  I am not staring at numbers and fretting over numbers anymore... YES!!!

Well it has been a while since I've updated.... life is busy busy busy!  I seem to have stabilized now at around 160 lbs.  Sometimes I'm a little lower, sometimes a little more.... I think a lot of it has to do with where I am in my cycle and of course what I've eaten the day before, if too salty I tend to retain water.

I've been referred to an endocrinologist now.  I've had my first initial appt. with him but have to go back for a follow up on the 29th.  I'll get the results of a long long list of blood tests that he had done.  Some that my family doctor hadn't been doing so I find that reassuring.  According to the last set from my family doctor my globulin was low and my vitamin D was also low.  I haven't been able to get my D up into the normal ranges yet but I also suffered from low D before surgery so I'm sure that is a contributing factor.  I'm a pale fair skinned gal who lives in the great white north so there isn't much time to bask in the sunshine.... hopefully I'll get some good tanning in this summer and help boost that level up as well as the treatment my endo is going to suggest.

I feel pretty good despite the two low levels.  I actually sleep on my back! LOL  I haven't slept on my back ever in my life, not that I can remember anyways.  I was always a tummy sleeper but that position is no longer comfortable as my back gets sore quickly.  The fact that I am now able to breath again has made sleeping sooooo enjoyable.  I suffered from sleep apnea prior to surgery for I'm not sure how long but I bet it was years before I was even diagnosed.  I struggled through both pregnancies only being able to sleep bolt upright in a computer chair to halfways keep my airway open... even then I sometimes woke up gasping for a breath.  It can be so easily taken for granted.  Just being able to fill my lungs completely with air and not feel like I'm lifting up a heavy weight on my chest as I do so is amazing.... it's as good as sex.... ok well not really but damn it feels good.

Anyways, life is good for the most part.  I know my DH worries still because all of my levels aren't perfect and I take so many supplements a day but I don't think he really knew what to expect.  Hopefully with the help of my endo this worry will ease in him some.  I'd like for him to come to terms with accepting this new me and not worry because in all honesty I was very unhealthy before surgery and I could have had a heart attack or stroke at any time.  I think he sometimes forgets what I used to be like and how difficult life was for me.

That's all for now... I'll update once I talk with my endo!