After my "dinner" veg broth & 1/8 c cotttage cheese tonight, I must have fallen asleep for a little while. It was 2 hours after I ate my "dinner" and I started feeling hungry. I was like a ravaging tiger on the hunt for his prey. I opened the fridge, and I ATE A CHINESE EGG ROLL.    It took me almost 30 mins to eat it, but I ate the doggone thing. Chewed the heck out of it. Took tiny tiny bites until it was almost mush. I just started the yogurt/pudding/cottage cheese phase, and yet I was weak and I ate the SOB anyway. What scares me is that after I ate it, I read that high fiber stuff can make you not feel good. Thus far (6 hrs after eating it) I don't really feel sick, nor do I feel the need to go to the bathroom. I do, however, feel a slight burning sensation in my tummy (I think it's my tummy, but I don't know if that's from normal moving--sitting up/down, or if it's the GD eggroll telling my body "YOU STUPID DUMBA**, WHAT THE HECK DID YOU DO THAT FOR?" 

I am afraid to admit to myself that I may actually need a fill and I wanted so desperately to NOT NEED  a fill, I wanted to do this on my own. But the length of time that I go between being hungry after eating went from 4 hrs to now barely 3 hours.  I am hungry after eating my tiny portions of level 1 & some level 2 after about 2.5-3 hrs. I am scheduled to see the surgeon tomorrow for my surgical follow up, and I am terrified that he will shake his head and say "told you so." I don't feel bad physically really, it's more the emotional guilt. I won't do that again. In fact, I went for a very long walk today, for about 2 hours (slow walk) and I feel good about that. I just don't want to need a fill.

But I am not the one who makes that decision. My body will make that decision. I just can't believe that here I am 2 weeks post op and I ate a stupid GD eggroll when I know I could have had my sf jello/sf popsicles, or just had more to drink of water or crystal lite. My old habit crept up, because I did not let my daughter see me eat it.  How humiliating that was to do something so foolish. I am not looking for a pat on the back, I just had to come clean and this for me, is the best place to get things out in the open. I hope I don't get sick tonight or tomorrow morning. I still have lost 20 lbs since surgery so I am pleased with that. I think once I get back to my work routine of walking morning, noon, & late afternoon, I will bounce back into my healthy lifestyle (old/new) and I will be ok.  I just needed to vent and "confess" the bad choice I made. 

Tomorrow is a new day, and I shall succeed tomorrow. Today (which is now tomorrow @ 1:50am NY time) I will make good choices for my body and follow my post op meal plan.

Until tomorrow (I have high hopes I will be released to RTW for Friday, 2/29). Cross your fingers.

Doirinne 

I am 6 days post op of my lap band. 13 lbs down. Presurgery weight was 308 by my scale and today the new me weighed in at 295. So that makes it 13 lbs in 6 days. Can't wait to see how much more comes off when I see Dr. Singh for my follow up appt on 2/28 and hopefully he will release me to RTW on 2/29 and planned. I would be grateful for another 7 lbs. 20 lbs since surgery for my RTW @ new job, showing off the new and shrinking me !!!!!! Can't wait.

Doirinne
2/19/08

Surgery went very well on Wed 2/13/08.  It got started later than scheduled but I was out of surgery within 2 hrs. Dr. Singh did an amazing job. The last think I remember is being given the iv and getting sleepy. The next thing I knew I was awake and being brought into my room from recovery.

I came home last night after having drank X amount of water/fluids, and peeing X amount. I thought I had to pass gas before I could go home but my surgeon said only for bypass patients. 

I am feeling tired and sore. But doing well with my fluids. I just have to continue learning to sip very very slow. And walk as much as I can to help with the gas pains in my tummy..  They hurt worse than the incisions. But walking really does help push the gas through. 

This morning i tooted and burped and I felt such relief. Whew. Thank God for that. I know I recieved lots of emails from my OH  friends, but I can't email you personally as I am falling asleep at this desk after only 10 mins online. Just wanted to let you all know I am home, feeling better, just sore and tired. Take care & I wil post soon when I am feeling better.

Hugs,
Doirinne

ps Thank God I am alive !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

I had my last appointment with Dr. Singh yesterday 2/7/08.  I had lots of questions for him, and even though he was running VERY LATE with appts, (an hour behind) he never rushed me and I did get all my questions answered.  He seems to think I may want to go home the same night, but I think I will want to stay overnight just to be sure. I have my 2 week follow up alredy scheduled for 2/28 so I am looking forward to my first weigh in with Dr. Singh that day. I have also been scheduled for my post surgery appt with Dr. Lindstrom (for follow up bloodwork) and Carrie Liebrock (sp?) for my dietician post op appt.  So in just a couple days I will begin my journey. I am anxious to do this. It's finally here. I am finally ready to begin a new chapter in my life.

GREAT NEWS TODAY @ WORK:  I got the promotion I have been waiting for. So when I return to work on 2/29 (Good Lord willing Dr. Singh gives me the ok to RTW on 2/29) I will be working @ new job,  with MUCHO BUCKS !!!!!  Nothing could heal me faster than knowing I am starting a new life, both medically/emotionally speaking, and professionally. 

I will update as soon as I get home from Hospital. I can't wait to share my experience with whoever wants to hear it. 

Take care. Bye for now,

Doirinne