
I am scheduled for lap gastric bypass for July 10, 2007.
I have been over-weight: fat: obese: plus-sized: big-boned... my entire life. My earliest fat memory was a classroom weigh-in in the 4th grade and I weighed 140lbs.
The weight loss surgery decision has been a difficult one. I find it frustrating to explain my decision to most people, as their quick answer is to "just stop eating" or "go on a diet". Been there done that, have the tee shirt.
Essentially my decision has been based on the following: my four beautiful children and my husband. I want to live a full, happy and healthy life for them. Factor #2 is my genetics. I am predisposed to countless comorbities ranging from heart disease to diabetes to numerous cancers to...well, too many others to list. Having the surgery would more than halve my risk to these health dangers. Factor #3 is that I am SO uncomfortable in my skin. I feel like I am living in a "fat suit". When I look in the mirror, I don't see a 260ish pound person, and I am continually hurt because other people ONLY SEE THIS.
I am dedicated to making life-changes, and since first beginning the pre-op process about a year and a half ago, have already lost 30+ lbs. I am getting in the mind-set, because as so many people say: it's stomach surgery, NOT brain surgery.
There is no doubt that without this surgery as a TOOL, I will forever be yo-yo-ing with my weight. I was never thin, I didn't just "get fat" from a stress or from kids or an illness. I have always been big. To me, that tells me that I need more than a diet, and that's why I am going this route.
It's not an easy decision. This is a life-changing (possibly a life threatening) decision. I did not happen upon it easily and it certainly isn't a "quick fix" for me.