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Surgeon TestimonialMatthew D. Davidson, M.DI was nervous to have Dr. Davidson do my surgery because he is so new to the WLC and so young. But then you have to think, how do doctors gain experience if their patients don't trust in them?? He is very kind and looks you right in the eye and tells you how it is; basically "you will not succeed in this if you do not do this this and that." I have seen him 4 times now and he has not run late once (which is a big issue for me with a little one at home.) When I had a question and he wasn't in the office it only took him about 30 minutes to call me back from the hospital. He absolutely did a wonderful job on my lap-band. Member Interests
- Cats - I love my kitty, he is the best buddy
- Web Development - I love developing and coding webpages
- Parenting - I have a wonderful old little girl!
- Photography - I have a degree i photography- I love doing fashion photography
- Married - Married for 3 years
- Artist/Muralist - I went to art school, I love to paint
- WLS in your 20's - I made my decesion young so I could live my life to its fullest for the longest
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 Comment by calgal on 7/21/07 1:05 am
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YEAH...how exciting
TODAY is YOUR day!!
Hubby and I will be
thinking about
you....See you on
the losers bench!!
:) Shell Marr
(banded 6/21/07)
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saw doc 3 days ago
finally saw a doctor that actually said something that i could relate to, understand..... So, well, I knew the news was coming for a while and I heard it this morning finally....about my lap band infection and now I am given 3 options.
Option 1: Do what has already been done once. Keep band in place; remove the port and the tubing leading to the band and hope that it is a) either the new(er) port or that b) part of the tubing that is infected... and while it's out, it wil heal then in about 4 weeks, he would put the port back in attached at a different place and then reattach the tubing.
PROS of option 1:
keeps band in place, no need for more invasive surgery
keeps restriction i already have in place- less chance to overeat
CONS of option 1:
procedure has already been done when i had the infection the first time around and there is a chance that it will happen again and i will be right back where i started
Option 2: Go in and completely remove the band... let the area heal about 6-8 weeks, decide if I want to put a new band back in.
PROS of option 2:
completely removes band, and with that; ANY and ALL infection and bacteria (since he can't pinpoint where the bacteria is)
have the option to not put the band back in
CONS of option 2:
more costly; more invasive (2) surgeries (one to take it out, one to put it back in)
no band, no restriction, chance of gaining weight... basically i have to redo and relearn everything i have gotten used to with the band already...
Option 3: Remove band completely and have gastric bypass instead. Uh, option 3 was kind of just thrown out there. I am not comfortable with the bypass... and I don't think I would even have it done. I don't know enough about it, plus I don't like the ideas of cutting and bypassing organs... a band I can handle but a complete re-working of my insides doesn't sound good to me.
So basically, I have these 2 options, now... both require more surgery, ugh, but... it needs to be done, I can't stand the infection any longer... it's not like it hurts or anything but nothing can be done with the band... I can't have any adjustments made, so its basically like the band is there but not functional anyway. I think I'm leaning more towards option 1. The only downside I see is... well... what if it all happens AGAIN? What if there is infection in the BAND itself and then, ugh. It's not about the money... it's just about what is best for me and right now I'm not so sure what that is!
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blargh on June 24, 2008 8:36 pm
i had 1,130 calories today and feel like a pig about it. not normal.
i finished a book today. it was called moose. i reccommend it highly, for all people who've struggled with weight; it is a girl's memoir of fat camp. it was like reading my life story. always battling with weight. fat camps. how her mother prevented her from food; slapped her hand if she reached for seconds....it reminded me of this one time when i was 13 and my friend came over for dinner and i went back for more spaghetti and my mother silently took my plate and dropped the spaghetti down the garbage disposal. no wonder i am fucked in the head.
i thought about my last doc visit today and got mad. how dare they say that things are looking good and better and more normal. I AM LEAKING YELLOW SMELLY STICKY GOO CRAP FROM A GAPING WOUND SINCE DECEMBER. How is that good and better and normal? It made me mad that something isn't being done. another 2 weeks of ruining my clothing with sticky yellow goo and soaking through boxes of bandaids.
