I was 286# at my highest,  really I was and I have dropped  down to a 164# and still can't stand to see the number. I know in my head that I have lost a lot of weight   and am more active then I was before even having kids at 19 yrs old. I need a pretty mirror that tells me what other people see!!! My boyfriend sees me and likes it ( I know this believe me) , WHY can't I see it???
       MY mirror  tells me what I know was there and tells me all the threats I believe might happen, if I believe in the POSSIBLE!! What might go wrong. Even my PMD gave a half compliment (I think )telling me how hes glad I have kept the weight off since surgery , BUT "you are up a pound". Glad I did not go when I had gained the other 10 # I just got back off!! I feel like such a failure as I sit at the permanent stall and have holidays looming at the corner. I have jeans in the closet I bought that fit at one time and now are too tight . My weight is back down why do they not fit???
     My goal is to be at 135-140 no more and I was hoping to be there before this year ended. Even took a weight loss challenge at gym. Wishing for a magic Bullet                , but as we all know there really is not one . If I make the desired weight will it really make a difference, probably not as I will have to make another goal  Oh Well Life goes on !!!