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I've been jumping around 214 - 220 for many, many weeks now.  It seems that I will NEVER get below 214.  It's frustrating, but it may just be my own fault!  I started sampling goodies and then it took over.  I was obsessed with baking and cooking... and picking out LOTS of recipes to try... and not all of them were exactly healthy or WLS-friendly.

I've been off track somewhat, but I didn't think I was doing THAT bad.  Sure, I had snacks and junk food, but not A LOT.  True, I don't know exactly the damage because I never did use a food journal, but I know (right?).  I'm sure I'm so wrong and so off course... because the darn scale just refuses to go any lower.  One good thing, I'm realizing that I need to straighten up, and fortunately, I think I've seen the last of the 215-220 range. 

I went to the therapist on Saturday to talk about this obsession with baking and the old habits creeping back into my life.  My homework is to put all snack foods (that are OK) for me in one cupboard.  If I want a snack, I can only look in that cupboard.  The therapist also wants me to STOP being obsessed with recipes.  I can spend a certain amount of time looking for recipes that I want for dinner, and they have to be WLS-friendly.  (I'm struggling with that because now nothing looks good, but I still want to browse through recipes.  Crazy!)

I think this must be some weird food mourning phase I'm going through.  Either way, I need to kick it to the curb and move on!!!

I'm concentrating more on getting in my exercise, protein and such.  I still weigh myself every day, but I'm determined to not let the scale beat me into depression.  I will overcome it =) 

As for the recipe search, I think I need to limit myself to finding 5 recipes a week that I will ask DH to make for suppers (as he is the cook in the family).  I have a goal to find 'lighter' recipes even though fall is the time for heavier comfort foods.  Hmm... maybe the change of seasons is bringing this on???

Enough rambling.  I've got to go look for a recipe... ha ha.

After trying on a gazillion different shapes and sizes of bras and posting about my woes on the message board, I finally went to Victoria Secret and got fitted.  Before kids, I was a 38B.  Then I went up to a 44C after kids (and lots of weight gain).  After WLS, the 'girls' were looking a little deflated - especially held up in full figure bras.  I was so frustrated with how my clothes were looking over the wrinkled up bras that I stopped wearing a lot of my shirts.  Well... not any more!  In fact, today I'm wearing one of those shirts - the kind that shows every bump in the bra.

Yesterday, the VS girl measured me (over my shirt) and said I should be looking for a 38C.  (Hmm... shocker)  I tried on some - totally disappointed by the side overhang.  I definitely need larger sides!  After working with the sales lady (a bra specialist), I found two styles that worked for me.  She told me to wear them around the house (tags on) to make sure they were comfortable... and I did that... and this one is very comfortable. 

The sales lady gave me a bra card - where she wrote my information and checked off the styles that I bought.  As I find others that work for me, they will add that information to the card.  Kind of like a bra health card (she said =).

After spending $92 for two bras, I was feeling a little guilty... but today (after wearing the very supportive and very comfortable bra), I'm Ok with my purchase! 

And I will defnitely use the bra specialists' advice when shopping for other (less expensive) bras!