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what would you do if i diasppeared? on June 21, 2008 8:10 am
I went into the WLC again this week... but I saw Dr. Weiger and not doctor Davidson, so they really don't particularly know whats going on with my stomach or incision or why I am still infectious. So I"m going to see Dr. Davidson July 2, probably with news that I will have to have my band replaced because there is still bacteria in the tubing. I don't know and I don't really care right now. The doctors are "impressed" that I am keeping the weight I lost off and even losing a little more. They said most people would have gained it back by now. I was frustrated at my last visit because I had gained 1.6 pounds. Like, almost in tears frustrated. I had SURGERY. Weight should NOT be going UP, EVER. WEll that's my thoughts anyway. I'm almost a year out now. A year ago I never would have imagines I'd stlil be where I am now; and that's not in a good way. That's in a "I should have lost at least 100 pounds" way. I should have just gotten the bypass. Stupid me had to be worried about the skin flap which i have anyway !
I did make a recipe that i "believe" most banders and GB could eat. It's shepard's pie anyway, everything gets very soft in the oven so its pretty easy to eat and has a good amount of protein...
12 servings (3/4 cup per serving)
1 1/2 pound ground beef
1/2 cup corn
1/2 cup lima beans
1/2 cup okra
1/2 cup carrots
(or- 1 bag mixed soup vegetables)
8 servings mashed potatoes (instant) (about 2-3 cups)
12 wedges laughing cow cheese (one per serving)
1. brown beef in skillet, drain off excess fat. 2. add vegetables, mix with beef until thawed 3. while beef is browning, prepare mashed potatoes as directed, using skim milk and margarine. 4. line the bottom of a pyrex cooking dish with beef mixture 5. add mashed potatoes to the top of the beef. create pillows with fork. 6. bake in a 350 degree oven for 25 minutes or until top of mashed potatoes are light brown. 7. serve while warm with a wedge of laughing cow lite cheese.
For more protein, you can add protein powder to the mashed potatoes for about 5 more grams per serving!
Calories 292 Calories from Fat 68
Total Fat 7.6g%
Saturated Fat 3.1g
Cholesterol 64mg
Sodium 766mg
Total Carbohydrates 30.6g
Dietary Fiber 0.7g
Sugars 1.7g
Protein 24.2g
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clothing sizes on June 6, 2008 9:52 am
Bought a bunch of summer clothing since I figure this stupid weight isn't coming down. I bought the largest sizes, and am pleased to say that they don't fit because they are too big. (26/28) I bought 24 LB pants yesterday, and they fit. I bought a 22 LB shirt and it fits. I bought a 26 fashion bug swimsuit (prolly should have gotten a 24) and its a little big but It was on clearance and I think if i just get one of those bra backs that turns the backs into a halter, it will fit in the shoulders. I'll be taking my daughter to the pool this year. The shirts I bought from fashion bug are far too large (26's). Which sucks because they are pretty neat. I'm going to post a swimsuit picture on here. Maybe it will be motivating.
Husband has been a real PITA. 2 times now I've said "im going to the gym" and he gives a big heavy sigh and says "but i dont feel like running after/ don't want to watch the baby right now" Can we say sabotage?
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pondering on May 31, 2008 1:10 pm
today; angry at the scale. It's telling me I gained 5 pounds. Its a liar.
SO, here are my thoughts in a jumbled mess.
This lap band surgery as been a big bust. I'm looking into a lawyer to see what can be done to get my money back. It's almost been a year and I have lost 37 pounds... but its basically been on my own.
I've had an ongoing infection for a year now. I can't go out without pus leaking from my incision... it's been revised once and evidently some bacteria is still in the tubing, or something, and its still leaking and I'm pissed and it's a big long agonizing story that I hate.
Aside from many many antibiotics, my surgeon hasn't done anything for the infection. Every other week it's oh we'll see how it goes this week. Well this has gone on for a year and despite my complaints, nothing has been done or offered to be revised again.
When I had the first revision it was ANOTHER 4k... and I don't think there should have been any charge... or a more reasonable charge than 4k. Granted, this was the hospital charge but i still think the weight loss clinic should have eaten the cost.
Well, so, whatever. I know I could have lost more than 40 pounds, but... I still haven't got bingeing under control.
Truth be told, I haven't been exersising either. There is a gym about 500 feet from me and I don't go. I don't do anything. I am a real lazy ass and it needs to stop. I know this. I just need that kick in my ass to get me going like before.
