Username: Findingme
Location: Norman, OK, USA
Member Since: 9/22/2007
BMI: 46.3
Hoping to have surgery
Surgeon: Ronnie Keith, D.O.

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start an exercise program

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Start the weight loss surgery process

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Stop Smoking

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Member Interests

Youth Work - Working with teen parents
Native American - I am Otoe Missouri, Sac & Fox and Cheyenne/Arapaho
Softball - Played all thru high school and now in coed league
Grandchildren - I have two and one on the way
WLS in your 30's - Wish I would have done it sooner but glad its not later

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First I am so bad at these things. My screen name says it all. I am on a journey to finding me. For so long my identity has been wrapped up in someone else. I was someone's daughter, mother, wife, friend, fiance, etc...So here I am.
I am a mother who adores her children. I have 3 kids.
DD1 is 19 yrs old, DS1 is 15 yrs old and DS2 is 12 yrs old. I have 2 grandchildren and one on the way. DGS1 is 2 yrs old and DGD1 is 15 months. DGS2 is due at the end of January.
I can't wait to begin my journey and get to know people here and share.

Findingme's Blog

6 mos
on December 7, 2007 1:38 pm

I have to do 6 months with my physician. I went in Nov 6th. She scheduled a PFT, chest Xray, a sleep stufy and some blood work. I went in and did my fasting blood work the next day as well as chest Xray. My PFT was the day after Thanksgiving (after a day of shopping). My sleep study still hasn't been scheduled.

I had my Dec apt yesterday. All my levels are good except cholesterol. She thinks if I lose weight it will go down. My chest Xray was clear. Yipee. I was worried because i am a smoker. She hadn't got my PFT results back. My issue is I am short. So I feel like my weight is pressing my lungs way too much. She agrees that is probably an issue. My thyroid is also not good. My level was 5.38 or something.

So now I am taking Synthyroid. I am also using Chantix to stop smoking. She prescribed some diet pills (I have to lose 10% for my insurance to cover). She also told me to take prenatal vitamins.

So that is my update.

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Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
on October 18, 2007 7:52 pm

I went to the seminar today with Dr. Keith. I have been in contact with his insurance rep in advance. Today she gave me the bad news. For the last yr in VA I had another insurance company. I went through the entire process and was weeks away from surgery when I moved to OK (job related couldn't wait). My new insurance will not accept anything I have done previously. And they require a 6 month monitoring with my PCP. AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

My PCP (whom I have seen once) does not agree with WLS. He is not going to help me fulfill the requirement. I can't change until open enrollment in Jan. I am so frustrated. I don't mind doing it again (well I do but I am more than willing) but this is too much to deal with. I am gonna start fresh tomorrow making calls and trying to figure out a solution. I won't let this stop me it just sucks that it is going to delay it.

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Seminar
on October 17, 2007 7:49 pm

So tomorrow is my seminar. I can't wait. I like getting things completed. I love having steps to reach a goal since it gives milestone markers on the quest. Once I get back I will be posting a lot of things for my benefit.

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A lil at a time
on October 9, 2007 12:59 am

I am not a patient person perse. Having to wait until the 18th for the seminar is driving me crazy. So I am going to use the time to the best of my ability. I have an addiction to Dr. Pepper. I can admit it. So I am going to spend until the 18th weaning myself from it. lol
That sounds so pathetic. But it is the truth. I am also trying to quit smoking. Having WLS isn't about my physical appearance for me. It is about health. So naturally smoking doesn't fit into that. I bought a journal today so I can keep track of my progress on both of these things. Hopefully having two goals to work on will help the next 10 days go by faster. Or at least seem like I am doing something positive towards my healthier lifestyle.

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ughhhhhhh
on October 1, 2007 12:58 am

Ever have one of those days? I am just so ready to have surgery and get on with living. It is 17 days until the seminar. I am ready, ready I say.

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My Story

Where to begin? I was never an overweight child. I was very active and loved sports. I developed puberty early and developed a negative body image. Everything was great until I was about 14 yrs old. At 14 I got pregnant. Trying to hide my pregnancy I refused to gain weight and I didn't until my 6th month. During my 7th month I was put on bed rest following a gymnastic accident (yes I was still competing as well as playing softball). My weight ballooned. Before pregnancy I weighed 115 lbs and at delivery 200 lbs. I was miserable. When my DD was 3 mos old I was back to 125 lbs. For my body style, 115-130 lbs is doable. When I post pics you will see.
I graduated high school and started college and had baby #2. Once again my health problems came back and to bed I went (I had pre eclampsia and yadda yadda). My weight hit 200lbs again. Then I had several surgeries before DS was 6 mos old. My body was suffering. I was breastfeeding but unable to eat normally (gallbladder issues/removal and then a horrible experience having tonsils removed). I was down to 135 in no time. However since my body was undernourished, when I was able to eat again I gained about 20 lbs. I was still ok with it. Two children and college kept me too busy to really work on getting it back down. Hindsight is 20/20 and I should have made the time.
My last semester of college I had baby number 3. Life was hectic to say the least. I graduated weighing 165 lbs. Now real life was happening and I couldn't keep up with everything. My kid's father was arrested for Vehicular Homicide (drunk driving) and sentenced to 30 yrs. I had 3 kids who were 7,3, and 6 mos old. I had to take a job that wasn't anywhere near my dream job. I then put furthering my education on hold. I was beyond depressed and stressed. I withdrew my application to the Masters Program. I threw myself into being Mommy and Daddy. All while trying to make sure my children were able to maintain a relationship with their father. My weight slowly creeped up.
When DS3 was 1 I was weighing 215lbs. I started phen/fen. I did great. I was weighing 135lbs and was starting to wean off the combo. Then disaster struck. They pulled the meds. I couldn't maintain my weight since I hadn't been able to wean myself properly. It came back with a vengeance. Within a year and half I was up at 220 lbs. Once again fat, depressed and still trying to make life good.
Since that time I have just tried to maintain. My weight fluctuates between 210-250. I am unhappy, depressed and all things bad. But I managed to meet a great guy 5 years ago. Sadly my weight issues accompanied by my depression has soured me. We chose to end the relationship recently. He felt I should be able to just lose weight. His negative comments added to my depression which made me more unstable on the weight problem.

So we come to today. I want to find the real me again. I want to be healthy. I want to be happy. You will notice I use the 'I' statements frequently. I am big on personal responsibility. And it is I who is responsible for my weight problems. Just as it is I who has to fix it.

Welcome to my journey. Feel free to comment.