Hit 135 lbs so I can be in the "normal range" for my BMI!

It's been a while...I hope everyone's been doing well..I'm doing alot better...no more dumping...well not very often anyway lol...I'm down to 140...wearing a size 4 in jeans...medium shirts...WOO HOO!!!!
feeling great...been going to the gym five times a week...yet a little sad cuz the girls are beginning to resemble tube socks...but oh well..guess ya gotta take the good with the bad...

I only had my surgery about 5 weeks ago, and it's crazy how much my life has already changed.  I've lost about 45 pounds and people are already treating me differently...i'm not embarassed of myself anymore..i no longer consider myself obese, just overweight, which is a nice change...and although this was definitely the hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life, I have absolutely no regrets....all I hope and pray is that God guides me on this path so I don't fk it all up...I want this to work for me and so far it is....at times, it's hard...and I notice I want to eat when I am upset, something I never noticed about myself before....my new outlet is the gym....I can do much yet (Dr.'s orders), but I do kick my own ass on the treadmill..can't wait to move onto the elliptical machine, that's when my body will really start taking it's form....I truly thank God I was able to have this surgery, even though I almost punked out at the last minute..almost walked out of the hospital due to the fact that i am a chicken shit, but luckily stayed strong...at lot of thanks to my mom..that i went through with it....each day gets better..this surgery has truly changed my life.....and it just hasn't sunk in yet...every day i get scared worried that I'll wake up one day and that it was all just a dream...in the meantime i'm enjoying it....enjoying feeling healthy again....and loving it....good luck to all of you in your journey

I had my surgery on Tuesday...Thank God..all went well...I was allowed to eat jello for the first time today..i was on ice chips yesterday and before that, i wasn't allowed to have anything...pain wasn't as bad as i expected...first day was really bad...prob b/c of the anethesia and i'm not going to lie..i was in a lot of pain...but after the first date, the nurses kept giving me morphine and tremadol (?) which really helped alot...I'm still in the hospital...luckily...hackensack university medical center has wireless access so my mom was nice enough to bring my laptop to the hospital...it looks like i'm being discharged today...i hope so...i'm really tired of being in the hospital....talk to u guys soon

So I finally grew the balls to post my real picture on here...I've been a member for at least 6 months now...people at work and even friends have been giving me so much shit about getting this surgery I was kinda scared they'd find me on here, but today I said, screw it.  This surgery will be a large part of me once I do it...can't hide anymore...whether it be online....or in my house...or from the truth, that these past couple of years have been pretty crappy....Today I am making the choice to look at things in a new light.  I'm about to make a lot of changes.  I just bought my own place....i'm graduating from rutgers (grad school) on May 18, 2007...and probably the most life altering of all...getting my surgery on may 22, 2007, God willing, if my doctor clears me after getting the results back from my pre-op tests that I took yesterday.  It's been a long road, but I'm finally getting somewhere..and If I happen to cross paths with someone who's contemplating doing this surgery, I promised myself I'd be the supportive friend to them that I only wish my friends had been to me.

So I got the phone call on Friday.....YES!!!!! I AM FINALLY APPROVED FOR SURGERY...AND I'LL BE GETTING IT DONE IN MAY! so excited yet a little nervous at the same time, but I know I'll be alright. I've been researching this for a long time, and I know this is the right choice for me.