I really think I need to get out with Sophie too. Take her for walks. I said last summer we'd g to the pool and I was too lazy to do that. I am starting to feel like a bad mother. I don't want her to be fat and unhealthy. I want her to be active.
Okay, babbling now. Ummm, been doing artwork and selling on Etsy Got a good little business in graphic design over there. Not really selling artwork, every once in a while something will sell but the designs are a hot commodity. Still haven't gotten a job, but i make around $100 a week on etsy so it's not particularly necessary... at the moment. I can stay home with sophie, and I love that.
Kick my ass into gear, would one of you?
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protest on May 20, 2008 8:34 am
I basically stopped coming onto this site. It depresses me. I am still leaking, and it's like nobody cares. The doctors stopped doing anything about it. I"ve been on antibiotics for 5 months now. 5 months. On top of that, I've been in for 3 fills and all 3 times, they couldn't find the port. I'm pissed and frustrated. This surgery was not what I hoped for. And that... is sad.
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surgery on April 20, 2008 9:45 pm
my dad is starting the process to get lap-band. I"m happy for him, but unsure if they will approve him. He's 67 years old, has diabetes... buthe's had other surgeries before including 3 years ago on his hip... a major replacement. The thing is, that I KNOW he hasn't tried losing weight on his own. He uses food as a crutch. He used it with me as a crutch for when he and my mom got divorced. He doesn't exersise and i really doubt he'll start... but I guess we will see!
I am at my wits end with this computer. I have to reboot at least 2 times a day. I"m sick of the adware, malware, spyware, and every other ware that simply surfind the interent imbeds into this machine. I've had it since 2002 and it's time to switch to a mac. I'm going to have an angry father on my hands ("save your money, blah blah blah your computer is fine") And I keep trying to tell im, NO, it is not FINE. OF course, this is coming from the man who JUST bought a new macbook pro... for reasons unbenownst to me. All he does is check email at home and look up the weather. He SO graciously (sarcasm) offered to give me his old computer because "it works perfectally fine" (oh yeah, then why'd you buy a new one?) which is generous in knowing my father but also harsh knowing that he's not even going to use that pearly white macbook. How do I explain to a man of nearly 70, why this computer isn't up to par with what I need to be doing to up my internet business. (Graphics, web design, logos, etc...) I mean... he's not going to understand. It's like beating a dead horse, one who doesn't get that its not about WHATS ON or not on the computer ("it's a good compute,r i just had it cleaned out!") its about the ram and memory.... and argh. Like I aid. Me. Beating. Dead Horse.
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ow on April 13, 2008 6:44 pm
Restriction just kicked in today. didn't have any at all for the past 1 1/2 weeks and then today, i could barely eat anything, and what did get eaten, definitely got thrown back up. I need to re-read the rules and regulations of this band. I know about not drinking 30 minutes before or after a meal... but i couldn't even keep down a protein shake. Maybe I'm too tight. We'll see.
I'm craving taco bell REALLY BAD.
I sold a painting for $330 on etsy the other day. I was very excited. I also was comissioned for another HUGE painting that is 46" x 36" of this woman's dog. Whatever, that was another $350. I take home about $200 of that after supplies and the REALLY expensive canvas. Below is the painting i sold.
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life of a bandster on April 3, 2008 8:55 pm
Finally got a fill yesterday. Waited 1 hour 45 minutes. Sore from the poking. 2cc in a 4cc band now.
Wish I had gastric bypass? A little... we'll see.... I"d like to have lost 100 pounds by now, but...
Still have a minor incision infection, but the port is far far away from the incision so no harm, no foul. Been on Bactrim for 3 months now.
Took pictures full body on easter. My clothes were SO big. Got a new pair of jeans and a tunic top courtesy of my mom. 4 sizes down from a 26/28 to a 22. Total pounds lost since beginnig 44. Must lose more...
Lost 7.6 pounds since February 25. Happy but will do better with this fill. Can't feel it completely yet but can feel the restriction taking place.
Hub and I are keeping ourselves busy on Etsy. I haven't found a job but have been getting money by doing business cards, banners, logos, etc. Made $80 last week and $52 this week. More than at target and doing something I like.
