learn how to skydive when I am at MY goal weight

I really need to get back to the gym.  It's been two weeks....yes, two weeks since I've been there.  I don't know why I'm letting the time go by.  I know that I NEED THIS!!  I will go today.... I WILL GO TODAY!!  I feel that exercise is SO IMPORTANT and that I can do better if I exercise....BUT I HAVE TO DO IT!!!!

Well, the drama happened.  It's ridiculous.......just plain ridiculous.  Oh and unbelievable too...LOL!!  I won't go into detail because this is a public forum.  I will say that I don't understand why someone would stay in an abusive relationship.....I definitely don't understand.  Yes, the abuser promises to stop.....and the one that is being abused has fallen for that over used line that probably 99.9% of abusers use!!  UGH!!!

So, the plan for today......EXERCISE.....and STOP worrying about the drama that has happened....I can't help someone that does not want to admit that there is a problem.......


Chrissy

I'm going to blog this because lately with all the things that are going on I can't seem to retain anything.

I'm setting my mini challenge for Halloween at 215.  It was at 220 but yesterday I weighed in at 222 so I think that 215 is going to be more of a challenge then the 220. 

So if I can reach my goal of 215 for Halloween then I'll set a goal of 200 for TURKEY DAY!!!  I can't even believe that I'm actually SOOOO close to ONEDERLAND again.  It's been a very long time and I do mean a long, long time.......I feel like Robert Plant...LOL!! 

Then I'll have my Christmas gift that I've really wanted to a very long time.....ONDERLAND.....and it's going to be SOOO GOOD!!


Everyday that goes by and every new bone that I feel in my body gives me such a good feeling.  I don't know I like the idea that I can see bones and feel them.  Some folks might think that's odd but when you haven't felt nor seen them for so long it's like seeing your best friend. 

Major family drama is unfolding.  I can't seem to get it off my mind.  I can't write about it now.  Maybe later.  It's not in my house and I"m very glad about that.  It's just major drama....MAJOR!!

Off I go to conquer my day!!

Chrissy

I DID IT !!!  I was so excited this morning as DH and I were going to Hershey Park.  I was worried and excited all at the same time. 

I was worried that I wouln't fit into the seat and that I would have to leave the ride.  But when I sat down I had room to spare and the belts and harnesses were plenty big.

The I had time to excited as we climbed the hills and I screamed my fool head off.  It was so much fun.  At one point we were coming down a very large hill and I was scraming, "I'm doing it...I'm doing it" as riding a roller coaster was one of my goals for after surgery.  I am so glad that the Lord has given me this opportunity to really live my life.  I'm having SO MUCH fun.

Off to go to bed.  I'm tierd and worn out from my day. 

Chrissy

I weigh myself every morning.  I try very hard not to just focus on the numbers.  Sometimes it does get to me and other times I'm just fine. 

This morning something hit me....I no longer qualify for WLS!!!  I am so happy.  This is a 'good thing' for me.  I also weigh less now then I did in high school....and this is also good. 

I've been thinking about Christmas.  I am not a big gift giver.  I guess if I had an endless bank account I would be more of a gift giver but living on my DHs income and my little part time job and with 5 boys....you just don't have a lot of extras.  So, I've always been very selfless and I've never really asked for anything for Christmas.  My DH usually tries to get me something...if he doesn't it's not a big deal.  But, I've been thinking about the one thing that I really, really want this year.  I want the gift of getting under the 200 pound mark and getting back into OnderLand!!  So, that's the gift that I'm really going to try very hard to give to myself.......

Work is going well. I really do like my job.  It seems like such a silly job as I know I could be going to school and learn something else.  Part of me does want to go to school.  But the other more practical side doesn't even know where I would find the time to fit everything in.  Maybe in a few more years.  I don't believe that we get too old to learn something new and Lord knows I don't feel like I'm 41...well, in a few days I'll be 41.  It would not bother me if I was the "oldest" in the class...LOL!!  Funny thing is the only thing that really interests me enough to go to school is culinary arts...FOOD!!!  I'm scared about that one because I know there would be a lot of eating and taste testing....I'm thinking the pounds would come back on and I could just see me now dumping in the middle of class..LOL!!  Not a pretty picture....

This weekend is my birthday.  I'd love to go to Hershey Park.  I have a free ticket and we would just have to buy DH a ticket.  I want to go just with him.  I love the boys but DH and I get very little "us" time and I want this to be just the two of us.  The only things I definitely want to do is ride all of the roller coasters.  I think I'll be able to fit into all of them......I really do. 

Off I go to do school with the boys.  And to do all of the other multi-tasking that I do.

Have a good one,

Chrissy

There is this lady at work...she's very nice to me but just yesterday I was in getting a few things and she said to me..."Chris, your face is looking too thin..you look like your becoming anorexic in your face"......WHAT!!!  I do not look like my face is becoming anorixic......what does that look like anyway.....?????  My face is definately ALOT thinner and I'm lovin' it......I know she didn't mean to hurt my feeling and she didn't ...as a matter of fact it felt good to have someone say something like that about me...almost a compliment of sorts...LOL!!

So, this morning since I'm such a scale junkie and TOM is over I popped on the scale and up come.....(drum roll please)......228   CLAIMING IT......YIPEEEE!!!

Tomorrow I'm calling my PCP and asking her to please let me do a round of IV therapy for my anemia.  I can't do these pills anymore.  Not only are they very $$ but I also just hate taking them.  It's hard to remember to take them ( three times per day) and they have to be taken on an empty stomach and not before or after eating certain foods....and to but it simply it's a pain in the patootie.....and I'd rather let the insurace company pay for the IV therapy then have to pay for the PERSCRIPTION meds that they REFUSE to pay for....figure that one out....

So off to bed with me...it's going to be another busy week!

Chrissy