My How Things Have Changed
posted on 4/21/11 9:48 pm
Wow. I was reading my old posts and it seems like so long ago! My update is a bit strange. I will start off by saying that I still have not had WLS, our financial situation hasn't changed much, I still have no insurance, but here is the part that is different....
I have lost 55 lbs as of today.
There has been so much going on lately, so i will have to give you the nutshell version.
Back in September of this year, I went through a very big emotional crisis. Something in particular triggered it, and it was kind of a culmination of lots of things that had happened over the years, but came to a pinnacle one day. That day i did nothing but cry the whole day, and into the next. i lost my appetite completely and when i did finally get so physically hungry that i needed to eat something, food did not appeal to me, so I just ate a couple peices of turkey lunch meat, and a piece of string cheese. that was all i had after 2 days. then the next day, i did the same thing. but at the same time, part of this emotional crisis was something that was good. and i know it sounds silly, but when i would think about this good thing, i would dance. so for several weeks all i would eat was turkey lunch meat, string cheese, and maybe some Wheat thins once or twice a day. i would add a few things here and there, or i would eat maybe twice a day.
i lost 20 lbs in about 1 month. by the 2nd month i had lost another 20. From there, i would kind of eat regularly here and there, but usually once or maybe twice a day. and i would snack every once in a while if my stomach says i needed to eat something. I would also dance for about 15 minutes every day, or any moment i could (while no one was watching, haha)
by the 3rd month, I had gone from about 265 to 227. Thats close to 40 lbs! wow. I couldn't believe it. i still don't know how it happened, i really wasn't actually TRYING. I mean, I knew it was happening, but i wasnt having to make an effort.
So over the next several months, i slowly lost another 10 lbs. I was the same, kind of gaining and losing the same 5 lbs over and over, but i have added more food to my eating, but trying to steer clear of carbs and sugar. I have also added a few more excersizes and about 2 weeks ago i started running the treadmill. When i started, i could only run about a minute without thinking i was going to DIE! and i told myself every day i needed to, because i had to excersize my heart. that is more important to me than the weight loss. My heart has been giving me big time problems lately, and i have been very scared because of it. Since i don't have insurance, i couldnt get it checked out, but i am hoping that it just needs to be worked, and i have to tell you, i do feel better.
So here it is 2 weeks later from when i began the running, and i am up to 4 minutes now. I still feel like i am going to die when i have to stop, but at least i am consistent and up to 4 minutes! yay me!
I also wanted to say that after like the 2nd month of the rapid weight loss, my hair started falling out like CRAZY!!! and on top of that, it seems like the grey hair popped out all over the place overnight! it could have been the stress i was going through too, or a combination of the rapid weight loss, malnutrion, and stress. I can tell you that i got tons of wrinkles too. especially around my eyes. might be because the fat on my face isn't there to fill it out any more haha!
But to wrap it up, I will say that as of today I am 214 lbs, and feel better than i have in a LONG time! I have not been this weight since before my son was born....I will tell you that was when i was 18 years old. I am now 37. There is a lot of psychological stuff that goes along with all this, but i will post that on the next post, just to seperate tham, because this is a lot of reading : )
I will end this post by saying that I am fairly happy with the WEIGHT portion of this all, although there are other things i would like to see happen, but i will talk about that in the next post. My ultimate goal would be to get to 200 lbs. Although i would be content weight wise if i stayed right where i was.
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