Started my website for my portfolio: http://www.fauxtofolio.com it's not done yet because I've been busy doing things for money. That sounded wrong. Freelancing sucks in a way because you never know what your income will be. I scored this week because this chick bought a business card template and loved it so much she bought 2 other things. That was $40 right from her to my paypal. Last week, everyone wanted shop banners.
Sophie is walking now. So cute. I love that kid...
Um, pictures.....
New pictures are on the left. Full body to come with my new digs.
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she's like a rainbow.... on March 13, 2008 1:42 pm
I swear, everything and its mother went wrong with my life this past week. Ugh. Did I mention we are BROKE? And It's because of me, so its worse. I actually sold my $200 lane bryant gift card for $150 on ebay because I need the cash and not the clothing.
Anyway, First of all, my keyboard stopped working. Okay, HALF my keyboard stopped working. Remember, I don't have a license so I have to rely on either step-sister, dad, or husband to drive me places. So I didn't get a new keyboard for about 4 days. Before the keyboard, my printer broke. That's less invasive on my internetting, but I WAS using the printer to print applications for employment as well as everything for CHIP insurance for the baby... but again. No ride. Then my husband went to Atlantic City because of a conference for 2 days so i was literally STUCK in the house with the baby.
Luckily, my dad came to take me out- but he was in such a hurry, it was all i could do to run into the post office and RUN to get sophie diapers and food. Needless to say, i still had to get 2 medications, groceries, applications for jobs... man.
I HATE not having the abililty to drive my ass around and get these things for myself. I feel like I"m 15 again! ARGH!
Oh, and above all that... I have another weird, pus-y infection on my incision!!! I went in for an ultrasound to find my port, and they did, but he wouldn't stick me since there was like, a little pocket of pus. I swear. To. GOD I am really considering a revision surgery if they will give me a discount and I can muster up the money or borrow from my dad... We'll see. I didn't know my skin would be so suceptible to infections. WEll, I'm still losing weight. 270 right now....
Mainly because we're poor so we had no food in the house for about a week. We just went there today.... spent $140 which was my last target paycheck... now i dont know what's going to happen. I jsut may have to keep selling things....
And right now I"m making a pork roast, which is funny because i know i wont be able to eat it with the band, haha.
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My Story 100 Reasons To Lose 100 Pounds
1. To feel good about ourselves.
2. To have GREAT sex! :)
3. So we won't think people are laughing or talking about us.
4. To buy clothes in a normal store and actually get clothes with some style to them that fit correctly.
5. To have more energy!
6. To be able to tie your shoes/paint toenails.
7. To be able to sit on a floor and get up gracefully.
8. To wear a bathing suit.
9. To cross your legs or sit Indian style.
10. To fit into an airline/theatre/bus/whatever seat without spilling over and without having to see "that look" from the person who has to sit beside you.
11. So our ankles won't swell.
12. To fit into a booth at any restaurant.
13. To not need an extension to a seat belt on an airplane and to have the tray table not balance on our bellies.
14. To not worry about being decapitated in our cars with our seat belts on if we should be in an accident.
15. To not turn beet red after moderate exertion.
16. To be able to pick something up off the floor.
17. Panty Hose that fit!
18. To go to an amusement park and ride the rides.
19. To be able to sit in any chair without worry of breakage.
20. To not have to apologize when caught in a narrow aisle and have someone need to get by.
21. To go dancing, sky diving, bungee jumping….
22. To be able to go horseback riding or ride a bike.
23. To not worry about rashes and sweating.
24. To not have to listen to "caring" people ask why you don't diet or worse still… "gee youhave such a pretty face".
25. To not worry about spilling food, sauces or gravy down the front of your blouse/dress/shirt when eating.
26. To not have to think up some excuse for not doing something because you know your weight will impede you.
27. To not have your belly hit the steering wheel and to be able to fit comfortably in the driver's seat.
28. To have a bra fit comfortably and to be able to buy underwear at Victoria's Secret rather than at "Tubby the Underwear Guy".
