It has been a year since losing dad...Couldn't sleep last night at all. Just keep thinking about the year that has passed.
Many things has happened over this past year that although I think dad would have been concerned about, I think he would also be proud.
I think he would be proud of me for going back into nursing. And even though I have run into a few road blocks, I know that in time it will happen. Sooner than later.
Dad loved his children, and grandchildren....and there was never any doubt in that. He would have loved to see how the kids have grown. They are all so cute, beautiful, handsome.......
He never got to meet his newest great grand daughter, Anna, She is so beautiful, and has so much personality...He never got to meet, little Henry, and Lane....
He never knew the struggles that William will endure.
But I know that he sees them from where he is in Heaven...and is watching over all of us.
I love you Daddy, I miss you every day. And think about you always.
People say it gets easier over time...I don't believe that...I think you just learn how to deal with it...Somedays are easier than others....But it is never easy.....
I don't know if I will ever get over the feeling of being orphaned...
When mom died....it was the hardest thing to live with...especially with mistakes that I had made in my life...But still having dad....made things easier....Now that he is gone.....Well.....let's just say...that no one understands what I am thinking, or dealing with....And no one ever will....
I live with the choices I have made every day, and wish I could change things....
I pray that Mom and Dad....know how sorry I am for the things that I have done.
I love you and miss you...