well boys and girls, it has been way too long!  i have hardly been on OH..well, not really been on at all.  but i got a happy anniversary email from OH, so here i am to update my profile!

yesterday, june 1st, was my 3 year anniversary from my surgery.  i am holding at about 120, usually fluctuating between 118-120.  i am happy here.  my low weight was 107 and i can admit now that i was probably very unhealthy and barely eating and scared to death to gain weight!  that was a little over a year and 1/2 ago.  i feel good where i'm at.  clothes, i wear 3's, even some 5's.  i remember having some 0's that were a little loose!  i admit, when i try on a size 1 or 2 that i can't fit anymore, it somehow feels a little discouraging.  but i have donated those clothes because i REALLY don't want to be there again!  

exercise...what's that?  i am extremely lazy, my downfall for sure.  even with losing weight, i still have my back problems.  i am supposed to be scheduling surgery soon.  i will be having a fusion done on my lower back.  scary thought, but i got to try!  who knows, maybe i'll even exercise someday...or not. :)

my eating habits aren't the best.  i should have taught myself to eat better, but unfortunately i think i did go thru a stage after surgery where i developed an eating DO.  i still probably only eat once a day and i can still only eat small portions.  i have my starbucks everyday ( sometimes twice), but i don't know how to get to eating 3 well-balanced meals.  NO, this is not the way to be after WLS and i encourage everyone going into this surgery to see a nutritionist right from the start!  it is not too late for me, but i just have to make myself do it!

my labs have not been good, although i have not had them re-drawn in about 9 months.  i have the requisition, i just have to go get it done.  maybe this week, i need to see where i am at with my iron and vitamin D.  those have been my trouble areas.

overall, i am happy i had WLS.  people tell me all the time that i am the "poster child" for WLS.  I AM NOT.  yes, i feel i was successful in losing the weight.  but there are so many things you need to do in addition to that...and do them RIGHT.  i had this surgery because i wanted to be healthy, not "skinny".  i'm only 1/2 way there....

i am starting to freak out, seriously.  i got on the scale this morning and i am up to 112.  bad weight?  no, i know it is ok, but i have gained 5-6 lbs in about a month!  what if i don't stop gaining?  i told my mom yesterday that i was 11 and she told me good, you need to get back to 120.  i know this recent gain is all the dang halloween candy i keep munching on, i think it needs to go in the trash!  i don't necessarily think i need to lose, i just have to somehow put the brakes on.  I DO NOT WANT TO GAIN!!!

on another note, my son broke his arm with 13 seconds left in the football game on saturday.  the poor kid, he intercepted the ball when the other team was going for the extra point and stopped them from winning.  next thing you know we are on our way to the hospital.  it was a horrible break, his wrist was totally deformed.  he broke both the radius and ulna.  luckily he did not need surgery.  and to totally ruin the day for my poor baby, his team lost in OT.  check out my pics and look at his wrist.  the pic is small but i dont know how to make it any bigger.  you can see it though.

thats it for now.  i hope to get to 110 and maintain there.  pleaseeeee let it happen!