29. To not have to worry about the weight limit of step stools, ladders, motorcycle, exercise equipment, etc.
30. To not get stuck in a turn style.
31. To not wake up feeling achy in the back..or to have ache free legs and feet.
32. So the bathroom scale won't creak and groan when you step on it.
33. To be able to leave the tablecloth on the table at a restaurant instead of dragging it with you when you get up.
34. So you won't look the other way when you see yourself in a monitor where they have security cameras.
35. To never be embarrassed about your size.
36. To not count tying shoes as daily exercise.
37. To not have to wait for the handicap stall when there are plenty of other stalls available.
38. To not be more out of shape than seniors.
39. To not break toilet seat when leaning to one side.
40. To be able to put on wedding rings again successful!
41. To try to make a double chin and fail!
42. Buy clothing bargains to fit the next year … and they do!
43. Not to have to worry about plastic zippers or having your pants bust open.
44. Normal waistbands rather than elastic!
45. To wear knee socks correctly instead of worn like slouches!
46. To look good in a tee shirt!
47. To try on slacks or jeans and have the pant leg actually fit over leg!
48. To be able to get close to sink and not come away with a wet belly!
49. To get out of a stuffed chair GRACEFULLY and not look down to see if the chair has come up with you!
50. To not worry if the hairdresser's smock will fit!
51. To not be self-conscious about eating in front of others!
52. To not be afraid to ask which hairstyle suits your face.
53. To not have people checking you out after looking in your grocery cart.
54. To not feel (and look) like a sausage in stirrup pants.
55. To have your friends NOT be embarrassed to be seen with you.
56. To get promotions/hired or close that sale.
57. Pants that stay up because your waist is smaller than your butt!
58. No more boobs! (this is for the guys!)
59. Wearing shorts or tank tops without fear of arrest or grossing out others!
60. To not have the fear of being rejected.
61. To successfully flirt!
62. To not worry about how to get in and out of the back seat in a two door car!
63. One size fits all and it fits you!
64. To have a lap.
65. To not have the car you are ride in slant in your direction.
66. To be able to use toilet paper as it was meant to be used and not to have to invent ways to "get the job done".
67. To not have to watch TV news reports on fat people in hopes that you haven't been caught on camera!
68. To be able to get between cars in a parking lot without wiping the dust off with your belly and your butt.
69. No more heat rashes and chafing in the upper thighs.
70. So that the cloth in the thigh area doesn't wear away long before the rest of the slacks do!
71. To meet a friend online and not be horrified to have to send a picture of yourself.
72. To not take fat references and fat jokes personally.
73. To know you can go anywhere because wherever you sit you CAN be comfortable and look at ease.
74. To shop at the mall and not have your back ache from lugging your huge butt and stomach around!
75. To be able to stand still, carrying nothing and still look poised.
76. To be able to cross your arms across your chest without them resting on your stomach!
77. To have your feet get smaller.
78. Using your mouth to taste and chew food rather than as just a route to get the food from your lips to your stomach.
79. Blood pressure returns to normal.
80. To avoid other health complications from being overweight.
81. To be able to borrow a co-worker's jacket for an important meeting.
82. To meet someone for the first time and their eyes don't pop out of their head with amazement…because they never knew you're fat!
83. To see your reflection in a mirror or store window without turning away!
84. To wear a watch with a regular length watch band.
85. To look in the mirror when getting your hair cut without thinking you have the biggest face in the world.
86. To not mind getting your picture taken.
87. To not avoid going to the doctor because you have to get "weighed" in.
88. To wake up each morning feeling energized and ready to go.
89. To not even worry about squeezing into small spaces.
90. To not have to enter an elevator and check the weight limit.
91. To look in your closet and have problems deciding which stylish outfit to work since you have so many that look good and fit well.
92. To not have to lie perfectly still in bed at night for fear of breaking the bed!
93. To buy tie shoes instead of slip ons!
94. To be able to walk any distance without looking for a bench to sit on.
95. To look forward to shopping and just trying on clothes!
96. To be able to drive by any fast food place without salivating!
97. To be able to shop at the same store for food instead of having to remember where you shopped last night for the junk food so you can avoid that store for a few days!
98. To not feel lower than low when an innocent child remarks about your size!
99. To not constantly be thinking of where your next morsel of food is coming from.
100. And the 100th reason to lose 100 pounds…..
I'M WORTH IT!
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